Your loneliness is more moving than this world

Chapter 29 Girl, girl (1)
In the eyes of many people, 798 is synonymous with art and a paradise for literary and art workers. Literary and artistic youths from all over the world come to Beijing and spend less than one visit at 798.But in the eyes of some extreme literary youths, 798 is just a place where third-rate artists flatter the non-art crowd. The walls are full of paint, either blatantly plagiarizing a certain master in the West, or describing their lover affectionately a hundred times. Shameless bastard, a girl who just studied science, it's really worrying for an insider to see her.

Extremely Wenqing's attitude towards 798 is very similar to the attitude of Beijing aunts towards Wangfujing. Whoever goes to Wangfujing for Beijing people to spend money, it is clearly a place for Mongolian foreigners. Beijingers buy clothes by themselves. Huguo Temple and Gulou Street, if you want to follow the fashion, you can go to Shin Kong Place, that's really western style.In the same way, there are only two possibilities for extreme literary youths to patronize 798, one is to be a tour guide for old classmates from other places, and the other is to date non-art girls.

In the winter gallery, the science girl next to me came up and asked me to explain what contemporary art is.This is the way she dates literary youths. She likes to comment on my quasi-extreme literary background and hobbies, and uses this as an introduction to ridicule the darkness of literary youths a little bit, as if people like us in the world are biting their tongues and committing suicide. Only then can a female white-collar worker like her regain her status in the academic world and the boring world.

I stood next to a picture of a nude woman for 2 minutes and said: "Contemporary art comes from life." She said: "It's over?" I said: "It's not over." She said: "I thought you were going to blow it up Well, aren’t all of you who study art quite high-profile?” I said, “Isn’t everyone high-profile? In fact, there’s no such thing as high-profile art. It’s just you people who have given art to mythology, and art is just a part of real life. It's just a reflection." She said: "You are making a high-profile disguise, the second half of the sentence of 'art comes from life' is 'art is higher than life', you think I don't know, it's still a reflection, look at these paintings, which ones Does it reflect life? They exaggerate and distort life on purpose, and this one, you see, nakedly obsesses with big breasts." I said, "Hush down, this artist is a woman." She was very imposing. Minus: "Let me just say, she must have no breasts."

She went on to say: "Then tell me about the difference between classical painting and modern painting." No, just like Picasso, the early paintings were pretty good, but the more they drew, the more they looked like children’s paintings, why? Is it just for a return to basics?” I said, “Well, let’s put it this way, in terms you can understand , classical painting is realism, the more like the painting is, the more successful it is. Later, when the camera came out, the artist had no choice but to increase the subjective processing. Expression. When personal thoughts are expressed to the extreme, they begin to be distorted and entangled. Just like life, they are pure and simple at the beginning, and then they start to deceive and self-deceive, and finally feel that everything is ideal. You can listen to me when I say so Do you understand?” She said, “That’s ridiculous, posting your point of view on the Internet will definitely attract a lot of criticism.” I said, “What do you say on the Internet these days? But someone has to say it, not to mention art itself There is no standard, not as rigid as your students of biotechnology." She opened her eyes wide: "Oh, you are still pulling up, why are our students of biotechnology so rigid? You can try another one." I said: "I mean It is the rigor of studying biology, which is more rigorous than art... Well, what I just said is really scolding."

At the entrance of the gallery, she cleaned off the dirt on the tips of her high heels, and talked about the ugliness of the art circle by the way, mainly referring to the style of men and women.She said: "Are you admitting that all of you who study art are messy?" I said: "You can't call it chaotic, you should look at this problem rationally." She said: "Oh, this can also be viewed rationally, you have to be rational to act recklessly. Is it?" I said, "I'm talking about analyzing this phenomenon rationally. Let me ask you a question, what is the most beautiful thing in the world?" She looked at me and said, "You don't think it's sex, do you?" I Spreading her hands to her: "It's a girl." She frowned, expressing her puzzlement.I said: "What is the artist's favorite thing? Girls. Girls are the most beautiful things in the world and the best source of inspiration for artists. So you can see that Picasso loved girls all his life, and he also painted good paintings all his life." She said: "You don't know how to paint without girls? Isn't it a shame to say so much? Women also become painters. Don't they rely on their lower body to create like you men? To put it mildly, you are Pansexualism, to put it bluntly, is a color.” I said, “Actually, female painters also…” She said, “Hey, hey, look, it’s snowing.” I said, “Okay, It’s snowing.” She said, “Will you Wenqing come out to play when it snows?” I said, “Wenqing is also human, why can’t you come out to play when it’s snowing!”

She insisted: "I don't understand, is sex really so magical to you men? Look, you usually tell jokes and talk about this, draw this when you are painting, and often watch this kind of film together, which little girl Have fun with you, you can't wait to drive her into bed immediately, do you think you are like this?" I laughed and said: "Why do you have to say this?" She said: "Look, if you still laugh, laughing proves that I am innocent. Wrong.” I said, “I’m laughing, I’ve never seen you like this, you, a big girl from a famous university, have sex with you on the street, and you are really there.” She said, “I didn’t say that sex was wrong, It’s just that you men are clearly lower-body animals. Whenever and wherever you encounter the lower body, you immediately surrender. It’s all nonsense to sit still and have a few desires.” I said, “Let me defend this point from a physiological point of view. Ah. You also know that the most sexual age for men is in their teens to their thirties, and for women in their 30s to 50s, right? So you can’t just stand on one side.” She said, “Even if That's it, it's not fair, oh, the best years of our women are given to you beasts to enjoy, and when we want to use them, you ignore us and go to find a little girl, and some of them just don't give up... "I raised my eyes to look at the passers-by, leaned close to her ear and said, "Today is my mother's birthday, can we not talk about it?"

"What about getting married? You art students are not very safe when you get married." She talked about cheating after marriage in a logical way, and showed her trump card.

To be honest, I was stumped. This kind of smart and cruel girl is really loved and hated. She doesn't know that a man is asked whether he is cheating or not, which is as embarrassing as a woman is asked if she loves money. I will be labeled as a hypocrite, but I can't be too sincere, otherwise my relationship with her may die.

I mustered up my courage, stood firm and said, "Under the current moral system, cheating is wrong. This is irrefutable." She said, "Then why are there so many men cheating after marriage, and most of them are educated people? Wrong, you still mess around behind your family’s back, why is that?” I said, “It’s probably empty, but there are some who don’t mess around, don’t always regard men as a virtue. As far as I know, many people who do mathematics The men of theory and macrophysics are so guarded that they have spent half their lives working in the laboratory, and it is enough for them to have an old woman outside the house. Besides, men also grow up, and it is impossible to truly understand happiness and happiness when they are young. The sexual relationship is like a lot of people who play rock and roll admit that they don't really start to respect women until they have a daughter, you should give men a little confidence."

She glanced at me, which made me feel hairy. I looked at her and said, "Is that the reason?" She said, "Okay, I'll let you off." I said, "Yes."

The snow began to fall heavily, and it was whistling and drilled into the eyes. I suggested going to the cafe on the side of the road to hide. She thought the cafe was crowded and insisted that I take a walk with her.I stood under the street lamp to adjust her hat, and found that there were only the two of us in the whole street. She pouted and looked at me, like the second lady of a landlord's family looking at the eldest son of a tenant farmer's family.

I patted the snow on her back and said, "The boy at the cafe just now kept peeking at you, are you proud?" She said, "Which one?" I said, "The one with the red envelope, look at it, it went in." " She said: "That's it, you read it wrong, why would people look at me? I'm wrapped up like a penguin today." I said: "No, no, you can't hide your spring beauty under your costume." She She pushed me with a smile and said, "Fuck you!" I said, "Are you still going?" Pick up the bag and say, "Okay, let's go."

She said: "Is it too much for me to ask you the question of cheating just now? It made you a little embarrassed." I said: "No, no, you have handled it just right." She said: "Don't pretend, I know you guys like to save face , I can’t hear women asking these sharp questions.” I said, “But you still asked, which shows that you really want to hear my opinion. We’ve known each other for so long, and it’s already kind of you to ask this. I, I am very touched." She said: "Yes, you see, I am also a person who has studied, don't think that you are the only liberal arts students who understand etiquette." I nodded: "Yes, yes, it depends on you Is it time to examine a man’s sense of responsibility and dedication?” She said, “Wow, you’re so smart, then tell me what kind of man is responsible.”

I twitched myself two big mouths in my heart, and said without changing my face: "Sense of responsibility?" She said, "Yes, sense of responsibility, how do you understand it?" I said, "The sense of responsibility I understand is Go ahead. You also said that a man loves face, and if he is willing to give up that face for you, then he is responsible to you." She was silent for five seconds and said, "That's a good answer." I said : "What about you? How do professional women like you distinguish between good men and bad men? Is it purely based on a sense of responsibility?" Excessive care for one’s own also means indifference to others, and this kind of person is actually selfish.” I said, “For example, foolish filial piety, you women hate this.” She said, “This is one, and there are others. Some things, in short, you can’t base your happiness on the suffering of others, that’s not a good person.” I said, “It’s rare for a girl to see this.” She said, “What do you mean? Look down on women?" I said, "No, I mean that many men may not realize this."

"Do you know why I don't like you Wenqing?" she said.I asked: "Why?" She raised her head and looked forward: "It's not that literature and art are not good, it's just that people who are too literary and artistic always have a sense of aloofness. It’s especially annoying.” I said, “You’re right, many people are like this, but I don’t think this is limited to Wenqing, it should be a common problem among intellectuals.” She said, “How do you say it?” I said : "Well... let's just give a few examples. In the eyes of most literary youths, only literature and art are high-end, because they are confident that they have found the purest and most beautiful things; in the eyes of most science students, only technology is high-end. It is high-end, because they are confident that if they master technology, they will control the future of mankind; in the eyes of most businessmen, only money is high-end, because they are confident that if they get money, they will gain ability and status; The legal system is high-end, because they are confident that the legal system is the first weapon to regulate human civilization, etc., this is a common problem of value." She said: "What you said cannot represent all, but only some arrogant people. I admit that there are such people, and there are quite a few, but you cannot deny that the common problems of your Wenqing are the most serious.” I said, “I admit that I also suffer from this kind of common disease, but I value human nature more. What is in this world is not art, technology, legal system, or finance, but people, that is, human nature. Look at those science fiction films made by Hollywood that describe the future. After the development of technology, legal system, and economy to the extreme In the end, the object of the game is still human nature." She laughed: "It's people-oriented, it's quite old-fashioned, but it's also very real, alas, people are really complicated animals." I said, "Yeah, so we can't use a There are different ways to define others. For example, I am a doctor. I habitually use physical function as the standard when I see people, but I don’t necessarily know more than others outside of the body. Using a standard to measure others can only prove myself narrow-minded, one-sided and ignorant.” She opened her eyes wide, let out a breath and said, “To be honest, if I hadn’t chatted with you, and just met you, I would have thought you were an elitist.”

(End of this chapter)