The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 19 Walk the stairs you walked, waiting for an invisible flowering period

In the subway, the train pulls into the station, and the wind roars from the tunnel, messing up Qiu Nian's hair and dress.

Marco approached her and asked, “Don’t you have anything to say?”

Qiu Nian smiled and shook his head.

The soft hair slid across her face, and Marco wanted to reach out to help her stroke it, just like at this moment, he wished she could say something, so that he would feel: Qiu Nian cares about him.

When they got on the subway, they stood together, Qiu Nian grasped the handrail, and looked to the other side in a daze, the subway started to pass through the dark tunnel, her and Marco's faces were reflected on the window glass, and she lowered her head.

Marco looked at her, she was always so quiet, falling into her own world, so that others would not know what she was thinking about.

They met at a book signing event. Qiu Nian was an employee of the publishing house, distributing small gifts to readers who lined up at the scene. Looking at the noisy scene in front of her, she just wanted to finish the gifts and slip back home.

"Qiu Nian! It's really you." Someone patted her on the shoulder from behind, and when she turned her head, it turned out to be her friend Xiao Jiu, and there was a stranger standing beside her, not tall, with a bookish face.

"Is this book published by your publishing house? It's really good, can you give me a copy for free?" Xiao Jiu always exaggerates when chatting, making people don't know how to answer the conversation.

But Qiu Nian, who has been through the workplace for a long time, still had a lively chat with Xiao Jiu.Her boyfriend's voice suddenly popped up in her mind: "I've seen your live event. You can speak very well. You are very eloquent and eloquent. Why come back from get off work and pretend to be dumb with me?"

Yes, why can we always have a hearty chat with unfamiliar people or even strangers, but when we face close people, we don’t say a word?

It was almost lunch time, Xiao Jiu proposed to have dinner together, but Qiu Nian couldn't refuse and had to obey.

During the meal they somehow mentioned another book. "That book was also published by our publishing house, and I was in charge." Qiu Nian said after taking a sip of sour plum soup.

"So, were you there at the signing event last year?" Marco, who had hardly spoken at the side, suddenly spoke.

"Yes what's the matter?"

"I told you how familiar you looked at the first sight. I'm afraid I misunderstood it. I also went to the autograph meeting last year." Marco said with a smile.

"Oh, that's right." Qiu Nian was not surprised. Every year she held several reading activities, and it was not surprising to meet readers.

But Marco was inexplicably nervous.He took out his mobile phone, flipped through the photo album, and found the photo after searching for a long time. There was a girl with a sideways face looking at nowhere, her expression was quiet and aloof, holding a stack of posters in her hand, and the crowd in front of her was lined up in a long line. Enthusiastic, but all of this seemed to have nothing to do with her, and she was completely out of it.

He handed the mobile phone to Xiao Jiu and Qiu Nian, and said, "Look, I took a picture that day, is this you?"

Qiu Nian took a look: "Well, it is true." Then he greeted them like a big sister, "Eat first, the squid will be cooked if you don't eat it."

Sitting in an air-conditioned room eating hot pot in summer, human beings seem to have improved a lot, but in fact they have degenerated in some aspects, such as language. When not working, Qiu Nian is very unsociable. He starts a topic and doesn’t know how to continue it. Talking about it is boring.

At this time, Marco was silent.He couldn't believe that God would give him a second chance to meet the girl in front of him.

He still remembers the girl who was smiling when answering readers' questions at last year's book signing, and who was quiet and indifferent when standing alone in the corner. to her figure.

Marco really wanted to go up and talk to her, but he didn't dare. He felt that she was like a kingfisher by the river, and any slight sound would startle her.So he hid in another corner and raised his mobile phone to secretly take a photo of her appearance, but because his hands were shaking nervously, the first photo was blurred, so he had to take another one.His heart was beating violently, as if it was going to jump out of his throat, he fled into the bathroom in a hurry, took a handful of cold tap water to wash his face, he came to his senses: "I'm going to ask her for a phone call, a man must be brave!" A man who has been in love cheers himself up in his heart.

But when he returned to the bookstore, she was gone.The eyes checked several times like a magnifying glass, but there was no sign of her.He was so lost that he squatted by the bookshelf.For the next few days, he was in a daze, suspecting that it was his hallucination. Only when he saw the photo on the phone could he be sure that he fell in love with her at first sight in the vast crowd.

It was love at first sight, and his classmates had discussed this phenomenon of love in class. He scoffed: "It's just caused by hormones. How can such a holy word like love allow animal instinct to profane?"

God really likes to joke with people, the more you don’t believe in anything, the more it arranges what you encounter. I heard that this is fate.

In the evening, Qiu Nian had to go to the radio station to record a program, and they dispersed in a hurry after dinner.

After returning home, Marco searched the live broadcast of Autumn on the Internet. Her voice was clean and crisp, reminiscent of the blue sky and golden leaves in the mountains in autumn.He missed her, as if there was a player in his brain, playing in slow motion looping her every move, every move, every frown and smile from the moment he saw Qiu Nian.

After recording the program late at night, Qiu Nian returned home to sort out the photos of the day's activities.Thinking of the photos in Marco's cell phone, she clicked on the folder of last year's event. There were hundreds of photos, and she didn't see him in a few of them at random. Just when she thought she was ridiculous, she suddenly clicked another A photo, in the corner of the photo he is looking at her camera.

A year ago, he didn't know her, she didn't know him, they didn't talk; a year later, they found her in his picture, and he in her picture.If they hadn't met again, it would have been just a common passing by among thousands of people.

But they met again, as written in the novel, it was like God's will in the dark.

A few days later, Marco added Qiunian's QQ, and at the same time, a text message came into her phone: "Hi, I'm Marco."

He asked Xiao Jiu for the contact information, and also mentioned that the school had a celebrity lecture hall on weekends, and asked her if she was interested.Qiu Nian was at work, didn't think much about it, and replied, "Okay."

In fact, Marco asked Xiaojiu for Qiunian's contact information that day, but he didn't contact her immediately. He felt that Qiunian was like the eye of a huge typhoon. Intensity attracted him.He knew that when love attacked him, he was ecstatic with endless fear. He was afraid that Qiu Nian would reject him if he confessed, he was afraid that he would stalk Qiu Nian like other men who couldn't ask for it. He was afraid that he was not good enough. He who used to be so confident that he was even a bit arrogant, actually felt inferior for the first time.

Fortunately, reason finally defeated impulse. He restrained himself for a few days before contacting her. He typed a long paragraph pretending to be plain and enthusiastic. It took a while for Qiu Nian to reply with the word "yes".

He felt that he had been left out, and thought that maybe she was in a bad mood today, so she was not enthusiastic, so he said, "Are you in a bad mood? Let me tell you a bad joke."

After a while, a line of words popped up on the dialog box: "What do you mean, I don't understand."

Marco was very depressed and didn't know what to say.

People who fall in love can't help rehearsing various scenarios in their minds, but the reality doesn't follow the script, so the person who loves is worried about gain and loss, but the person who is loved feels inexplicable.

On the weekend, Qiu Nian went to Marco's school to attend a lecture as scheduled, and Xiao Jiu was there with him.

The lecture was very exciting, but Qiu Nian fell asleep on the table in the second half, and she fell asleep like a little white rabbit.Marco looked at her, and a thought flashed in his mind: It would be great if he could see her sleeping peacefully next to him every morning in his life.

After the lecture, Marco took Qiu Nian and Xiao Jiu for a stroll around the school. During the period, he received a call from his instructor and arranged for him to deal with an urgent matter. Before leaving, he said, "I'll be back in an hour at most. There is an art department at the school." exhibition, you can visit it.”

Neither of them interested in the subject of the art show, so they wandered aimlessly around the school.Bypassing the library, the lotus leaves in the potted plants are lush and lush, and the lotus flowers are also huge. It is not the kind of small family jasper that is common in the south.Qiu Nian found it strange, she had never seen a lotus raised in a school, and it was raised so well.

Tired from walking, they sat down on a bench and chatted.

"How are you and your boyfriend?" Xiao Jiu asked.

"not so good."

"If someone confessed to you at this time, would you break up?"

"Whether we break up or not is a matter between the two of us, and has nothing to do with the other person." Qiu Nian watched the boys playing on the basketball court scrambling for a ball, his young faces were covered with sweat.She remembered that her boyfriend also loved playing basketball in college, but she couldn't remember how she fell in love with him for a while.People are really strange. At the beginning, they fell in love for a moment, but when the love slowly dissipated, they didn't even remember that moment.

"Do you want to live abroad?" Xiao Jiu asked again.

"No, my English is not good, why did I run so far."

"Marco is studying for a blog, and he will probably go abroad by this time next year."

"What's none of my business?" Qiu Nian was puzzled, and turned to look at her in surprise.

"No, it's nothing, isn't this just nonsense..." Xiao Jiu smiled awkwardly.

The two chatted for a long time, the night gradually fell, the cicadas stopped, and the mosquitoes in the grass came out to move around.

Probably because it was summer vacation, the huge campus seemed particularly empty. Qiu Nian thought: If I study in this school, I will definitely get lost every day. She is notoriously a road idiot.

Qiu Nian likes the campus atmosphere very much. When she took the postgraduate entrance examination, she was rejected because her English was two points away from the national line. After working, she lived in a rented house near the school for two years. After get off work and weekends, she ate with her boyfriend in the school cafeteria. She used to laugh at them Like a baby who can't be weaned.Thinking of this, Qiunian realized that she and her boyfriend had been together for five or six years, and their life was so plain and polite, yet her boyfriend didn't even mention breaking up. She thought, maybe there is a kind of tacit understanding in this world, called being lazy to break up.

Marco finally came back to find them after work.Standing on the steps of the art building, Qiu Nian stared blankly at the night sky. Hearing Marco's call, she came back to her senses and asked stupidly, "Do you think there will be a moon tonight?"

Xiao Jiu was noisy: "They are all starving to death, who cares about the moon."

So they ate a big meal in the school cafeteria, Qiu Nian insisted on AA when paying the bill, she felt that she was working, and Marco was a student with no income even though he was a man.As a man in the north, Marco felt that it was shameful for a girl to pay for dinner, so Xiao Jiu put away his wallet in Qiu Nian.At that time, Marco felt that Qiu Nian was a very stubborn person.

Later, Marco made excuses to meet up with Qiu Nian several times, but he only visited once in Qiu Nian.Ma Ke asked Qiu Nian if she had any plans to learn foreign languages, and she agreed on a whim that day.On a hot day, Ma Ke led her to take the bus, but took the wrong direction. It turned out that Ma Ke was also a road idiot. The two road idiots asked someone for directions under the sun.

Marco kept apologizing, calling himself stupid for getting her sunstroke because he got lost.

Qiu Nian didn't blame him, but thought it was fun for him to keep apologizing, so he pretended to be serious and made a joke: "Oh, what to do, heat stroke, it's such a big thing, you have to be responsible for me. "

After hearing this, Marco was stunned, not because of what she said, but because she actually had childish playfulness.

Autumn is such a mystery.

Later, Marco often chats with Qiu Nian on QQ. When he is not busy, Qiu Nian will chat with Marco a little more.The relationship between the two gradually became closer.

Qiu Nian is not a fool, she gradually felt Marco's attitude, he is a person preparing for the doctoral exam, how can he spend so much time chatting with her every day, telling her jokes and wasting time?But Marco didn't say clearly that she liked her, and she couldn't tell her directly, because she didn't know how to tactfully express the fact that she had a boyfriend.

Ma Ke instinctively felt that Qiu Nian was very defensive and would not open up to others easily. He needed to walk in step by step, just like playing a game to pass a level. Only after passing a level can you get a privilege.It stands to reason that walking into Qiu Nian's heart should be a very fulfilling thing, but Marco has a premonition that Qiu Nian's heart is a bottomless pit, and he still doesn't know what she is thinking or what she wants.

No matter what, Marco decided to confess. On the Qixi Festival, Marco happily told Xiaojiu about his plan, and asked Xiaojiu what he thought.

Xiao Jiu faltered for a long time, and said: "Ever since you asked me for Qiu Nian's contact information, I have always wanted to tell you something, but it was hard to say, but now I have to."

Marco was still immersed in the joy of planning the confession, and said without thinking: "What's the matter, as long as it's not you who want to confess to me, it's fine, haha."

Xiao Jiu didn't smile, and said, "Qiu Nian has a boyfriend, and they've been talking for five or six years."

Marco's head exploded with a buzzing sound, all his thoughts collapsed, and he forgot how he went back to school in a daze.

He didn't give up, and decided to ask Qiu Nian directly: "You already have a boyfriend, don't you?"

Two minutes later, I received a text message from Qiu Nian: "Yes."

Marco held his mobile phone, feeling like a martyr who died before he could finish his mission. He sent another message to Qiu Nian: "Happy Qixi Festival to you."

Qiu Nian didn't give him back.

For a long time, Marco never looked for Qiu Nian again, and the two were in a state of not disturbing each other.

She didn't know what he was up to.

He didn't know her situation either.

Like back to the origin, never met.

Perhaps, when they were frustrated, they looked up at the stars at the same time.

Perhaps, while looking at the night sky, they both smiled at the same time.

Marco still thinks about Qiu Nian, and sometimes he would impulsively want to find her and say to her: "Break up and stay with me." But every time at this time, there would be another voice to extinguish his impulse: she I never said I like you.

When reading papers, looking for information, and discussing problems with classmates, whenever it involves love at first sight, Marco's heart will ache, as if someone has stabbed him, and he misses Qiu Nian.When thinking about Qiu Nian, he felt that he was very ugly, why couldn't he be a good friend if he couldn't be a couple?Does it have to be so old and dead?But in the next second, he will tell himself that if he still keeps in touch with Qiunian, he will become a spare tire... As long as he thinks about Qiunian, his mind will be in a mess. How much he hopes that Qiunian will be like himself Similarly, suffering from lovesickness, only in this way, his suffering is worth it.

He tried to find clues on Qiu Nian's Weibo, but found nothing. Her Weibo only had work content.

Even the matter of Qiunian's breakup was learned from Xiaojiu.Marco was ecstatic, and quickly sent a text message to Qiu Nian: "You broke up?" He couldn't restrain his excitement, and almost sent: "I wish you a happy breakup!"

It took a long time for Qiu Nian to reply to the text message: "Well, it's been a few months."

How many months?Ma Ke thought to himself: Sister, you made me suffer from lovesickness for several months in vain!

"Why didn't you tell me you broke up?"

"Why should I tell you something that has nothing to do with you."

"It's nothing to do with me. If you break up, I can chase you."

"Aren't you going abroad? Prepare well."

Only then did Marco realize that she never thought about being with him, and the reality was also, how could they be together?He will go abroad in a few months and will not come back until four or five years later.

Why should he ask her to wait?

When the subway arrived, Qiu Nian smiled and said, "Then I'll go first, goodbye."

"I'll see you off," Marco said.

Marco is going to go abroad in a few days. He asks Qiu Nian to have a breakup meal, and Qiu Nian happily attends the appointment.

"I remember you said that you would take me to see the cherry blossoms. You can't break your promise." Marco said randomly.

"It means bringing you and Xiao Jiu together," Qiu Nian argued, "This year is over, it's summer, next year...but next year you will be abroad."

"Do you still remember when you and Xiaojiu came to my school last year? You stood on the steps of the art building and asked me back: 'Do you think there will be a moon tonight?' I often went to that staircase to watch the night Will there be a moon?"

"fool."

"Qiu Nian, can I give you a hug?"

Qiu Nian stopped, pondered for a few seconds, turned around, hugged Marco, and patted his shoulder twice.

The third ring road was brightly lit like daytime, and there was nothing in the sky, not to mention the moon, not even a star.

Ma Ke suddenly said to Qiu Nian solemnly: "I have another question to ask you."

Qiu Nian didn't know why, and asked blankly: "What?"

"You are so uncooperative, why don't you say 'loved'..." Marco said awkwardly.

Haha, Qiu Nian realized it was a joke made by Marco.

On the day Marco left, he updated a post on Weibo: "Take the stairs you walked, and wait for an invisible flowering period. I loved you once."

There are a lot of likes and comments, and most of the comments are booing and asking him "who has he loved?" Qiu Nian looked at Weibo and didn't know what to say. Being liked is a very happy thing, but it seems that he can only go here There is no way to go any further.

Affection must be delivered with affection before there will be an ending.Stories without endings are staged every day. Some people need to pretend to be loved, and some people need to play a part of no turning back.Because they know that instead of two strangers who meet each other and then gradually drift away like rays, it is better to be like two parallel lines at the beginning, not owed to each other.

(End of this chapter)