The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 17 Are you also waiting for the first snow

1
Xiaoxiao looked out the window in a daze.

There were two middle school students in school uniform standing at the station. I didn't know what they were talking about. Suddenly the boy burst out laughing, but the girl bowed her head shyly and remained silent. Seeing this, the boy quickly suppressed his smile and stepped forward to beg for mercy.

There seemed to be a familiar voice in her ear: "Don't be angry, I'll tell you a little secret."

The girl raised her head, fluttered her big eyes, and smiled, waiting for the boy to continue.

"Don't laugh at me. When I'm bored, I can't help counting. I can count everything I see. How many floors are there in a house? How many steps are there... But my favorite thing to count is the poles and wires. Counting, It becomes a habit, as soon as the brain is empty, it will subconsciously start counting."

The girl was as excited as if she had discovered a new continent: "It's fun, let's have a competition to see who can count the number of wires there first."

Those were Zhang Xiaoxiao and Xu Hui when they were students.

After fighting the college entrance examination and enduring a long-distance relationship, they finally found themselves in the same city after graduating from university.It seems that they have gone through untold hardships, trekking across the mountains and all the way to the west to obtain the love scriptures. In this era of fast-eating feelings, their love makes people jealous and envious.

However, at first they were looked down upon by everyone, and even Xiaoxiao hesitated: "Actually, we two have very different personalities. Will we hate each other one day?"

Xu Hui stepped forward and hugged Xiaoxiao: "I know you hate winter, whatever you hate, anyway, I like you." There is almost no logic, no matter what kind of beginning, it will always return to "I like you" in the end. Young love.

Now the two of them live in a small one-bedroom apartment on the third ring road. Weekdays are from nine to five, and classmates gather on weekends. The ordinary life is very ordinary, but something is faintly wrong.

The days are one seven days followed by another seven days, but the reality is that there are still 81 difficulties to overcome ninety-nine and 81 difficulties.Even after so many years, the two people who love each other have been integrated into each other's lives: Xiaoxiao subconsciously counts when she is bored, and Xu Hui starts to look forward to snow every winter... But who can say for sure, whether the fate will be in the snow or not... When a wave covered it, the two people who were holding hands broke up.

Xiaoxiao has always been a rather pessimistic person, remembering how she and the optimist Xu Hui have been up and down for so many years, she shook her head and only had three words: "God knows."

2
"Xiaoxiao, eat oranges, take them yourself, take a few more." Mr. Feng from the business department was carrying a bag of golden oranges with a smile on his face.

"Thank you, Mr. Feng." Xiaoxiao's thin and sweet voice was like a scent of flowers after the rain, permeating the dry and cold air in the northern winter.

"Look at Mrs. Feng, I'm sitting next to you, and I didn't eat the orange first. Alas, it's my fault for my delicate voice and tender face." It was Director Li of the business department with a strange voice.

Xiaoxiao's face turned red to the base of her neck. Feng Nan saw a smile on the corner of her mouth. She turned around and continued to hand out oranges to her colleagues. She was very interested and ignored Director Li's ridicule.

Everyone exchanged glances and looked at each other.

"Damn, I have to work overtime again. This perverted woman, Li Juan, must be in menopause!" During the meal, Zhou Ping said angrily, "It's to blame that Mr. Feng didn't like her, this woman is so sad!"

"Don't be angry, eating angry hurts your stomach." Xiaoxiao moved the dishes in front of Zhou Ping.

Zhou Ping glanced at Xiaoxiao, and smiled slyly: "Have you heard, last Friday, Li Juan and Mr. Feng went to socialize and won a big project. After seeing off the client, Li Juan got drunk and fell into Mr. Feng's arms and yelled. It was so late, what do you think she meant, but Mr. Feng was not disturbed, and in the end it was Xiaotian who drove Li Juan home."

"Don't listen to other people's nonsense. It's better not to gossip like this." Xiaoxiao looked around to see if there were any acquaintances.

"Don't tell me you don't know Mr. Feng likes you, but then again, I really don't know what Mr. Feng likes about you."

Zhou Ping is such a person, outspoken, easy to offend people, and has no friends.In the company, Xiaoxiao could bear her temper, so the two of them got close.But Xiaoxiao knows that in fact, Zhou Ping usually dislikes "weak women" like Xiaoxiao who are always taken care of by men.

"Don't talk nonsense, I have a boyfriend." Xiaoxiao hurriedly separated the relationship.

"I know you don't like President Feng. This is where you beat Li Juan hundreds of rounds. Probably all men have this kind of virtue. The more you don't like yourself, the more motivated you will be."

Zhou Ping sounded like an emotional mentor who is well versed in intimacy.

Looking at the pale sky outside the window, Xiaoxiao thought, when will it snow.

3
"Everyone is going to order takeaway, what do you want to eat?" Mr. Feng put the takeaway order on Xiaoxiao's workstation, turned around and pulled up a chair to sit down, "I'm so sorry, the business department made the project team work overtime together again."

"It's okay, it's all work." President Feng sat so close, Xiaoxiao was a little nervous.

"Where do you live, it's too late, I'll take you back."

"No, I'll take the subway, and there will be a subway after eleven o'clock. Thank you, Mr. Feng."

Feng Nan can't figure it out, he has all kinds of girls, and he can easily get them, but this little girl is good, cold and repulsive.

"do you hate me?"

"I don't hate it." Xiaoxiao replied.

"If you don't like it, then I'll take you home, it's settled!" Feng Nan got up and left after speaking.

Xiaoxiao's unspoken "no need" stuck in her throat.

After working overtime, Xiaoxiao took a few steps out of the company door when two horns sounded behind her, and the car stopped beside her, with the windows rolled down, it was Mr. Feng.

Helpless, Xiaoxiao had no choice but to open the car door and sit in.After fastening the seat belt, Xiaoxiao adjusted her posture and closed her eyes to rest.

"Sleepy? Then I won't let Chen Qizhen go." Feng Nan said.

Xiaoxiao turned her head and looked at him suspiciously.

"I've followed your Weibo." Feng Nan didn't care.

She couldn't imagine how a successful man in his 30s would feel when he saw the trivial things in life when he swiped her Weibo. He peeped at her, trying to understand her more.

But she wasn't going to appreciate it.

"Then you should know that I have a boyfriend." Xiaoxiao turned to look out the window.

Feng Nan didn't speak any more.

"It's here." Feng Nan patted Xiaoxiao's arm.

Xiaoxiao opened her eyes, sat down and regained her senses, unbuckled the safety buckle, and said, "Thank you, Mr. Feng." She was about to reach out to pull the car door.

"Wait a minute, can we talk?" Feng Nan had no airs of leadership in front of Xiaoxiao.

"It's too late..." Xiaoxiao replied hesitantly.

"I really envy you. Your boyfriend is your first love, right? You have been through so many years, and you have persisted through ups and downs. I really envy you." Feng Nan lay on the steering wheel, looking at the boundless sky outside the window. The darkness, as if talking to himself.

"Emotional matters, let's know for ourselves." Xiaoxiao looked up at the second floor, where the dim lights were on, and thought to herself: What is Xu Hui doing now?Are you still playing games?
"I often think, if I didn't go abroad back then, would I still be as sweet as you are now? The worst thing is, the two of you can stick together a little longer, and even if you break up, you can be friends again in a friendly manner, so that you won't disappear from the world. I can't find it, as if it never appeared."

This handsome mature man in front of him suddenly showed sadness unprepared, which made Xiaoxiao a little bit at a loss and surprised. "She should love you very much. The reason why she can't be friends after breaking up is basically because she can't let go."

"She will hate me for the rest of her life, why doesn't she even give me a chance to see her well?" Feng Nan looked at Xiaoxiao seriously, as if she could answer him instead of that person.

"It takes effort to hate, maybe she started over a long time ago." Xiaoxiao comforted him.

Feng Nan sighed: "You are right, maybe she has forgotten me long ago."

"The past is long gone, and what people can do is to let themselves go."

"You look a lot like her, and you speak a lot like her."

It turned out to be the case.

"It's a pity I'm not her."

4
Pushing open the door, I heard the sound of playing games from the bedroom.

Xu Hui was indeed playing a game.

Xiaoxiao smiled wryly, she really didn't know whether she should be happy or sad for herself.

"Xiaoxiao, you're back." Xu Hui shouted when he heard the sound, but still didn't leave the computer.

"En." Xiaoxiao responded.

When she got into the kitchen, she saw the messy plates and chopsticks in the sink, and the unfinished soup in the instant noodle bowl had been frozen and congealed, turning greasy milky white. Xiaoxiao gagged and rushed to the bathroom.

After coming out, I saw Xu Hui bringing a bowl of hot soup from the kitchen: "You have been working overtime recently, it's too hard. Look, I made ribs soup for you. Drink it quickly to warm your stomach."

Xiaoxiao sat down and drank the soup one mouthful at a time. After drinking a bowl, she seemed to have regained her vitality. "It's delicious, I want more." She raised her face and smiled at Xu Hui.

"Yes, there are many more. It will not be a problem to feed you into a chubby piglet." Xu Hui kissed her forehead tenderly.

Xiaoxiao stared intently at Xu Hui's figure and thought, in fact, he has not changed: he doesn't like to go to school, but he will study hard to take care of his parents, and he will be satisfied if he ranks in the middle level; Instead of going to the state-owned enterprise, he came to Beijing to live with Xiaoxiao. He also enjoys himself in a small company doing a job that has nothing to do with his major and earning a meager salary.He has always been like this, living heartlessly, going his own way, not self-motivated, and not knowing how to do housework, but he will give Xiaoxiao timely warmth when he needs it. He loves her. In the past, this love was based on sweet words, and gradually Ground, this love infiltrates every bit of life.

Maybe it's me who has changed.She is too eager to do something to prove her ability, instead of being a "vase" as others say, and not to be looked down upon by Xu Hui's parents.

She is so eager for success that sometimes she hates her weak appearance for no reason, and she can't tolerate Xu Hui's carelessness, thinking it is depravity.

"People are really contradictory. I hate a person but can't bear to leave him. Now I complain about him and then I am moved by him. How many sides does a person have and how many variables do they have to go through every day before they can spend so long with each other safely until the end of the day? Now?" Thinking of this, Xiaoxiao got up and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, just as Xu Hui had finished boiling the hot water.

"Princess, let me wash the dishes for you." Xu Hui poured hot water into the basin to test the water temperature.

"Are you talking about which dynasty's princess has to wash the dishes by herself?" Xiaoxiao laughed angrily.

There is no water heater in the kitchen of the rented house, and the careful Xu Hui always prepares hot water by the side.

"The weather forecast says it will snow in the next three days. Are you happy?" Xu Hui's voice was mixed with the sound of the game.

Xiaoxiao ignored him, turned on the computer and continued to conceive the project copy, and thought of the first snow that winter in a trance.

It was after school in the quiet grove in front of the teaching building, Xiaoxiao was sitting on a cold stone bench, Xu Hui childishly covered her eyes from behind, but felt cold tears.

"What's wrong with you?" Xu Hui asked in a panic.

"I fell out of the top ten in the model test." Xiao Xiaohong said with eyes.

"It's okay, just try harder next time."

"Let's break up. After all, you have your parents to find a way for you, but I can only rely on myself." Xiaoxiao said in a low voice.

"It's up to them to be capable, and I can only rely on myself for loving you." Xu Hui didn't look at Xiaoxiao, and looked at the snow without focus.

He is not a coward. Only those who can defy the arrangement of their parents are not cowards. He wants to do what he wants to do and love the person he really loves.Man is a unity of contradictions, what he likes and dislikes, what he wants to do and what he does not want to do, what he admires and disdains, what he is brave and timid, what he loves or does not love, all in one thought, the real choice is not difficult.

5
During the lunch break, Xiaoxiao slipped to the roof of the office building alone to watch the snow fluttering in the wind. This was the first snow this year.The drop is not big, but there is a trend of getting bigger and bigger.

"Are you also waiting for the first snow?"

Xiaoxiao turned around, it was Feng Nan.

After he sent her home that day, he never took the initiative to look for her again.

"Well, every winter I look forward to the first snow." I don't know if it's because of excitement or because of being frozen, Xiaoxiao's face and nose are red.

"Me too, I always feel that the next snowfall in winter will cover everything in the world, as if it can cover up the regrets, guilt, and failure memories of this year. The white land is so clean, It seems that time can be turned back, and everything can start again at the original point." Feng Nan stood in the snow like a pious penitent.

Xiaoxiao spread out her palms and tried to catch the falling snow: "You know what? The same thing has different meanings. I used to think that snowing meant the end, and I wanted to let go on that day, but later things It is a new beginning to turn into the first snow, and the snow is such a beautiful moment, every year should be spent with the most beautiful person in my heart."

"But I can't find that person anymore." Feng Nan's withered voice seemed particularly sad in the empty world.

"So don't say let go easily, especially if you know you will regret it. But since you let go, after so many years and so many snows, everything has long been clean and you can start again." Xiaoxiao's voice was low Low, she doesn't know if she would be able to say these words so calmly today if she let go many years ago.

After all, people are always the best at preaching to others, but it is difficult to comfort themselves.

Xiaoxiao recalled the scene in the woods that day.

Xu Hui said, "I can only rely on myself for loving you."

Xu Hui said: "Even if we break up, I will chase you back."

Xu Hui said: "I met the beautiful you in my beautiful youth, I don't want to go anywhere, I just stay with you."

Xu Hui said: "I don't know if we will be together forever, but two people can walk as far as they can. If they can walk 100 steps, then try hard to see if they can walk the 101st step."

Xiaoxiao remembered the night Feng Nan sent her home, she walked to the door and took out the key, which happened to be step 101.She will always remember this number.

(End of this chapter)