The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 16 As It Begins
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I seldom come to this coffee shop near the school after graduation. Every corner of the shop is full of memories from my school days, and every time I come, I can’t help being emotional, so I don’t want to come, but I can’t resist An Lan’s coercion and temptation.

"Don't look at Dabai as a warm man, but what happened? He loves gay friends! Can we count on a warm man like a central air conditioner?"

"Last month, I rushed to four weddings and two full moon wines. Why did my husband and children belong to someone else's family?"

"Now is the era when small fresh meat is flourishing, and the cafe near the school is simply the right time and place!"

……

An Lan was still on the phone, blah blah blah, and I was perfunctory "uh, huh, huh" until she showed her trump card: "I heard that the store has launched a new mousse, I treat you!"

"make a deal!"

Immediately, An Lan yelled angrily: "Wang Weiwei, you have delicious food but no humanity... Do you have any sympathy?"

I threw out my catchphrase: "What is compassion? Is it delicious?"

The weekend cafe is deserted.The floor-to-ceiling windows seemed to be another world, the sun was shining brightly, and the crowd was noisy.

An Lan sat across from me, resting her chin with one hand, and flipping through the fashion magazines in front of her with the other.

There were two middle school students at the end of the bookshelf. The boy sat casually on the ground, holding a magazine like "National Geographic" in his hand and concentrated on reading. The girl ate snacks and casually accompanied the boy, occasionally stuffing a piece into the boy's mouth.It can be seen that she is not interested in the book in the boy's hand at all, and all her eyes are on the boy.

Penny Dai's "How" was played softly in the cafe, and the memories of the old days came over my face: "...the weather here is very hot, what about there? Everything has changed here, I no longer cry, I put The photos are also put away, and what about you..."

I turned around and asked An Lan, "What do you think will happen to them in three to five years?"

An Lan fiddled with the mousse on the plate, looked blankly at the boys and girls at the end of the bookshelf, without saying a word.

Pretending to be deep, I thought to myself, then lowered my head and continued to look at Yishu in my hand.

After a long time, from the corner of the eye, I saw a tear falling on the magazine opposite, making a small hole, and when I raised my eyes, I saw An Lan whose tears were in a mess.

Is this seeing things and thinking about people?

During the few seconds when I was stunned, An Lan of the zodiac sign of Pisces cried bitterly, and said angrily: "Nowadays middle school students are so blatant in dating, what should I do if I wait for a single dog?"

My jaw dropped under the table.

2
An Lan and I are just alumni and not classmates. We are in the same department and have different majors. An Lan was dragged to our dormitory when he was allocated a dormitory because he reported late at the beginning of the semester.

In his memory, from the very beginning, An Lan looked impatient and eager to fall in love.

After so many years, she hasn't changed.

On the first day of the dormitory chat, An Lan uttered a bold statement: "I want to strip at the speed of light and become the first person in the dormitory to have a boyfriend!"

After finishing speaking, everyone was surprised by An Lan's straightforwardness. After a minute of silence, a girl asked tremblingly: "An Lan, are you lonely?"

Immediately, everyone burst into laughter.

In fact, An Lan of the zodiac sign of Pisces is quite beautiful, wearing chiffon skirts in summer, she looks very fairy.But until her junior year, An Lan never fell in love.

Assure Chairman Mao that she is not Lala and has no crush on me.

An Lan has always been a nympho, and when she sees a handsome guy, she rushes like a deer. Her beauty also attracts many suitors, and she is also very interested, but the strange thing is, with further contact, An Lan It quickly cooled down.

After doing this several times, rumors of An Lan spread among the classmates for some reason, saying that she was just playing with feelings and was anticlimactic.

Every time I couldn't help yelling at my gossiping classmates: "What kind of game relationship? We are all adults, and talking about love is something you love and I want to do. If you can't afford to lose, don't blame others for not looking at you! "

Although I was helping An Lan with my words, I also seriously talked to An Lan in private: "What's the matter with you? Aren't you excitedly committing a nympho? Aren't you elated and enjoying being pursued? What's wrong with you?" Can't talk anymore?"

An Lan pouted her chin, pondered for a while, then raised her eyelids resentfully, and said, "Wei Wei, I may have a disease."

I jumped in fright: "Is it terminally ill? Can it still be cured?"

An Lan gave me a white look: "I suspect that I have the disease of incapacity to love. When I see a handsome guy, my heart beats so hard that I thought it was love; being pursued and admired by others, being flattered in all kinds of ways, I thought that was love... But when I got along with them, everything turned sour. Their various shortcomings came surging, and my previous frenzied and excited mood dropped to freezing point in an instant, and I had no feeling for them. Do you think this is a mental illness? But I haven't loved before, how can I be incapable of love?"

She looked at me with begging little eyes.

This is the first time I heard such a high-end word "love incompetence". Since what An Lan said was beyond my comprehension, after a brief silence for a minute, I waved my hand: "Why is love incompetence, don't be hypocritical In the final analysis, either because they are low, you are not in the same rank; or because your three views do not match and your needs do not match. It's that simple!"

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One day not long after, An Lan yelled in the dormitory: "I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love!" (Well, the important thing has to be repeated three times.)
The roommates were amazed again!

"What's that person's name? Which department?" We began to cross-examine.

An Lan's blushing face instantly froze because of excitement: "Ah, I don't know his name yet!"

"Cut!" The roommates dispersed after hearing this.

"Wei Wei, I'm really in love, really really really."

I thought it was another soy sauce story of a quick heartbeat and a quick retreat.

More than a month later, An Lan came to my ear: "I found out clearly, his name is Feng Hao, from the Department of Mechanical and Electrical Engineering of the school next door." After finishing speaking, she looked at me triumphantly.

It's not easy, she can maintain her interest in a creature of the opposite sex for more than a month.It seems there is a play.

An Lan applied to take a philosophy class at the school next door. Because she was unfamiliar with the place, she sat alone in the last row of seats by the window every time.She found that, as lonely as she was, there was another boy sitting in the last row, leaning on the other side of the window.

In one class, when the humorous philosophy teacher talked about "being or not" in the Book of Changes, he made a joke and said: "Look at the boys and girls in the last row. But no one knows whether their relationship will go further in the future."

After the teacher finished speaking, the students below booed.

The strange thing about fate is that two people who had nothing to do with each other actually intersected because of the carelessness of others.It seemed like fate made a joke with them, but when I recalled it later, I felt that the joke was played with extra caution.

Once after the elective get out of class was over, An Lan took a shortcut to go back to school, and was surrounded by a few social gangsters at the quiet north gate. A deep voice came from behind: "Let go of that girl!"

It's Feng Hao.

The boy who sat in the last row by the window and liked to wear plaid shirts, long eyelashes, big eyes, double eyelids, quiet and quiet, was asked by the teacher, "Will their relationship go further?"

An Lan didn't know why at that second, so much information popped up in her mind about Feng Hao.

The little gangsters are just bullying weak girls, and they can rob one vote for one vote. Seeing a 1.8-meter-five tall man come to the rescue, they retreated one after another.

"Thank you, my name is An Lan, from the school next door."

The boy waved his hand: "You're welcome." Then he turned and left.

An Lan was not sure whether he recognized her as a classmate who took the same elective course as him.

But seeing the back of him leaving, An Lan's heart was inexplicably filled with a gust of wind, and she flew up lightly like a kite, and the end of the string was in the boy's hand.

A month later, Feng Hao set up a stall in our school to sell things and was caught by the security guards.When the security guard was questioning which department and grade Feng Hao was from, An Lan happened to pass by and saw Feng Hao's embarrassed face.At that moment, An Lan rushed over, resorted to a beauty trick, grabbed the security guard's arm and coquettishly called "Brother Security Security", and after a lot of hard work, he managed to relieve Feng Hao.

Feng Hao, who was successfully rescued, invited An Lan to dinner afterwards.

Drinking draft beer and eating skewers, Feng Hao realized that An Lan took the same elective course as himself, and he had also saved the beauty once.

"Cheers to our fate!" Feng Hao suggested, and An Lan drank the wine in one gulp.

The cool summer night breeze is blowing slowly, and the barbecue stall next to it is filled with fireworks. There is a tall and handsome boy sitting beside him, with a pair of shining eyes, like stars in the night.An Lan felt inexplicably happy, her face was hot, and she found all kinds of excuses to drink with Feng Hao like a little girl.

She thought she was drunk, but just looking at Feng Hao, her heart calmed down again.Like a kite rising slowly in the sky, it is not afraid to fly, because someone is pulling the string.

An Lan knew that she was in love.

This time, it's true.

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An Lan discovered that Feng Hao had various part-time jobs and stalls inside and outside the school.

Once, An Lan met Feng Hao selling second-hand books outside the school, and couldn't help asking him, "You don't look like a poor student, why are you working so hard to make money?"

Feng Hao grinned happily.

"My girlfriend is abroad, and I will go abroad after graduation, but I don't want to put more pressure on my parents, so I can only do my best."

An Lan froze in an instant, the word "girlfriend" flashed in her mind over and over again.

She went back to school in a daze, was sick for a while, and didn't take elective courses.While she felt that it didn't matter if she didn't get into it, she was also worried about it. Every time she came to elective courses, she felt restless.

She fell in love with Feng Hao.

I can't help myself.

Goodbye Feng Hao, it is the final exam of their philosophy class.

Seeing Feng Hao's side face lying on the table answering the question, An Lan felt distressed for a while, as if being pulled by something, she knew that it would be difficult to see him again after the class was over.

An Lan suddenly thought of the "whether there is or is not" that the teacher said in the philosophy class, and suddenly a sense of desolation came to her heart.There would never have been any intersection between her and Feng Hao. Although there is such an intersection now, if they go their separate ways in the future, they will eventually belong to strangers.

After Feng Hao handed in the paper, An Lan also hurriedly handed in the paper, and ran out of the classroom after Feng Hao.

"Is it okay for me to work part-time with you in the future? I'm not short of money, I just want to participate in more social practice and exercise."

From then on, An Lan followed Feng Hao to resell second-hand books, go to the zoo to wholesale T-shirts, work as a shopping guide in a shopping mall, and stand on the street to hand out leaflets; Under the bright sun, Feng Hao peddled An Lan to collect money...they appeared in every corner of the campus and nearby like a young couple who opened a husband-and-wife shop.

Everyone mistakenly thought they were boyfriend and girlfriend.

Feng Hao explained it again and again seriously at first, but later he didn't bother to explain.After one recycling stall, he jokingly said to An Lan: "Business is good today, daughter-in-law, let's go and pick up a meal!"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Feng Hao said repeatedly in embarrassment: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

An Lan's tears rolled out.

The most impressive thing is that they worked in this coffee shop for a summer vacation.Feng Hao was in charge of grinding the coffee, and An Lan was the waiter.When the store is not busy, Feng Hao can't stop making various new flavors, and An Lan acts as a guinea pig. No matter how bitter the coffee is, she finds it extra sweet.Every day after the coffee shop closed, Feng Hao would hand An Lan a carefully wrapped cake, saying that it was for her to have breakfast for the next day.

Those days are An Lan's bright memories when she recalls them now. Every day when she wakes up, she looks forward to meeting Feng Hao. However, when getting along, she is cautious.

She said: "Wei Wei, do you know? I am like a thief, as if I stole these happiness from the world of nothingness. They are all illusory, but they are very real to me. But in the end, when the time comes, all of these will be taken back." .Like a dream, you will wake up at some point.

"Think about the 'love impotence' I told you before, and I want to laugh. The real 'love impotence' is that once you fall in love, you can do anything; once you fall in love with someone, you can't love others; Once you fall in love, your whole person is no longer under your control, you will do everything you have never done before, and all the principles will collapse in an instant. He is an accident in your orderly life, an accident in your life odd number.

"The most important thing is that you can't stop loving knowing it's not going to work. I think I'm crazy, but I'm crazy happy.

"When I saw him for the first time, I didn't think I would fall in love with him; after I became cute, I realized that I couldn't escape from the first sight. If it's destined, I'll let it be, the ending How can I ignore it."

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After graduating from senior year, Feng Hao went abroad as scheduled.

Before leaving, An Lan gave him a farewell farewell.

In the small restaurant where they ate for the first time, drinking draft beer and eating skewers.

An Lan raised her neck and drank one cup after another. Feng Hao was also a little excited.

I don't know how many cups he drank, Feng Hao started talking nonsense.But as soon as An Lan looked up and saw Feng Hao, her heart became quiet, as if empty.

All the wine was gone.

She shed tears, how she wished that she would be so drunk that she could say everything she wanted to say through drinking madness, even if she sobered up the next day, everything would not count.

An Lan went to the airport to see Feng Hao off.

When parting, I handed him a carefully wrapped small cake: "I made it with my own hands. Let's use it as a snack on the plane to supplement it. Feng Hao, goodbye."

Feng Hao still patted her head, like a brother comforting a little sister.

On the plane, Feng Hao opened the cake box, and there was a note inside:
Feng Hao:

Seeing words is like meeting each other, but I am afraid we will never meet again.You are going to a foreign country, I wish you and your girlfriend happy forever.Thank you for appearing in my world and walking into my heart.But after all, we are just an encounter from nothing to something, and then from something to nothing.I love you, but I can't tell you to my face.We will not contact you any more.

An Lan
Feng Hao did not contact An Lan again as promised, and all social platforms stopped updating.

He is such a man who keeps his word.

Always.

An Lan cried and laughed and said to me: "Wei Wei, I really didn't love the wrong person."

The sentence "I really didn't love the wrong person" made me feel sad and distressed.

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Those stories without ending, after a long time, returned to the original place.

When I was young, I felt that the world was so big, and my life was so long, that I would meet many, many people in my life.But after growing up, I realized that life is not about how many people you meet, but about who you are willing to stay in your life after meeting.

And some separation will make you feel that you will never find it again in the huge world, and you will never forget it in your long life.

So what if you can't forget it?Then let it take its course and never forget it.

Even if a song suddenly sang about the central matter, and the tear glands lost control in an instant, tears gushed like springs, dear, that is not shameful, and there is no need to hide it.

No matter whether you fall in love with others in the future or continue to be single, you can't modify the evidence and memory of those loves.Although we didn't catch anything in the end, those memories existed in another time and space in vain; but from the moment of bravery, they have been vividly engraved in our lives.

This is love.

To be young is to let us love in our own way without leaving regrets.

Even if love ends and we are covered with bruises, as long as the fire of love in our hearts never goes out, everything will remain as it was at the beginning, because love is the eternity of love itself, and love is the most authentic appearance of love.

(End of this chapter)