Pain is the best teacher of youth

Chapter 11 An ignorant age, a young relationship (2)
Let's just say, it was such a coincidence.When he was worrying, Bai Jie suddenly jumped off the bicycle.It turned out that the female companion had arrived home, and Bai Jie had to walk back by herself for the remaining short distance.This is really a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity!He hurriedly accelerated his pedaling pace and stopped her: "Hi, let me take you for a ride!"

She looked up at him, and at the moment when her eyes met, he saw the familiar face that he had never looked at carefully: the clean face like an angel, the eyes like autumn water, so beautiful that he was amazed.Maybe because of his honest appearance and his school uniform, she didn't refuse his invitation and sat in his back seat.He seemed to have had his blood pumped, he didn't feel the weight of having one more person at all, and he rode with pride like the wind.

"Are you from class (3)?" Her crisp voice came from behind.

"You know me?" He was a little surprised.

"Yeah, I know you, you can sing well," she said with a smile.

He didn't know how to answer, but felt a burst of blush.

"Oh, by the way, I have read your articles! Your writing is really good, and it will be published in the next issue of the school magazine."

"Are you from the school newspaper?"

"Yeah! Why don't you join in?"

He didn't know how to answer.His writing style is good, but other aspects are average. The students in charge of the school newspaper are all excellent in character and learning, just like Bai Jie.He had wanted to join, only to be turned away.

"I know your name, your name is Li Fugen, right? Submit more manuscripts in the future!"

God!He really wanted to find a crack in the ground and get in.The big common name given by her parents is even more scumbag when she calls it like this.However, he was also quite surprised, he didn't expect Bai Jie to know so much about himself.

Listening to her talking, he had already forgotten the time, and when he was still thinking, he only heard her say: "Okay, I'm home." Only then did he wake up from his wild thoughts.After Bai Jie thanked him, she said goodbye to him.Looking at the back of her leaving, he felt a little lost, feeling like he had a beautiful dream.

That night, he couldn't sleep.Lying on the bed, thinking about the scene of sending her home during the day, she giggled for a while, and was in a daze for a while.He felt that love seemed to come at that moment, giving him confidence and strength.

He thought that after the intersection of taking her home, they would be like familiar friends when they met again.However, to his disappointment, after meeting again, she only smiled politely or nodded slightly, this way of greeting made him feel empty.

Unrequited love on campus sometimes makes people depraved, and sometimes makes people excited. Fortunately, he belongs to the latter.Since then, he has stopped thinking about it and devoted himself to his studies.By the third year of high school, he had become an "important role" in the grade.In his free time, he would go to the basketball court to play, which would attract a group of girls to watch, and occasionally Bai Jie was among them.His beautiful rebounds, chic three-step layup, and dexterous escape from others always win rounds of applause.But he found that Bai Jie seemed to care more about the boy named Qin Nan. Every time he dunked, she would cheer him on, sometimes even help him hold his clothes, and hand him a bottle of Pulse after the game.

The pain of adolescence, the more you focus on it, the more painful it is.Try to divert your energies from your textbooks, and often find complete solace.When he received the admission notice from a university in Beijing, his heart was as calm as water, because he knew that Bai Jie was going to Shanghai University of Finance and Economics.He really didn't want his love to end without a problem like this.

A few days before the start of school, he always rode his bike to the pond near her home to fish.Many nearby residents reminded him that there were no fish in this pond at all.Why doesn't he know, he just wants to wait for her here, and fishing is just a nice excuse.

That hot afternoon, he finally saw her.

"Why are you fishing here? There are no fish in this pond." She said with a smile.

"Oh, no wonder! There was no movement at all. I heard that you were admitted to Shanghai University of Finance and Economics?" In fact, the last sentence was what he really wanted to ask.

"Yes! You were admitted to a university in Beijing, right? Then we will be far apart from now on! When the time comes, don't forget about me!" she said mischievously.

"I... this is..." He put his hand into his pocket, trying to take out the letter he had written for two nights to give her.At this time, someone suddenly called her name and walked out of her house.That person turned out to be Qin Nan!Looking at the sunny and handsome Qin Nan, he suddenly lost his courage and finally left the letter in his pocket.

"What do you want to say?" Bai Jie stared at him and asked.

"No, no." He concealed embarrassingly, but never spoke.

Qin Nan came over and said to Bai Jie, "Is that your classmate? Tell him to sit at home!"

He rejected Bai Jie's invitation and fled in despair.The moment he left, he heard the sound of broken love.He understands that this summer, the most beautiful flowers are not blooming for him.But he never had a chance to know that the boy named Qin Nan was just her cousin.

I think you will forget my kindness and walk through strange street corners.You use the skirt of your school uniform to say the most firm goodbye to me. /Shan Zijia "School Uniform Skirt"

Perfect for you, perfect for my next summer
In the second year of junior high school, she fell in love with the best boy in the class.She knew that many girls had a crush on him. Thinking of her ordinary appearance and mediocre grades, she had no choice but to hide this love quietly in her heart so that no one would notice.

Because the boy's physics grades are very good, she also started to study physics desperately. Only in this way can she get in touch with him more by asking questions.Every time he asked a question, the boy patiently answered her. Looking at his serious expression, she was filled with admiration and happiness.

That day, when he was lecturing the topic to her, he accidentally dropped the pen on the ground. When she bowed her head to pick it up with him, her two hands touched it inadvertently.In her memory, that was the first and only physical contact with the boy. The feeling of excitement and shyness at that time was clearly imprinted in her mind.After many years, when I think of that moment again, I still feel the feeling of my heart beating faster.

In the blink of an eye, it was the third year of junior high school, and she and him were in different classes.She couldn't see him walk into the classroom every day, hear his voice, see him look good in his white sweatshirt.Loss filled her heart, making her inattentive to focus on her studies, and her grades also slipped a lot unknowingly.

In the first monthly exam, he was No.2 in the whole grade, and his name was impressively printed on the honor roll, but her name was left out of the top 2.Her heart ached slightly, but besides the pain, a force sprouted: she had to work hard, to make her name ranked closest to him.After several major and minor exams, her ranking was always one or two away from him, and she was disappointed again and again in return for her to work harder.Finally, after the last exam—the high school entrance exam, she and his name were ranked together, but this time, she was No.[-], and he followed closely behind.

Coincidentally, they chose the same high school.Although they were not in the same class, she was already very pleased with this result.After school started, she rarely met him, and when he did, he would greet her lightly.This situation was not what she had expected at the beginning, and a sense of loss came to her heart again.

In the second year of high school, she and he both chose science and were in the same class.When she first heard the news, she was excited for several days.However, the situation after school started disappointed her again.Just like when he was in junior high school, he is still a shining star, radiating light and attracting the favor of many girls.In this lively picture, she is still a humble spectator.She tried to find an opportunity to ask him questions, hoping to regain the tacit understanding in junior high school, but time has passed, and he seems to have forgotten those scenes in junior high school.

Her appreciation for him grew day by day in the insurmountable time tunnel.Gradually, his name became synonymous with the perfect boy in her heart, and no one could replace him.In the deep nostalgia, the days passed like water, and her high school career ended in silence and fascination.She has never expressed anything to him, just playing an easy-going role as a friend.

On the campus of the university, he was no longer seen.It was at that time that she suddenly realized: In the world without him, all that is left is loneliness.The only thing that can pass the loneliness and relieve the heart is to sleep, fall asleep, and meet him in a dream.It's just that every time I wake up from the dream, that kind of longing will become more intense.

For a while, she went to the Internet cafe outside the school every day, hoping to see his bright profile picture in QQ, see the log updates in his space, and know how he was doing.When the girls in the dormitory are talking about love, his appearance will appear in her mind. She doesn't know if this is love, so when someone asks her, she habitually says that she has never been in love, no The person I like, but dare not say his name easily.

One day before Christmas, she met him again on QQ, chatting with him, and the two talked about relationship issues.The boy asked her if she had a boyfriend, or someone she liked?Somehow, she blurted out: "You don't know, I've liked you for a long time! How about you?" His profile picture flashed for a long time, and the reply was: "Have you got a fever? What nonsense! We have known each other for many years Friends, don't make such a joke." She said: "I'm not joking." He replied: "But, I have someone in my heart, I promised her that I will wait for her for four years."

Yes, how could a boy as outstanding as him like himself!But hearing him say such words with her own mouth, her heart still seemed to be crushed, and tears flowed down unconsciously.Can you let go of the feelings that have been hidden in your heart for many years?She couldn't do it, she couldn't stop missing him... how much she wanted to tell him, and she was willing to wait for him for four years; how much she expected that when he felt tired one day, when he suddenly looked back, he would be loved by her who was waiting for him infatuatedly move.

In the contradiction between letting go and persisting, she struggled through college time.Over the past few years, she has experienced a lot and matured a lot, and she has a clearer understanding of relationship issues than before: for a person who doesn't like herself, persistence and infatuation may only bring burdens and troubles to the other party.

That day, in the QQ zone, she saw that his photo album was updated.The moment she opened it, she froze.It turned out that the girl he had been waiting for turned out to be his best friend.All this is like a farce!She cried for a long time under the quilt, and really wanted to ignore him and her friends from now on...

At dawn the next day, her eyes were still swollen, but the resentment in her heart was much less.She was still too kind and silently chose to forgive.Because she didn't want to see her friend and him get hurt, she seemed to have forgotten that she was actually the one who got hurt the most.It's just that the matter has come to this point, no matter how entangled and resentful it is, it will be superfluous.

She suddenly remembered the song by Liu Ruoying of Milk Tea: "The youth I have devoted to you for so many years, in exchange for one sentence, thank you for fulfilling, fulfilling your chicness and adventure, fulfilling my blue sea and blue sky. She promised you I have only one sentence, I have only one sentence, I will fulfill you without regret, fulfill your today and tomorrow, and fulfill my next summer..."

Since two small stars with different orbits have different orbits, it is an inevitable result that they each return to their respective positions.Everyone has his own ambitions, maybe saying goodbye to yesterday is the prelude to success, maybe after passing by, there is still a beautiful scenery of his own on his own track. / Hong Kong female writer Zhang Xiaoxian
You love nothing more than your affectionate self

In the years when love first opened, Lu Xi's heart kept rippling, all because of a boy named Fu Ran.

On Monday morning, she was eating breakfast at home, and a familiar figure floated in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, riding a bicycle like the wind.She couldn't remember exactly how many times the same play was staged, at the same time, with the same action, with the same feeling, Fu Ran always passed by the window of her house with such a posture.

Fu Ran is Lu Xi's alumnus, at the same level and in different classes.The first time she noticed this boy was after the girls chattered about Fu Ran——

"Did you know? There is a boy named Fu Ran in Class [-]. It is said that he is very good at football. The sports school wants to recruit him, but he won't go!"

"Oh, is that the tall boy with fair skin?"

"He is still a top student! He won the first place in this math competition."

"I heard that he is very arrogant, and many people can't understand him!"

……

This is what Lu Xi heard about Fu Ran from others.Since then, she began to pay attention to this boy in Class [-].Just once, when she was looking at him, he actually smiled at her.That smile was as warm as the sunshine in spring, and it was so beautiful.His face was imprinted in her mind like this.Lu Xi couldn't figure it out, she and Fu Ran had never known each other before, but the proud him gave her a rare smile in return.

Soon thereafter, Lu Xi discovered that Fu Ran always passed by the French windows of her house at the same time in the morning.If one time was an accident, then the whole month was definitely not an accident.The only reason she could think of was that Fu Ran had a crush on her, the same as she had on him.

In school, Lu Xi often meets Fu Ran.It's just that they almost never exchanged a word face to face, except that Lu Xi knocked off the newspapers on the bookshelf in the library, and Fu Ran helped him pick them up when she said "thank you".Time passed in such vague guesses, and the youth in high school came to an end in a flash.

On the day of graduation, Fu Ran spoke on stage as a student representative, and Lu Xi looked at him affectionately from the audience.He was the only one in her eyes, but he only occasionally glanced at the audience, facing all the students, he didn't even know where she was.Lu Xi is still intoxicated in his fantasy: Maybe he saw me?I wore a nice dress on purpose today; maybe he likes me?These thoughts had already taken root and sprouted in her heart.

The days of college are easy, without heavy burdens, but also a little more confused.Lu Xi still thinks about Fu Ran, wondering where he is at the moment?What kind of college life do you live?Do you still remember yourself?She even thought that Fu Ran might still be waiting to confess to herself.She repeatedly rehearsed the dialogue scene when they met in her mind, but when she really met him, she couldn't say a word.Just in front of the department store about 10 kilometers away from the school, she and Fu Ran looked at each other for 10 seconds, and finally Fu Ran said first: "Oh, hello." Lu Xi felt a burst of joy in her heart. I want Fu Ran to really remember me, otherwise why would he smile at me after saying hello, just like before?
Meeting Fu Ran by chance, Lu Xi was out of his mind all day long.Falling into pure liking, the whole person becomes blind, and the imagination is extraordinary.In fact, it was just a simple meeting, but in Lu Xi's eyes, it can lead to many reasons: because I am in this city, Fu Ran likes me, so I chose this place; he may be too proud, so I met myself He didn't show that kind of ecstatic expression; when he smiled, it was really hard to hide the joy in his heart... The more he thought about it, the happier he became, as if the whole world was as sweet as wrapped in honey.She even thought: If we meet again, can I tell him that I like him too?
(End of this chapter)