The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 14 What can I exchange with you

1
Ye Li is tall and tall, but she also likes to get tired of me. She always stands with me even in line for gym class. This way, the team looks rather weird, so every time the PE teacher comes, she will be put in the queue. Get behind.

In fact, Ye Li's most prominent feature is not only her height, but also her big breasts.

I heard that not long after the military training, the boys in the academy held a private election for the "Sexiest Goddess", and Ye Li was elected with a high number of votes.The news quickly spread throughout the school. For a while, men and women came to watch the big-breasted girl. After seeing it, they left a little disappointed. They probably thought she was a stunner, but she was just an ordinary female student.The straight hair of clear soup noodles, no makeup on the face, and loose clothes. The two big breasts are ready to move with the rhythm of walking, and the clothes on the chest are stretched tightly.However, this is also in line with the fantasies of some boys, so after the crowd dispersed, Ye Li still had many admirers.

Sometimes I feel that her deliberate concealment is like a teenager expressing his sorrow for Fu Xinshi, which makes people feel hypocritical, and a lot of envy and jealousy are born for no reason.

But people are really strange animals. When you are envious of others, maybe she is also envious of you.

The first thing Ye Li said to me was: "Is Cheng Xi your boyfriend?"

That day, the other girls in the same dormitory were all out shopping, and I was alone in the dormitory with the door open, playing melodious Irish bagpipes, and holding "San Mao Anthology" in my hand.When I heard the sound, I raised my head slightly, and she came and sat down opposite me, looking at me curiously with her beautiful eyes, as if observing a rabbit.

"You know each other?" I asked calmly.

"I know him, maybe he doesn't know my name." Ye Li replied.

It turned out that one day when Ye Li returned to the dormitory, she was surrounded by several male classmates on the way, and asked her for her phone number with a playful smile. When Ye Li was flushed with embarrassment and hesitated to call for help, Cheng Xi passed by to help her. Wai.

"Just because of your solitary personality, it took a lot of thought to find out about Cheng Xi, right?" I looked away from the book and looked into her eyes.

Ye Li said calmly, "You haven't answered my question yet."

I turned my face and looked at the withered branches outside the window. I was so dazed that I couldn't remember the first time I saw Cheng Xi, but it was very strange. I was often asked about my relationship with him recently.

"Cheng Xi is just my high school classmate." I answered her with disdain.

I also wondered why he wanted to take the same university entrance examination as me, because the scores were not enough, and he had to rely on his father's relationship to arrange him in the art department.Yuan Ming once tentatively told me that Cheng Xi liked me, and seeing him jealous and nervous, the happiness in his heart rippled wantonly.Who likes me has nothing to do with me, except you.

2
Just when everyone was about to forget Ye Li, the big-breasted girl from the Department of Media, at the New Year's Day party, Ye Li was dancing hotly with heavy makeup on, tights, shawls and long hair. Zhang Zhang's sexy stunner, if it weren't for her pair of round and upturned breasts, I would never have recognized that it was Ye Li.Yes, I must admit, those are the best looking and fullest breasts I have ever seen.

"Who is this? He has a good figure. He is really suitable to be my model." Cheng Xi praised her from the side.

"Come on, I'll take you to the backstage to get to know each other before he leaves the stage." I teased him with a smile.

"This is your classmate? Why haven't I heard you mention it?" Cheng Xi took my hand and walked through the crowded and excited crowd, talking endlessly. "Which department girl is this, look at that big boobs shaking..."

Standing in the background, I was also very surprised, why she is so desperate today, as if she wants to greedily attract the attention of people all over the world.

When the strange Ye Li came out from the backstage, the crowd around the exit immediately became noisy. "Beauty, which department are you from? What's your name?" "Beauty, please leave a phone number!" They couldn't squeeze in, so they had to raise their hands outside the crowd and shouted at her: "Ye Li, Ye Li!"

What she saw at a glance was Cheng Xi, and a trace of sweetness flickered at the corner of her mouth.In an instant, a woman's sixth sense told me that she didn't care about attracting the attention of people all over the world, as long as Cheng Xi could see her.

Ye Li walked through the crowd in a coat and came to us. Only then did I see her appearance clearly, with shiny eye shadow, big thick black eyes, bright blush, and an eye-catching smile. Big breasts... She exudes enchanting charm all over her body. Standing next to her, I feel cramped hostility, and feel that the applause from the entire auditorium is particularly harsh.

She gasped and asked me, "Do I dance well?"

I know, this sentence is actually asking Cheng Xi.

Later we went to eat at the school’s snack street. Ye Li treated guests and said that he wanted to thank Cheng Xi for his “rescue grace”, but Cheng Xi didn’t know how to save Ye Li. Really met you? Impossible, if I knew you, I would ask you to be my model..."

"Okay, I am willing!" Ye Li clapped her hands happily like a child who snatched candy.

After eating, Ye Li wants to go back to the dormitory.After saying goodbye, looking at Ye Li's lonely figure under the street lamp, her curly long wavy hair shivering in the cold wind, I suddenly felt sorry for her.

"All of you guys like girls like Ye Li, right? She has such a good figure and she's also pretty." After saying that, I regretted it a little, only to realize that there was a hint of probing in the words.But the competitive spirit of a woman made me want to know how Cheng Xi would answer.

"Ye Li is fine, but I have someone I like in my heart." Cheng Xi took off his coat, wrapped it around me, pulled the neckline and looked at me again, and said, "Xiao An, you are too skinny, eat more and grow more flesh. See how plump Ye Li is."

I pushed Cheng Xi away and shouted: "You guys like Ye Li like that, but there's no need to belittle me." Huge anger poured down from the top of my head, and the cold wind went straight into my neck. , I was still shivering in Cheng Xi's coat.

Cheng Xi hugged me in his arms without saying a word, and said anxiously: "You know I didn't mean that, you know I..." My heart suddenly rose to my throat, afraid that he would say the next three words. Three words I'm going to pretend I don't know, we can't be friends any more.

I broke free from Cheng Xi's arms, straightened my hair, raised my head and said, "I will go to see Yuan Ming during the three-day holiday on New Year's Day, will you come with me?"

The light came down from Cheng Xi's head, and his face was so clearly in front of my eyes in the light and shadow. The dense fog in the night covered his eyes, but it couldn't hide the sadness. "I won't go, I'll take you home first."

We didn't say a word all the way.Looking at the blinking neon lights outside the car window, pedestrians who don't know where they are coming from and where they are going, feel extremely lonely.Cheng Xi's profile was reflected on the glass, and I remembered what Yuan Ming asked me: "Why don't you like Cheng Xi?"

Because humans have not evolved the ability to choose love.Love is a chaotic arrow in the hands of Cupid. People are hit by an arrow before they understand what is going on. From then on, like a prisoner, they entrust their freedom and heart to that person.If you like each other, you are lucky to exchange each other; if you meet one unrequited love for the other, you may not be able to get the other's treasure if you give all your freedom and heart.

3
The three-day holiday passed quickly, as if nothing was left.We fell in love, but in the end we didn't break through the restricted area either.Yuan Ming hugged me and murmured, "Xiao'an, wait for me to be admitted to university." In his opinion, being admitted to university means becoming an adult and being able to do things that adults can do.But in my opinion, this idea is very naive, but because it came from Yuan Ming, I feel that I swear, this is probably the naivety of women.

Everything is as usual, except Ye Li.

She often ran to Cheng Xi's studio, dragging Cheng Xi's sleeves and acting coquettishly: "You can't break your promise, you said you wanted someone to be your model."

I also booed: "If a gentleman says a word, four horses are hard to chase, Cheng Xi." Ye Li blushed.

At first she dragged me to accompany her, but later I heard from Cheng Xi that she often went alone.

In fact, we were all loners before.I'm used to it, I'm not interested in any topics that girls like to talk about, and I don't bother to pretend to be in a group, except for Cheng Xi who occasionally comes to see me for dinner, and we go home together on weekends, most of the time I just stay in the dormitory and read.Girls who don't fit in are always accompanied by gossip behind their backs. Since I am a local and my appearance is not a threat to them, I just made a quiet complaint.Ye Li's gossip is particularly harsh, it is said that she is often not in the dormitory on weekends, and she always smells of alcohol when she comes back, so it is rumored that she is being taken care of by a rich old man.

If Ye Li hadn't suddenly become close to me, I would never have joked about it.

"I heard that you were taken care of by a rich old man. Is it true?" I asked her cautiously.

She stroked her long hair, revealing her white neck and slender collarbone: "Do you think that I have a big breast and a coquettish personality, so I should have been slept by many people?"

I didn't expect her to ask me in this way, my heart was pounding, and I felt that I had become the same as those female students who chewed their tongues, and my face was hot.

"I didn't think so. I thought you were innocent before." I answered her quickly.

Ye Li lowered her long eyelashes: "I have always been better developed than girls of my age. I am tall and plump. Growing up as a bad girl is not worthy of being loved, I often fantasize about a superman to save me. I thought he was, but unfortunately he is not..."

So Ye Li told me a story from middle school.The male lead is Ma Hao, handsome and arrogant, good at studying, and a girl's dream lover, but at that time Ye Li was so inferior that he didn't even dare to think that Ma Hao would like her.But he waited for the bus with her, he gave her math tutoring, they got in the rain together on rainy days, he played the piano and Ye Li accompanied the dance, and the whole school knew that there was a pair in class XX.Ye Li feels like a princess, he only treats her well in the whole world, the only one.

But the dream is fragile, Ma Hao did not accompany her to continue dreaming.After hearing the news of Ma Hao's transfer, Ye Li ran to his house to question him, a lot of anger was choked in his throat but he couldn't say a word, his chest heaved violently as if he was going to explode in the next second.She leaned forward to kiss him, and pressed his hand on her chest, Ye Li trembled all over and tried not to cry, but the tears slipped down.Ma Hao gently withdrew his hand and hugged her, as if this was his last protection against this summer that could not keep love.

"Ye Li, I'm sorry, actually, I don't like girls."

The air was stagnant for a minute before Ye Li realized, no wonder he never said "I like you", he didn't pay attention to her big breasts like others, he never made any intimate moves...

"Then why..." Ye Li spat out these words with difficulty, as if they were not coming from her throat.

"Because we are all lonely and need company." Ma Hao's calm voice spread in the air and hit her eardrum.

"But do you know Xiao An, I don't need company, I need a lot of love and affirmation, I'm afraid of being alone." Ye Li looked at the ceiling absently.I didn't know how to comfort her, but I just held her in my arms, as if it would take a little loneliness off her shoulders.

4
The scorching sun burned my skin, I ran on the campus road, regardless of my care, like a deer shot and injured by a hunter, rampaging.

Why did Yuan Ming break his promise?He promised me to fill in the city for all my volunteers, but now he has been admitted to a university in the south.He said it, he was reluctant to leave me a turning distance... It's a lie, it's all a lie!A woman becomes naive and foolish in the sweet words of a man, but in the end she still hopes that he will tell another lie, saying that all this is not true.

I pushed open the door of the studio, broke in and was about to shout, when I saw a white body clinging to another half-naked body.The naked woman was obviously frightened, and hurriedly pulled the white cloth to cover her body.

I stood there stupidly, my mind was blank, I didn't know where I was, or even who the two people in front of me were.

The lying man exclaimed "Xiao An".It seems that another self came back to his senses and recognized Cheng Xi by relying on this familiar voice. He just came to hold my hand and ran away. I ran fast, as if I wanted to throw out the picture in my mind. go.

"Xiao'an, Yi Xiao'an!" Cheng Xi's tearful voice burst out from the studio.

I found a bench in the dilapidated neighborhood opposite the school and sat down. The phone kept vibrating. It was Cheng Xi's call.My eyes were dry, as if I had cried all my tears away, but in fact, I didn't shed a single tear.

I looked at the pale and gray sky and felt exhausted.I remembered what Yuan Ming said: "There are blue sunny days in the south, clear mountain springs, and fresh air like Xiao'an." At that time, I took his hand and said, "It's not rare for him, you have to stay here , or I will break up with you." But there was another voice in my heart: No matter where you go, I will follow you.

When you love someone, you say you are stubborn, but you are actually being mean in your heart.

We are told that love is bitter and sweet, but no one tells us that it is also contradictory.Yuan Ming said that I was his air, but now he wants to leave me; Cheng Xi said that Ye Li is very good but he has someone he likes in his heart, but now he is sleeping with Ye Li; Ye Li said that she needs a lot of love, and now she But she used her body to seduce a person who didn't love her... Everyone spoke insincerely, and couldn't tell who betrayed whom with mouth or heart.

The night lights came on one after another, and there were no stars tonight, as if when people were sad, even the stars felt helpless.I was walking alone in the community, and a group of children chased and ran past me, leaving behind a series of happy shouts, which reminded me of my childhood friends.At that time, we thought that we would grow up by chasing and chasing, but later we realized that all growth is lonely.No one bullied us, we still went to and from school every day, waited for the holidays, were nagged by our parents, and wrote endless homework, but that was it, gradually everyone became silent and lonely.It is said that we all have to go through transformation to a new world and become adults.

5
The door was pushed open creakingly, and a figure flashed in and came to my bed.

"Xiao An, are you asleep?"

It's Ye Li.

She took my hand and pulled me up.

I threw away her hand impatiently, sat up by myself, and touched the slippers in the dark.

One after another, we came to the top steps of the girls' dormitory.Ye Li sat down and lit a cigarette. Every time she took a puff, the faint light illuminated her lonely face.

"I like Cheng Xi."

"I know."

"I'm going to be his model, I seduce him, am I cheap?"

I am silent.

"But he likes you, and he doesn't dare to confess that he likes you, isn't he also cheap?

"Shouldn't two scumbags be together? When I was a child, the wretched uncle next door told my mother in front of me that Ye Li had such a big breast, and he didn't know how many men he would seduce in the future..."

She didn't look at me, as if she was talking to herself.

"Yi Xiaoan, tell me, I have big breasts, can I get love in exchange?"

The wind came in from an inexplicable place. This time I didn't hug her, but I suddenly understood that everyone's loneliness must be faced alone.

Ye Li naively thinks that big breasts can be exchanged for love. Maybe in her opinion, beauty, wealth, and time are all good.However, I thought I was pure, and thought that love could be exchanged for love, which is actually just as ridiculous.In essence, we all stubbornly think that we can exchange our most precious things for the love of our loved ones. In fact, we can only exchange for endless loneliness and pave a seemingly beautiful road called youth.

"Before you opened the door and came in, I thought I was about to get love, as if the summer that couldn't keep love could finally continue. I couldn't stop myself from loving him, my self-esteem and pride couldn't , His love for you can't. But when he yelled your name piercingly, when I saw the stack of your portraits, I imagined how he painted you over and over again, as if to be engraved in my life , I realized that I was wrong. But I don’t regret it. Yi Xiaoan, I don’t need to apologize to you either.”

Without the consent of the flowers, spring came; without the welcome of the earth, the snowflakes fell; without the permission of the raindrops, the rainbow appeared; without the permission of the light, the shadows followed.Therefore, we think that we can love openly and aboveboard without the permission of the other party. This is the law of nature.But forget, spring goes and spring comes again, snowflakes fall and melt, love is love, this love is only related to oneself, and has nothing to do with the other party.

I used to think that unless the other person is willing to give it, unless I am willing to take it, it is not love.

How much of such a harsh love can exist in the world?Some love is only responsible for encounters, you appear in my life, I fall in love with you, I am willing to exchange the most precious things, whether I can exchange them is another meaning.

(End of this chapter)