Your waywardness must be worthy of your ability

Chapter 6 Your willfulness must be worthy of your ability (5)
Among them, Xixi, the youngest, is only 25 years old this year. A best-selling book written the year before last has sold more than [-] copies. The new book she just wrote has already signed a contract with the publishing house and will be published soon. It can be said that he was proud of his youth.When I wrote this article, she was traveling alone in Xi'an, because she missed the Roujiamo there.So, she bought a plane ticket for a bento night and flew there to recall the food she missed most in college.In the middle of the night, she was still showing off all kinds of delicacies in Xi’an in her circle of friends. The most "hateful" thing was that she wrote: "Actually, the Roujiamo here is just a little more meat, a little more fragrant soup, and a little crispy skin. It's really nothing special..." Seeing her mouth watering, all kinds of desires to flatten her heart.

Another Xiao Nan, who is not yet thirty this year, has just successfully sold the film and television adaptation rights of a novel.At this moment, they are preparing to travel abroad with their husband and children.And she basically doesn't need to do housework at home, everything is taken care of by her husband.It can be said that she is only responsible for being beautiful as a flower.Ask her why she can live so leisurely, not like other women who just gave birth, because the child is emaciated and out of shape.The reason is simple. She needs to be quiet when typing, so she hired a nanny to help her husband take care of the children.As for why her husband can bear her behavior of not taking care of housework like this, because she has been going home with a hot manuscript fee!The husband's income is meager, and he is happy to pay more for other family affairs.

There is also A Bei, who is the same age as me, and is planning to buy an independent small villa facing the sea in Zhongshan City, so that he can occasionally go to live and relax, and eat seafood by the way.

On the other hand, I work from nine to six, at what time every day, and rush around for my life.Sometimes I really feel that this is their life.I think that everyone has a self-willed heart, hoping to live life as they yearn for.Most of the life that everyone yearns for is beyond their reach.Because you can't reach it, you will always yearn for it.Some people live the life they yearn for through their own efforts, like the west, south, and north above.But most people lose to reality just like me.

I also want to travel, and I also want to go to Guangdong to eat the freshest seafood.It is best to have a small house of your own in Sanya. During the coldest months of the year, you can do nothing and bring your family to bask in the sun comfortably in Sanya and celebrate the Spring Festival together.

I prefer to be able to write my favorite words, draw my favorite pictures, and do my favorite work quietly every day.

But I have to go to work every day.There, I must listen to the big sisters in the unit discussing various topics that I find very boring, such as:
How many times did I win playing mahjong today.Tomorrow, the daughter of the Zhang family found another rich boyfriend.The day after tomorrow, the Li family's daughter with a master's degree might not be able to get married... If I had known this, I might as well have followed my brother back then. Work and so on.

Every day my youth, my life, is spent in such boring topics.Helpless and people have to continue, because this is the life I choose.Although the topics of my colleagues at work are boring, I like this job.Every day I sort out the text in the archive room, and flip through it, but in just a few pages, what I can see is the various aspects of the world.

And this job is supporting my life. If I give up this job, I may be very poor immediately.It is impossible for a person who does not even have a guarantee of life to do what he likes leisurely. For example, like our colleague’s son Xiao Zhang, what he hopes most is to have his own store.But now he has to go around selling some inferior products every day in order to seek a source of income.Sometimes, as soon as I arrived at the company, Xiao Zhang came to sell products.My colleague said that his Xiao Zhang is now the manager of this company, and the products he makes are so loud and so on.I am silent.This kind of external publicity is direct marketing. In fact, it is similar to the MLM model, and everyone is a product manager.

I have also heard a lot about Xiao Zhang's growth history.

Xiao Zhang got good grades when he was a child. When he was in junior high school, he was always in the top three in the class, and the worst time was No. 6 in the class.

However, Xiao Zhang now works in a small and damp rented house every day. His small house is not only a bedroom, but also a warehouse, and even a workshop.Xiao Zhang goes around selling his products every day when he has some free time, and sometimes he even has to rely on his parents' face to ask for business for him before he can open his business.

I have to say that Xiao Zhang is still working very hard. In addition to looking for business, he also opened a Taobao store.Every day during the day, he carries a shopping bag with samples in it and goes around to sell it.

Like today, it's good for him to come to the unit to sell with his family.More often, Xiao Zhang knocks on the door of each community to sell.On several occasions, he was taken to the Public Security Bureau by the security of the community because of his sneaky behavior.And every night, he can't rest after returning home. He needs to pack the goods ordered by the online store customers so that the courier can come and pick them up the next morning.

Being in such a tired situation every day, he would sometimes laugh at himself and say that he has successfully become the CEO, of course, he is the CEO of a Taobao store he opened.As for Bai Fumei who wants to marry, I don't know where it is yet.Every night, after finishing all the work, Xiao Zhang would smoke a cigarette first.

Sometimes in the smog, Xiao Zhang would think back to the past: Xiao Zhang was an only child, and he had always been the pride of his parents in the past. , ready to give birth to a child, the situation was inconvenient for Xiao Zhang to follow.So Xiao Zhang had no choice but to follow his biological father to live in a second-tier city known as the "world factory".

The flow of too many migrant workers has brought the city an unusual prosperity, making such a small city full of all kinds of temptations.At the beginning, Xiao Zhang could still maintain the good habits of the past, and went to school hard every day.But the good times didn't last long. In the summer vacation after Xiao Zhang graduated from junior high school, his father had to move to the suburbs with him because his work was not going well and his income decreased.Xiao Zhang, who had nothing to do during the holiday, wandered around the streets and alleys every day to play with his friends, and thus met a brother Wang who had already dropped out of school to work.

Brother Wang is very proud. He often invites Xiao Zhang to the Internet cafe to surf the Internet, teaches him how to play games, and sometimes invites Xiao Zhang to eat some street food. Soon the two become as close as brothers.

Xiao Zhang is even more envious of Brother Wang's ability to use money to go online at any time. He is full of longing for the wonderful life of part-time jobs described by Brother Wang, as well as the large amount of money that can be spent at will.

It's a pity that the good times don't last long, and school will start soon, Xiao Zhang can only return to school with nostalgia for Brother Wang.

Because the home is far away from the school, and the high school study is relatively stressful, Xiao Zhang's father chose the boarding school for him.Xiao Zhang is the only child in the family, and his grades were very good in the past, so he is not good at personal hygiene and has many bad living habits.When he was at home in the past, his family members would take care of him when he was young and tolerate and take care of him repeatedly.

But in the school, every child who lives in the school is brought up in the hands of the parents, so it is naturally impossible for anyone to let others talk.

The self-willed Xiao Zhang soon felt isolated, and his roommates didn't like him, and the head teacher also talked to him many times, implying that he should know how to get along with his classmates.

He felt that someone had complained to the class teacher, but he didn't know which classmate it was, because almost every roommate had disputes with him. During those years, Xiao Zhang felt very painful, and his academic performance plummeted.

Later, because of a dispute with his roommate, he willfully chose to drop out of school.

Parents dissuaded him many times, but Xiao Zhang just couldn't listen to any words, and finally had a physical conflict with his father because of this.When he saw his old father who had been pushed to the ground by him, Xiao Zhang flinched for the first time, but he chose the wrong path—fleeing away.

His father was angry with him and did not look for Xiao Zhang in time.In addition, the relationship between Xiao Zhang's parents was tense at the time, and his heart was full of negative energy that was dissatisfied with the family, so he impulsively followed his brother Wang whom he met during the summer vacation to Beijing to work.

What kind of life can a junior high school graduate have in Beijing?Brother Wang took Xiao Zhang to work as a small worker on the construction site. Because Xiao Zhang was too young, the foreman was unwilling to accept him at first, but at that time Xiao Zhang did not dare to go back to his hometown, so he could only beg the foreman bitterly.

Finally, because of Brother Wang's lobbying, Xiao Zhang was able to stay on the construction site and cook for everyone. They worked intensively there every day, and they only worked and rested.If Xiao Zhang does something wrong, he will be scolded and scolded by his old workers, and the living environment is even worse.Sleeping in the shed at night and listening to the sound of snoring one after another, Xiao Zhang felt a little regretful in his heart.

But he didn't have a mobile phone or a telephone at that time, and he didn't know how to contact his family.Finally, one time, he mustered up his courage and borrowed the foreman's mobile phone to make a call home. As soon as his father answered the phone, he heard a woman's voice beside his father muttering: "Your unworthy man Don't worry about it, son."

Xiao Zhang knew that the woman was his father's lover, so he hung up the phone.But Xiao Zhang's parents did not give up. They used various methods to contact Xiao Zhang.Because although the two old people are separated, they are also people who really love Xiao Zhang.They don't want Xiao Zhang to give up his studies.However, due to all kinds of mistakes in life, Xiao Zhang and his parents have never had a chance to communicate well.

Xiao Zhang had just passed his 16th birthday that year.For ten years, for a full ten years, he moved to different construction sites, from cooking for everyone at the beginning, to carrying sand and cement later.He thought about going home, but whenever he thought of his parents' disappointment, dissatisfaction and indifference towards him, Xiao Zhang just didn't want to go home.

In his most golden ten years of youth, he did not study hard, did not enrich the skills he needed, but just fought bravely with his fellow workers on the construction site.In the end, he was detained by the public security organ for fifteen days because he injured someone during a conflict with a worker in Beijing.

After receiving the notice from the public security organ, his parents rushed to Beijing to pick him up.But the parents have already formed another family, and Xiao Zhang is so old, his leaving has become a heart problem for the two old people.

Later, they could only rent him an old HOS house in the shanty town of their hometown. Although it was a bit cramped and damp, it was very cheap.But his work has become a serious problem. A junior high school graduate without any skills, I really don't know what to do with him.At first, Xiao Zhang hoped that the two old people would each contribute some money to open a small restaurant for him. After all, Xiao Zhang has been cooking at the construction site, and he still has some skills. Not to mention being a chef, it is still possible to open a small restaurant.But because of financial reasons, this idea can only be aborted.

Later, when he saw the micro-marketing forwarded in Moments, he raised 5000 yuan to buy the product and started selling it.Until now, almost half a year later, Xiao Zhang has not earned back the 5000 yuan he invested, let alone earning enough money to open his ideal small restaurant.

Sometimes when he comes to work and sits around, I will also ask Xiao Zhang, does he regret dropping out of school too early?Xiao Zhang was relatively silent, just smoking one cigarette after another.He didn't speak, but I saw remorse in his eyes.

Now Xiao Zhang is still very young, only 26 years old.He is only one year older than Xixi mentioned in the beginning, but their lives are very different. Xixi's air ticket to Xi'an is more profitable than Xiao Zhang's hard work for a month.

Xixi, her behavior can be said to be willful, she rushed to Xi'an just for a roujiamo.But she took a lot of beautiful photos in Xi'an and wrote a lot of beautiful words. She was quickly spotted by travel magazines, and the royalties she earned were enough to cover all the expenses of her trip.Working hard like her to live life as she needs according to her own ideas, such willful behavior is what everyone wants.

Of course, Xixi's achievements are not predestined, she also made it step by step.When I first met Xixi, she had just started writing a book. When the first book was handed in, the editor said that it was not very good.She immediately asked to cancel all the 12 words that had been handed in and rewrite it.The editor persuaded her, forget it, the deadline will be on the [-]th, and it will already be the [-]nd at that time, Xixi smiled and said, "Don't worry, I will take care of it."

At that time, she was being forced into marriage by her parents. In order to resist, she dragged a suitcase and stayed in a small hotel alone. drafted.Since then, the editor appreciates her diligence very much and often asks her for manuscripts.Her solicitations increased, and the quality of her books got better and better, and soon Sisi became a best-selling author.

In fact, Xiao Zhang is also very hardworking. When Xixi was working hard to study and write books, he was enduring more than ten hours of ultra-high-intensity work a day. go home.Even Xiao Zhang thought about learning technology, but many certification exams require a college degree or above to apply for the exam. He didn't even go to high school, and gradually became discouraged.

In addition, this time he fought with his co-workers. Although he injured the co-workers, his right hand was also broken.He just wanted to learn some sophisticated techniques, such as repairing mobile phones and so on. It is impossible to do well in these techniques that require less education.Sometimes his mother, that is, our colleague, would wipe away tears in the work unit, thinking that she had harmed the child. How could such a smart child live like this now.

In fact, no one harms anyone, dropping out of school is the way he chose.On the long road of life, this is often the case. A small choice will affect the life of the next ten years, or even 20 years. Only then can one not waste one's life, one will not regret it, and one can, like Xixi, rely on one's own efforts to polish a splendid life with one's own persistence, confidence, and wisdom.

(End of this chapter)