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Chapter 4 Awake
Chapter 4 Sober
Perhaps in this life, one really needs to love desperately once to live up to this life.

In the small space in the car, apart from the music, there is an instant blank silence.

Ling Ziqi looked at it from the corner of his eye, and Su Xiaomu's face was a little pale, his long hair was loosely tied behind his head, and his quiet eyes were looking forward thoughtfully with a bit of gentleness.

The years did not leave many traces on her face, and she couldn't help but recall that when she first saw her, she was only in her early twenties, and she was already the mother of a child. The teacher explained to him when she was dying: Ziqi, Xiaomu is a Strong girl, you will take care of her for me in the future.

He was the responsibility entrusted by his teacher to her at the beginning, so what is it now?He silently turned his eyes away, staring out of the window for a while, until the car queue began to loosen and the horn sounded impatiently from behind, then he started the car and drove forward slowly.

Then, it was already nine o'clock in the evening after they enjoyed a delicate and elegant French meal. Su Xiaomu was quietly sipping dessert wine. Ling Ziqi found a book from somewhere and gently pushed it in front of her.

Su Xiaomu was taken aback for a moment, raised his head, and asked him, "What is this?"

"Let's take a look first." Ling Ziqi's expression was a bit childish, with a faint smile on his lips, and he said, "How about a commercial slogan? Oh, that's right, 'there is always one you like'."

Opening the album, what catches the eye is a series of exquisite landscape pictures, a small book, but the inside is very big, there are detailed introductions of tourist cities all over the country and even around the world, and everything about clothing, food, housing, and transportation are included.

Su Xiaomu stared blankly, with daze in his eyes, and asked knowingly: "Why are you giving me this? I don't go on a trip."

Ling Ziqi didn't allow her to escape, and stared at her carefully with bright eyes: "It will be helpful for your condition to live in a different environment for a while."

Su Xiaomu pushed the brochure back, avoided his gaze and said, "There's no need for that, I'm fine now."

"Okay? You've had the disease three times since the beginning of spring, is that good?" Ling Ziqi lost his patience after all, hid his smile, and even grabbed her hand on the table uncontrollably, his tone was rare serious and cold , "Su Xiaomu, can you tell me what are you thinking?"

After collecting a bunch of information about that person, what do you want to do?
Su Xiaomu opened her mouth slightly, with a look of panic that was seen through, she pulled her hand back forcefully, got up in a hurry and said, "I, I'm going to the bathroom." Accompanied by the sound of high-heeled shoes being tapped, was the back of the fleeing.

Ling Ziqi was not angry, but just stared blankly at his outstretched five fingers, which seemed to still have her warmth on them, and then slowly tightened them, but couldn't grasp anything.

He said to himself: "Su Xiaomu... how can there be such a stupid woman like you in the world?"

The bathroom was on the other side of the entrance. Su Xiaomu walked in a hurry, but stopped suddenly at the corner, and even hid herself behind the marble pillar.

Not far away, Jing Yan's slender and tall figure was fixed in her sight, and it wasn't until he got into the car and disappeared in front of her that she regained her breath little by little.After they broke up, she tried her best to avoid the occasions where he would appear, so he almost never met her, and the few occasional encounters were only when she saw him. She didn't expect that she almost passed by today.

Is this God's will?
She applied cold water to her face, and the cold touch brought back her sanity. She looked at herself in the mirror, and couldn't sleep for several nights. There were already dark circles under her eyes, and there was no trace of blood on her skinny face, so vicissitudes.

Ziqi asked her what she was thinking, but what else could she be thinking about?From the moment Jing Yan entered her world, she couldn't help her anymore.

During those endless nights when she woke up, a crazy idea began to torment her nerves, over and over, over and over again, if she is really going to die, then please allow her to be selfish for a while, let him know her The existence of Xiaoyao let him know that she still loves him, if God has eyes, if possible, let him fall in love with her too.

Although the possibility of Jing Yan falling in love with Su Xiaomu is almost zero.

Su Xiaomu shook her head mockingly, wiped off the water stains on her face, and pushed the door to go out. Ling Ziqi was leaning on the place where she was standing just now, waiting for her.She was still a little nervous at first, but Ling Ziqi smiled at her relaxedly, and thoughtfully put the coat in his hand on her shoulders: "Why did you take so long to come out? I paid the bill first. It's getting late, and I Send you back and rest early."

"Okay." Su Xiaomu secretly breathed a sigh of relief, it seemed that he didn't take the embarrassment just now to heart.

Ling Ziqi's driving skills are very good, the speed is fast but steady, and she arrived at the downstairs of Su Xiaomu's residence in a short time. She got out of the car, bent down to say goodbye, but found that he had turned off the engine, and followed him out, saying calmly: "You The last time I passed out was in the elevator, I don't worry, I will send you upstairs before leaving."

Once her illness was involved, his doctor's position was very firm, and she had no room to comment.

It was very quiet in the elevator. They seemed to be missing something today. After thinking about it, Su Xiaomu finally thought of a suitable word—comfortable. They suddenly became uncomfortable. She didn't even dare to face him directly, and was even more afraid of him. Ask yourself something else.

As soon as you enter the door, you can see the enlarged background poster with the photos of Su Xiaomu and Xiao Yao. Her home is not very big, but it is decorated enough warmly. All the decorations are designed by her.

Looking at her bright smile in the photo, Ling Ziqi was stunned for a moment.

Su Xiaomu walked into the open kitchen and asked, "Do you want something to drink?"

Ling Ziqi shook his head and opened a window for her to ventilate. The night in the small high-rise was quite windy, and his hair was slightly messed up. He looked at her quietly and said in a low voice: "Xiaomu, think again. My proposal, if you are afraid of unfamiliar places, I can accompany you."

Ling Ziqi was always meticulous when he was wearing a doctor's gown, but he became cynical after work, making it hard for people to see what his true nature was. Su Xiaomu had accused him of being a double-faced person before, and he even replied humorously, you still You're right, I'm a Gemini.

But he is rarely serious recently, so Su Xiaomu wants to pretend that nothing happened, she smiled: "Xiao Yao still has to study, I can't leave, as for my illness, I just need to pay attention to it in the future, You don't have to worry too much, haven't you survived after so many years?"

"Are you unable to leave, or do you not want to leave?" He pursed his lips, and took another step closer to her, his deep eyes were scorching, his cheeks were slightly flushed under the light of the kitchen, and there was still a light fragrance of red wine on his body.He didn't give her a chance to refute, and continued, "Will that person really cherish everything you sacrificed? Is it worth it?" He didn't know what happened between her and Jing Yan. It should be said that almost no one knew about Xiao Yao. Who is her father, even he knew it unintentionally, and only knew that he was her past.

He ruthlessly uncovered the unhealed scar, and Su Xiaomu turned into anger from embarrassment, staring at him: "I don't need anyone to cherish... um..."

A sudden kiss.

Ling Ziqi trapped her in front of the sink, hooked her soft and slender waist, and kissed her tenderly and deeply.

Su Xiaomu reflexively pushed him away, raised his head in disbelief, his cold lips lost their color: "Ziqi! Are you crazy?"

Ling Ziqi acted as if he had never heard of it, a slight sense of loss slipped through his eyes, and then he heard himself muttering with a wry smile: "Xiao Mu, if you love him, will he love you?" Then if I love you, you will love me ?
Being stabbed in the deadly spot, she quickly gave him a reply, but it was a fatal blow: "So what? Even if he doesn't love me, I won't love you either!" It was so abrupt without thinking about it. popped out, followed by a brief blank space.

Ling Ziqi was stunned, and slowly let go of the hand on her waist. After a while, his expression had become calmer than ever before. He looked up at the wall clock, and his tone became cold: " It's very late, I'll leave first." Then with a wooden face, he turned and walked towards the door.

When Su Xiaomu really realized how hurtful things she said, she rushed out without thinking about anything, and the past scenes flooded into her mind. When Xiaoyao had a high fever, it was Ziqi who accompanied her day and night She, he attended the parent meeting for her in other places, and he always took time to accompany them during festivals, not to mention that when she fell ill, he would leave work to take care of her... There are many, many, It's been him all these years.

How could she dare to hurt him like that?

Tears of remorse poured down like rain, drenching her in a panic.

"Ziqi..." She stopped him at the elevator entrance, and cowardly did not dare to take a step closer.

Ling Ziqi's body froze, but he didn't look back.

Seeing his resisting back, Su Xiaomu felt sad for a while, scolded herself a thousand times ten thousand times, bit her lips and explained with a crying sound: "Ziqi, I'm sorry, I was impulsive just now..." But her words still Before she could finish speaking, the elevator dinged, and the door opened, and Ling Ziqi walked in quickly, and she could only see his cold side face in her blurred eyes.

Before the elevator closed, he lowered his head slightly and said softly: "Xiaomu, I should apologize, I'm a little drunk tonight."

And you just, wake me up.

(End of this chapter)