The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 4 Youda and above, less than lovers

1
On the day of "520 Confession Day", a few friends around me were eager to move, entangled in whether to upgrade from friendship to love——

Question A: I like someone, but I don’t know what he thinks of me, and I’m afraid of being rejected if I confess rashly. Can I start as a friend and confess after a long time?

Question B: Recently, a friend suddenly cared about me very much. Gradually, I also have a good impression of him, but I don't know whether it is out of friendship or love between men and women. Should I confess?

C asked: We have been friends for a long time, but I like her more and more, can I confess?It's so contradictory. If I get rejected, I'm afraid that the friendship for many years will be ruined. What should I do?
Listening to the questions from friends, Sha Qi, who was holding a coffee cup, was smiling all the time. It turned out that everyone’s small emotions and thoughts about love are the same: like someone cautiously, don’t know if he likes you, but it’s not good It sounds like a very cheap thing to rashly ask the other person what they think of you, and ask a person if they like you or not.

However, we all forget that when we like someone, we are full of him, and we don’t think about food and drink because of him. Unconsciously, we have already looked up to him.Ask or don't ask, the secret leaks from the eyes.

I don't know how to judge whether the other person likes me or not, and probably I can only guess from the clues of getting along, and search for traces of being loved.A moment of sweetness, a moment of sadness, a moment of joy, and a moment of depression... That love, hanging on you, but you are willing.

People who are shot by Cupid also like to play some self-righteous cleverness. For example, starting from being friends and increasing the chances of getting in touch with their sweetheart, firstly, it can increase the concentration of feelings, and secondly, they can wait for the opportunity to practice their courage to confess.

So, how many people are trying to seek a love under the guise of friendship;

Is it possible to have a long-term relationship?Of course, I'm afraid, what will be born is not love, but a stronger and stronger friendship, and it is very likely to miss the good opportunity to confess.

If the confession fails, even if you can't make friends, do you still have to confess?It depends on whether friendship is more important or love is more important in your heart.But if you can't help but not confess, it means that the time is not yet ripe, or you don't love enough or dare not love.

2
"Sha Qi, I like you, but I made a mistake with friendship."

When this line of words popped up on WeChat, Sha Qi was stunned.She bit her lip, recited the sentence word by word in her heart, and then said to herself: "Me too, this is the most regretful thing I have ever done in college."

The person who sent the WeChat message was Sha Qi's classmate and best friend, A Liang.

With so many identities, it shows that the two have a deep friendship.

Sha Qi raised his head slightly, squinting his eyes to recall.It was the day when freshmen reported for registration, and Sha Qi struggled to climb up the steps of the female dormitory building with a heavy suitcase.Suddenly, a gentle voice came from behind: "Student, let me help you." Turning his head, he saw Ah Liang standing in the sun, smiling, his eyes flickering.

Sha Qi fell in love with A Liang at first sight, and his heart blushed.Only after the school officially started did I know that Ah Liang and I were in the same class, and he was an official, the head of the class.

Seeing her, Ah Liang happily came up to say hello: "Hi, it's you!"

"Hey, I didn't expect that we are in the same class, so we are destined." Sha Qi couldn't restrain the excitement in his heart.

"Yeah, I left in a hurry yesterday, and I didn't have time to ask your name. Fortunately, I met you again." A Liang rubbed his head, a little shy.

Because of the chance meeting the day before, the two of them got close naturally, and they sat together in class, at the front and back desks.Sha Qi always dragged her roommate Liang Sheng along. A Liang was usually alone, and occasionally came to the classroom with her roommate.

Just entering the university, as a freshman who is curious about everything, Sha Qi enthusiastically participates in many club activities. It is amazing that he can always meet A Liang.They joined the school repertory troupe together, and they also participated in the hero and heroine of the same show together by fate.

In addition to going to the auditorium for intensive rehearsals before the performance, the two of them usually make an appointment to play against each other in the school's grove. When reading the lines, Sha Qi felt that it was the happiest moment for him.

Those love words came out of A Liang's mouth, and Sha Qi was selfish for a moment, fantasizing that she was his girlfriend.

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A few weeks later, the performance came to a successful conclusion. On behalf of the school, they also took home a third prize. The school gave a reward of 1000 yuan. Several members of the club ate and drank in a very "corrupt" manner.

In KTV, Ah Liang sang Eason Chan's "Don't Talk" by himself:
……

Should there be a tacit understanding when loving someone?
I thought you understood whenever I looked at you

my secret

every morning
Warm coffee is brought to you quietly
willing to use a black pencil
draw a silent stage play
No matter how bright the lights are, I will hold you
Willing to sing hoarse songs in the corner
No matter how loud it is, it's all for you
please listen carefully and don't talk
……

When Ah Liang sang, his eyes unconsciously glanced at the corner of Shaqi.I don't know if the roommate told some jokes, Sha Qi lowered his head, covered his mouth and laughed non-stop.

Seeing Sha Qi smirking, A Liang couldn't help but smile.He likes to see her smile, and when she smiles, he feels that the world is shaking with him, and a voice in his heart tells himself: I like this seemingly inconspicuous girl in front of me, but the more she looks, the more attractive she is.

But he didn't know if Sha Qi also liked him.

This is probably a joke made by God. Sha Qi, who fell in love with A Liang at first sight, is also confused at the moment. Does A Liang like him or not?She was not sure.

Roommate Liang Sheng booed next to her, and whispered, "That Ah Liang must like you, he has secretly looked at you many times, and he looks at you differently."

"Don't talk nonsense, we're just ordinary friends." The shy Sha Qi quickly denied, but her face blushed quickly again. She liked him. She had never told this secret to anyone. She just kept it in her heart carefully, like a gentle A little rabbit being fed.Every time I see Ah Liang, the rabbit in my heart is like meeting an acquaintance, bulging in my heart, as if it is about to blurt out.

Because they participated in many clubs, the two of them could always meet and stay together. Thinking about it carefully, Ah Liang actually cared about herself: when she was unhappy, Ah Liang would tell her jokes and buy her snacks; A Liang would take her to the hospital in a hurry, yelling at her for not taking good care of herself; during winter and summer vacations, A Liang would chat with her until late every day, and then say good night; long time shoulder bag...

Ah Liang cared about her, but it seemed that apart from caring, there was nothing special about her.

Moreover, whenever Sha Qi felt that the two of them were getting closer, and thought that the window paper was about to be punctured, A Liang became alienated for no reason.

Their relationship is closer than friends, like buddies, like brother and sister, but not like lovers.

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The dramatic turning point came in my sophomore year.A Kai, A Liang's buddy in the same dormitory, launched a fierce pursuit of Sha Qi.

It turned out that one day in a professional class, A Kai followed A Liang to the classroom, and sat together by the way. He sat at the front and back tables with Sha Qi just once, and within two or three hours of an afternoon, he fell in love with Sha Qi.

"People are really strange. We have been classmates for more than a year, and we only found out that there is such a girl in our class." A Kai rubbed his chin and said to A Liang.

A Kai knew that A Liang and Sha Qi had a good relationship, so he asked A Liang to be a middleman, and passed on a message from him to make an appointment with Sha Qi.

After hearing Akai's words, Aliang's back stiffened. He and Sha Qi had known each other for more than a year, and had met each other since the first day of the journal. However, this enthusiasm seemed to be no match for Akai's two or three hours in an afternoon. impulse.

Faced with A Kai's request, A Liang did not refuse.Probably there was a trace of stupid curiosity in his heart, and he wanted to take this as a kind of temptation. If Sha Qi agreed to A Kai's date, it meant that she didn't like him.

"What if you don't agree?" A Liang thought, "If Sha Qi doesn't agree, I will confess."

When A Liang came to deliver the message, Sha Qi was shocked. Her unbelievable eyes swept across A Liang's face. The eyes were caught by A Liang, as if across his heart, and the heartache was extremely painful.

He vaguely felt that Sha Qi should also like him.

Sha Qi felt that he had been greatly hurt.She was very sad that the person she liked actually introduced another person to like her.

If Sha Qi was confused at the beginning and wanted to ask A Liang many times whether he liked her or not, now she just feels that it was her own wishful thinking from the beginning, and A Liang probably only regarded herself as an ordinary friend. .Those gentle and considerate, cold and warm, but out of friendship.

When a woman is sad, it is easy to get into a dead end.Obviously not familiar with A Kai at all, but, as if he was angry, he didn't know who to vent what to, Sha Qi unexpectedly agreed to that inexplicable invitation.

After hearing Sha Qi's reply, Ah Liang opened his mouth, but finally said nothing.In the end, before leaving, he only said: "Okay, I will pass it on to Akai for you."

"Okay, thank you." Sha Qi responded politely.

Akai asked Aliang to make an appointment with Shaqi once or twice, and after getting a little familiar with it, he started to skip Aliang and make an appointment with Shaqi alone.Akai is very enthusiastic and handsome. His intentions are obvious, and he confesses to Sha Qi very quickly.

Faced with A Kai's confession, Sha Qi still declined, because she knew that A Liang was still in her heart.

But damn Ah Liang, ever since she got closer to Ah Kai, he started avoiding her.He obviously met him far away on the small road of the school, but he immediately turned around and left.

In contrast, Akai's enthusiasm has not diminished, and he still pursues fervently, riding around the sand flag saddle every day.Three months later, Sha Qi is moved by A Kai's sincerity and agrees to be with him.

At the moment of agreeing, Sha Qi felt that the rabbit in his heart let out a long breath, and then hibernated.Finally, she can no longer have expectations for herself. Without expectations, she will not be disappointed or heartbroken. She wants to forget all those memories about A Liang.

The person she likes doesn't like herself, which is probably a great failure for a girl.

5
When Ah Kai announced loudly in the dormitory that he had finally successfully captured the sand flag, Ah Liang opened the door and left without saying a word.

As the saying goes, it's not until another person holds her hand that I can tell what my feelings for her are.A Liang is very sure that he likes Sha Qi, and he likes it very much, not just as a friendship.

However, everything seems to be too late.

He ran downstairs to the girls' dormitory and looked at the window of Sha Qi's dormitory. How he longed for Sha Qi to poke his head out to take a look at him, but the window was closed tightly, like a heart door that Sha Qi had closed to him from then on. .

There is nothing unusual about the rest of the university time. There are more and more professional courses, and the time is getting less and less. Sha Qi gradually withdraws from various clubs, including the drama club.The relationship between her and A Liang is still very good, they are still friends and buddies. However, something has always changed quietly, and they are getting along carefully stepping on the boundaries of friends.

Throughout the university, A Liang never fell in love.Many times, Sha Qi wanted to introduce him, but was declined by A Liang.

"I have someone I like." Once, Ah Liang looked into Sha Qi's eyes and said.

At that moment, Sha Qi still felt a pain in his heart, as if reconfirming the fact that he had never been loved by him.It turned out that he really liked someone else.

In their senior year, they began to be busy with internships, job hunting, graduation thesis, and postgraduate entrance examinations... Everyone was in a hurry, and it took a long time before Sha Qi and A Liang met in school.

A Liang is an intern in a foreign company.

Sha Qi is preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination, and Akai and his friends form a band, doing nothing all day long.

Occasionally walking on the campus, passing by the grove, and seeing freshmen rehearsing a play, Sha Qi couldn't help but stop and watch for a few minutes.She thought of those dramas and lines she had rehearsed with A Liang.She liked him, but never knew if he liked herself.

"Probably never, he said he has someone he likes." Sha Qi thought to himself, and then hurried to the library to occupy a seat to study.

After the results of the postgraduate entrance examination came out, Sha Qi passed the entrance examination as he wished.Akai also proposed to break up. He said that he wanted to go to Lijiang with the band to develop, and that was his dream.

Sha Qi was not sad, but felt very lost.In this love, Sha Qi knew in her heart that she didn't put all her heart into it, and she loved it very casually.What she loves is Akai's kind of energy that he loves when he says he loves him. She admires him for always doing what he says, and leaving when he says it, he is full of pride, chic and straightforward.

She can't.

A Liang couldn't do it either.

6
There is no never-ending feast.On the day of the graduation ceremony, I had a breakup meal and drank three rounds of wine.A Liang is drunk and reveals his thoughts to Sha Qi.

He likes her, the whole college time, the person he said he likes has always been Sha Qi.He started liking her from the drama club, a little later than her liking.But he didn't dare to confess, he didn't know Sha Qi's attitude towards him, he liked her, but he didn't know that she liked him too.

While hesitating, he thought, let's start with friends, and then find a chance to confess.But unexpectedly, the roommate Akai killed halfway.He regretted it, but admitted defeat from the bottom of his heart. It was his cowardice that gave up his love.

"I like you, but I started the wrong way with friendship... Sha Qi, can you give me another chance? I want to confess to you again. Although it is a few years late, in my heart, it seems that I have confessed thousands of times. Thousands of times."

Sha Qi looked at A Liang's WeChat and fell silent. All those memories that had been covered up slowly came to life again.

They just miss out on their entire college years.Isn't this a kind of punishment, a punishment for both of them being ashamed to face their inner feelings and not daring to confess.

Sha Qi is very hesitant. Is the love that has been late for so long still the same as before?Do you want to accept it or not?Can friends who have been friends for so long still awaken love?
When she climbed up the stairs and walked on the stairs of the girls' dormitory, she recalled the first time she saw A Liang, and the blush and heartbeat at that time.

Yes, what are you afraid of?

Because he didn't open his mouth, and she was silent, so they stayed in "above friendship, but not enough lovers" for so long.Be brave to love, even if the friendship between two people is really lost in the end, and the love cannot be fulfilled, so what?They've missed it for four years and shouldn't miss it again.

7
"One more intersection, and I'll be there." With a beep, a message came in from WeChat.

Sha Qi packed her shoulder bag, stood up, smiled meaningfully and said to her friends: "Think about it slowly, I'm going on a date."

"Hey..." "An inhuman guy with a boyfriend!" "It's too much hatred!" Complaints continued one after another.

Pushing open the door of the coffee shop, Sha Qi pursed his lips and smiled, what would happen if he missed it again?She looked up, just in time to see Ah Liang appearing at the corner of the street, walking towards her.

She greeted her with a smile.

Of course not to be missed again.Meeting in the vast sea of ​​people, loving each other, and returning to the original point after missing it, all this is the arrangement of fate. Somewhere, they went around in a circle, missed four years, but knew how to love and cherish.

"Tell me, what would have happened to us if I hadn't agreed to your confession?"

A Liang pinched her nose: "Maybe we will go around again, miss another four years, and finally come together."

"Huh?" Sha Qi didn't understand.

"Stupid, people who are destined to be together will be together no matter what. Therefore, even if we miss four or ten years, we will be together in the end. But why waste so much time, it is better to fall in love earlier." Ah Liang lovingly stroked her hair and held her in his arms.

Friendship is not an obstacle to love. If you dare not love, you use friendship as a shield.

I often think how many people are only one confession away from love. Maybe when they muster up the courage to confess, they will know that when he likes her, she also likes him.

Such a good love, what a pity to miss it.

(End of this chapter)