The Concubine's Survival Manual

Chapter 170

Seventh Lady took a deep breath.

She stared at the inlaid traces of the inlaid treasures in the dark, and used her eyes to describe the exquisite workmanship over and over again almost devoutly. A part of her heart couldn't help but wonder how many years of thought it took In terms of carving skills, it is possible to inlay pearls and gemstones so delicately on ebony wood as hard as iron, so that such handicrafts are created...

In the next moment, she firmly pushed away her floating thoughts.She knew that she was escaping again. After so many years of pretense, she could hardly face herself naturally, let alone open a part of herself to this dangerous man.

He is dangerous, she trembled from the bottom of her heart, thinking uncontrollably, he could hurt me.

There are only a handful of people in this world who can hurt Yang Qi, and among all the people who can let her let go of her guard and approach her, to show her weakness and fear, only Xu Fengjia is unpredictable.Feng Jin wouldn't hurt her, Ninth Brother wouldn't hurt her, even Fifth Lady and Sixth Lady wouldn't hurt her if they had a choice, and she had to admit to herself that even if they wanted to hurt her, the The consequences will not be more serious than the damage Xu Fengjia inadvertently caused.

Because what they ask of her, what she gives them, is not irreplaceable.As for what Xu Fengjia wanted, what she was even giving, even for herself, there was only so much in her life.

Qin Niangzi didn't even like to use love to describe what he was asking for. The word contained a frivolous innocence, which didn't fit her gray life. It was something far heavier than love.She didn't even know how to describe it. Xu Fengjia wanted her to open up completely, and wanted her to accept him into her life. What he was asking for was a small piece of Seventh Lady's personality.

And the chances that any of this might work are really slim.

She took a deep breath, and like a dream, the first time she was in front of Xu Fengjia, she admitted her weakness half implicitly and half frankly.

"Because he can't hurt me, and you can."

With Xu Fengjia's intelligence, this is already a direct enough confession.

The man beside her sat up in shock, Qin Niangzi also adjusted her posture, leaned against the head of the bed, and calmly accepted Xu Fengjia's gaze in the dark.

"So..." Xu Fengjia drew the tone. "Just because I would hurt you."

His fingers found Qiniangzi's cheek again, but this time with an excessively rough force, he patrolled abruptly on the side of Qiniangzi's face, as if he wanted to read her current expression with his fingers.

"I never knew you were so timid, Yang Qi." His tone was so contradictory, it contained such turbulent anger, yet it was as calm as the lightest silk, slipping across Qin Niangzi's skin. "I'm still in your heart, I'm so unbearable? Am I not good enough for you?"

Seventh Lady fell silent.

Xu Fengjia was undoubtedly very kind to her.Even the most picky girl's family may not be dissatisfied if she is in her position today.

He never took a second look at the handsome maids around her. Although he was busy with business, he tried his best to spend time with his wife and children, and even for the sake of his family, he was willing to give up the long-distance voyage that would allow him to make great achievements... The wife's husband, Sun Liquan, has promoted seven or eight houses one after another over the years, and there are two or three high-ranking aunts who have children. Even the eldest master and the second master are considered good husbands in Daqin. Xu Fengjia was a model to her.

No wonder he was so angry and had the confidence to ask her why she still refused to compromise.

She suddenly felt very cold, but this cold feeling was not like a sudden cold war, but more like a kind of self-consciousness: she felt that she was submerged in a pool of ice spring, once, she was so numb that she forgot own situation.However, at this moment, Qin Niangzi finally understood that even on the outside, even psychologically, she already looked like a Daqin person, but she was not after all. In this society, she was very lonely.The real her can never be fully understood, the more she doesn't want to give up the last bit of self left, the more strongly she will feel suffocated.

"You are good to me." She affirmed softly. "I know you've been trying your best to be nice to me, Fifth Sister, Shiro and Goro...you've worked very hard."

She paused, bit her lip and kept encouraging herself from the bottom of her heart, even forcing that weak self who only wanted to escape to face Xu Fengjia's speechless anger.He deserves an answer, he deserves an answer.

"But we are still unequal...Xu Fengjia, I have no way to give you anything in such a humble position."

Xu Fengjia gasped sharply, but Qin Niangzi fumbled and squeezed his hand tightly, and he fell silent again.

"I'm not saying you're still clinging to your sense of superiority, that's two different things." Instead, she calmed down, like a student who has finally handed in a paper after a big exam, with a strange sense of liberation. "We used to be unequal in terms of social status. You were a high-ranking son, and I was just an insignificant little concubine. You were naive enough to think that this was enough to determine the relationship between us. You asked for it, and I could only give it." .And what you give depends on your gift."

She laughed silently, "But now you are not like this, and neither am I... I understand that you must have changed a lot after this. Although all of this is not because of me, the ultimate beneficiary is still I."

The change of Qin Niangzi's social status is due to her own struggle and the arrangement of fate. Today, she is no longer the concubine who can be trampled on by anyone. May bully at will.She can be an opponent on both sides of the chess game with any husband equally, and start a wonderful game, and she has the qualifications to enter the game.

And Xu Fengjia's change, perhaps stemmed from his own maturity, perhaps also stemmed from Wu Niangzi's misfortune, he is no longer that young man who doesn't know the heights of the sky and the earth, and is too demanding on others and himself.This point, Qin Niangzi couldn't deny it when she wanted to push him away the most.

He even learned to listen, allowing the darkness to become her best protective color, providing her with a false sense of security, allowing her to continue to pour out the almost eternal words that have been suppressed in her heart.

"But it's not enough, you're still not enough for me. You've done a good job, there's probably no one else in the world who can do better than you, and it's just not enough for me... The problem is with me, not with you. I think The partner I want is not like this, the world I want is not like this."

At the end of the conversation, Seventh Lady was no longer in control, and despair almost rushed forward, scrambling to overwhelm her reason, finding a gap in her words, and rushing out.

The Xisanjian fell silent again, Xu Fengjia didn't move her fingers any more, but rubbed thoughtfully against Qiniangzi's wrist, bringing a slight itch to her tender skin.

Seventh Lady let out a long breath.

She never knew that just talking about it could bring herself such a strong sense of relief.She felt the long-lost sleepiness, and sleep didn't seem like a task, not just a way to replenish energy when exhausted, but finally it seemed like a beautiful thing, beckoning to her seductively.

She will never regret it, she thought vaguely, she should have made it clear.No matter what the future holds, this is what she owes Xu Fengjia.It's not that he's not good enough, it's just that she's too ahead of her time for him.

Then Xu Fengjia moved.

He leaned forward and pressed his whole body in front of Qin Niangzi.

The original extreme alienation suddenly turned into extreme aggression. Qin Niangzi's private space was squeezed to almost nothing by him in an instant. His fiery breath blew straight to Qin Niangzi's ear, bringing a sharp flirt.

"Tell me." His voice was as low as a heavy and silky brocade, pouring into Qiniangzi's ears, and there was a kind of burning heat that was everywhere. "What kind of me do you want?"

(End of this chapter)