The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 2 I Really Hope You Stand Eternal in Time
1
The octopus organizes photos and texts in front of the computer, cuts, copies, and puts everything in a folder named "her", with a hundred megabytes, which is not enough for half a movie.

Icons of pictures and texts lay quietly on the page, arranged in chronological order, no need to click to view in detail, just by looking at the file name, you can know that all these recorded his original mood.

Now, with just one click of delete, you can simply say goodbye to the past.But when the "Delete File" dialog box popped up, he still didn't have the courage to click "Yes".

In the end, he saved the file on a USB drive.Looking at the black USB drive, he inexplicably felt that it was like a tomb where everything was buried.

I can't bear to delete it, and I don't want to remember it again.

But in the next second, he remembered the scene when he first met her.

2
In fact, that afternoon was no different from any other afternoon. The octopus and the watermelon in the same dormitory were playing on the basketball court. Just as the two were sweating profusely and were unbearably hot during the intermission, the watermelon suddenly waved to the outside of the basketball court. Shouted: "Hi, wheat children's shoes, ××× said that the drama club will hold a meeting on Wednesday afternoon, let me inform you."

The octopus followed the sound of the watermelon, and the afternoon sun was still dazzling. He squinted and saw the girl called Wheat walking towards the basketball court: she had a loose ponytail and a blue long coat under a thin coat. The skirt, the gentleness between the eyebrows and eyes is like a clear lake.

Maizi was talking to Watermelon, and Octopus looked at her side face. The thin and soft hair on her forehead and temples was shining under the sunlight, as if there were colored lights.

Octopus later recalled the scene of seeing Maizi countless times. He didn't feel very moved, but felt more comfortable and appropriate than ever before, as if there was a breeze in his heart, slight ripples in the calm lake water, and the fragrance of flowers floating in the empty valley.

No one expected that the fateful encounter in life just happened without warning.

3
The heavens are beautiful, after the first meeting, the octopus and the wheat met again one afternoon.

It was still on the basketball court. Octopus was about to go back to the dormitory after playing. He saw Maizi in the crowd. Almost at the same time, Maizi also saw him, and his eyes met.Octopus thought that Maizi didn't remember him, but unexpectedly, Maizi waved to him.Compared with the girl's natural generosity, the octopus seems a little more reserved.

After some pleasantries, Octopus learned that Maizi was going to eat.On weekdays, Xigua often said that Octopus is a boring man, a type with a heart but no guts, but that day he didn't know why, but he had the courage to ask Maizi to eat.

After that, the two became a little familiar.Maizi also brought Octopus into the drama club, and he came and went, mobile phone number, QQ number, and various contact methods.

Everything seems to be going well, but there is no progress at all. Their contact is limited to ordinary friends. Even if Octopus has an idea in his heart, it is just thinking about it.

Watermelon was the first to notice that something was wrong, and whenever Maizi came to find octopus, no matter what happened, octopus was very active and enthusiastic, and the sullen man became a chicken-blooded man.Xigua hesitated to speak several times, but finally couldn't hold back, and said, "Actually, Maizi has a boyfriend. I heard that he was an instructor during military training."

After a long time, a word came out of the sullen Capricorn man's mouth: "Oh." Only then did he realize that the thoughts he thought he had hidden well had already been seen through by others.

Was it really that obvious, he thought to himself?I don't know if Maizi can see it... But it doesn't matter, it's obviously not obvious, it's someone else's girlfriend.

Stopped abruptly.

Until the first semester of junior year.

4
Maizi's roommate had an emergency at home and bought an early morning ticket.Maizi is going to see her off, but the airport is far away from the school. Maizi is worried that after dropping off her roommate, she will not know how to go back to school. In the middle of the night, the girl's family is a little scared.So Maizi asked the octopus to accompany him.When receiving Maizi's text message, Octopus was still wondering: Don't you have a boyfriend, why did you call me; but I'd be happy to pull me, haha.

Later, Maizi unintentionally mentioned the matter of taking him as company this time: "I checked all the numbers in the mobile phone, and you are the only boy who is reliable and will not be rejected." Octopus heard this. , I felt happy for a while, and I didn't bother to think about whether this was a compliment or a derogation.

After this incident, the relationship between the two began to become delicate, there were more text messages, and the words became more intimate.

Octopus heard a lot about Maizi from Maizi’s roommate: It turned out that Maizi didn’t have a boyfriend when he was a freshman, and the instructor’s boyfriend was purely a rumor; it turned out that Maizi had recently lost his love and was very sad; besides drama, Maizi also liked opera...

Wheat, wheat, wheat... At that moment, the octopus was full of wheat.However, the sullen Capricorn man is entangled: she has a boyfriend and doesn't know what to do; she doesn't have a boyfriend and still doesn't know what to do... Well, she deserves to be a single dog after three years of college!
Just when Octopus had acquiesced that he was destined to be a single dog, God gave him another candy.

One day, Maizi sent him a text message, without any warning or foreshadowing, only one sentence: "Be my boyfriend."

Octopus looked at the text message and smiled silly for a long time.It wasn't until he came back to his senses with a smile that he realized that it was a bit strange, but he didn't dare to ask, for he was afraid that if he asked, his dream would be shattered.The happiness that comes from pretending to be confused is also happiness.

And just like that, they were together.Like other couples, we went to class together, went to the library for self-study, and went shopping in the city on weekends... Those times were extremely beautiful in Octopus's life. He didn't know if he was the same as Maizi, but at that time He didn't think about it.When I met love when I was young, I just wanted to love without regard for myself, so I didn't have time to worry about whether I should be equally cherished or not.

5
Good times are always short.After the first semester of junior year, when the winter vacation was about to celebrate the new year, Octopus received a breakup text message from Maizi, but there was still no sign, and there was no foreshadowing. There was only one sentence: "Let's break up."

"why?"

"I'm preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination next semester, and I don't want to be distracted."

The octopus's tears couldn't stop gushing out. It turned out that even if he pretended to be confused, he would be woken up one day.But after thinking about it, he felt a little comforted. At least she was willing to make up a reason to prevaricate him. Although the reason was so lame, he was still willing to believe that it was not because of that man.

During the half a year with Octopus, I heard from my classmates that Maizi often met with her ex-boyfriend, and now the man who made her sad came to save her again.But Octopus never questioned Maizi, he believed that she could handle his feelings well, or, he just didn't dare to ask.The truth is always cruel, and the superficial peace can be maintained without revealing the truth.

Self-deception is, presumably, a lame way of maintaining self-esteem.

After they broke up, they didn't have much contact with each other, because they were in the same department, and they still met occasionally when they were in major classes.

In the past, when Octopus saw watermelon falling in love every now and then, he felt that it was just that, and there was nothing to cry about, but it was his turn to realize how uncomfortable it was. He knew that he was stuck in it, and he couldn’t get out for a while. Out.Sometimes I find it ironic that I studied psychology by myself, but I still can't do anything after falling out of love.He knows a lot of truths, but he cannot escape this fate after all.

Maizi was going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so Octopus followed suit.Maizi's politics is not good, so Octopus went to report to the class. He first understood all the knowledge points, and then compiled a detailed note for Maizi.

Maizi wants to take the teacher's certificate test, and Octopus is also going to apply for the test...

Whatever Maizi wants to do, he will do it with him. He thinks that if he doesn't deliberately avoid and resist, he will naturally pay attention to her like a friend. Maybe after a long time, his heart will not hurt.

Watermelon saw it in his eyes and couldn't bear to tell the truth.Self-deception is the cover of I love you.

How could the octopus not know this truth.

6
It's graduation season soon.

After graduation, everyone went their separate ways and scattered all over the world, together with those unspoken love words and many midnight dreams.Octopus has been miserable and poor for a few months, and bought a necklace, which is the brand that Maizi once said, it was extremely expensive, and he gave it to Maizi the day before graduation. It is said that all the girls in Maizi's dormitory were so moved.

Watermelon also tsk tsk tsk: "If only I were a girl, there will be two less single dogs in this world!"

Octopus smiled wryly, the literary youth was stubborn, he thought, since he can't be with Maizi, this necklace can, that's fine.

Watermelon once said that the reason why the cheap love is cheap is because the other party was not touched, and only oneself was touched in the end.These octopuses don't care anymore, they just feel that in the best first encounter in life, everything should be perfect, and he will try his best to maintain the perfection he imagined, even if he still fails in the end.

After graduation, Maizi returned to his hometown, and the two still kept in touch.Maizi's work in her hometown was not going well, and she broke up with her ex-boyfriend after getting back together. When she was sad and depressed, she would call Octopus, and Octopus would talk to her if she had anything to do.

The moment of confusion and emptiness, longing and loneliness, and the approach of wheat made Octopus ignite a little fantasy: I want to go to her city, and I want to be with her.

When he is not on the phone, Octopus writes letters one by one, when he is at work, and in the middle of the night. He writes his thoughts, expectations and plans for the future in letters. That is his dream, because She is his whole world.

However, before he could tell her, his dream was shattered.

Maizi entered a shipyard and soon got together with her former middle school classmates.

This time, the octopus was furious, and he felt dumped again.But when he got to the bottom of it, he felt sad, what was he, and he wasn't Maizi's boyfriend, and he didn't even have the qualifications to be dumped when talking about being dumped.

Octopus bought a plane ticket, and he was going to see her with his stack of letters.But when he arrived in Maizi's city, Maizi did not see him.

At dusk, the octopus stands on a strange street corner, looking at the people and cars coming and going, as lonely as a half moon just rising in the west.He suddenly understood: Love means I love you, you love him, he doesn't love you, and I'm not together with you.

The octopus threw the stack of letters into the sea and went back.

7
Like a normal person, the octopus still goes to and from get off work, eats and sleeps.

On weekends, I occasionally ask Xigua to go to the roadside stalls in front of the school. Xigua said that looking at the fresh and tender school girls is as refreshing as pouring cold beer in summer!Octopus scolded him that he was still as wretched as before and deserved to be single.

The night wind blew over her slightly hot cheeks, and Octopus inexplicably remembered the scene when she met Maizi back then. She walked through the shade of the trees, stood still in the sun, and smiled.

The watermelon scolds the octopus for being cheap, and there is nowhere to release hormones in the restless youth. The appearance of wheat is just a coincidence, allowing the octopus to show its affection and despair at will, but it can't get it. "What we can't get makes us mistake it for love. You try it. If you get the wheat, you can let it go now."

In the face of watermelon's rationality and straightforwardness, the octopus always has the upper hand and does not know how to answer.

If, if Maizi said that when he broke up, he begged for nothing to keep him, would the ending be different?
If, if something happened to them instead of just chatting after so many open rooms, would the ending be different?
If, if he threw that stack of letters in front of Maizi to let her see his sincerity, would the ending be different?
……

But if there is no if, even if time goes back, the octopus is still the octopus, the wheat is still the wheat, the wheat is finally married, and the octopus is still single.

Watermelon was drunk, and murmured: "Maybe you are the best ending now, if you don't think it's the best ending, then it's not the end."

The octopus laughed, what is the end, the end is just love or not love, whether they are in love with each other or forget each other in the rivers and lakes.

8
When Quanmin's father-in-law's "The Future Will Never End" was released, Octopus went to watch it alone. When he saw the subtitle "If you like it, you will be presumptuous, but love is restraint." But wept like a fool.

There will be no more intersections, and I finally dare to admit that your world has nothing to do with me from beginning to end.

When we were young, we thought that love is only love when we are happy, kindness and hatred, and we must try our best to love clearly. I love you means that I want to be with you.After growing up, I realized that I love you and being together are two different things.

Maybe one day, I will forget how much I loved you, but I still remember you when I first met, and the young and beautiful myself in your bright eyes.

How I wish that fate could be fixed at the moment when we first met, and you stand eternally in time.

There will be no subsequent separation, and there will be no regret that we are not together.

(End of this chapter)