The Concubine's Survival Manual

Chapter 171

With just this voice, Xu Fengjia conveyed a completely different attitude.A moment ago he was cold, disappointed and distant, but now he is aggressive, he is demanding, he is even alive.

Seventh Lady smiled and sighed.

"I know." She said wearily, her hands seemed to have a will of her own, they wrapped around Xu Fengjia's shoulders, and played with the end of his hair absently. "You still think everything is very simple, I put forward my wishes, and you just need to be satisfied."

Xu Fengjia's lips brushed her cheek vaguely as she spoke. "It's all so simple. I love you, and you love me. Everything else is trivial."

He paused, then smiled softly.

Despite the absolute darkness in front of her eyes, Qin Niangzi can still describe the provocation in her smile, just like the smile in the Siyi Pavilion of Baifang Garden back then, with the pride of winning and the ambition of a teenager...

She shuddered slightly.

She is also a human being, and she will also be tempted. The influence of Xu Fengjia's big meal on her is not something she can forcefully suppress now.

"Tell me." He blew in her ear again, "You like how I do it."

The ambiguity in the words almost pulled out strands of tangible silver threads, which penetrated into her seven orifices, penetrated into her heart, and twisted downwards itchingly, so that Qin Niangzi had to bite her lip hard to stop. A moan of distress came out.

She tried her best to suppress the urge to tremble and maintain her calm demeanor.

He doesn't even know what you're asking for!She scolded herself from the bottom of her heart, how could you be so excited, as if he expressed his willingness to listen to your wishes, that is already everything you want...

Damn female nature!Qin Niangzi thought angrily, in the past few months, Xu Fengjia had tried all her best to soften her defense, but with just one gesture, her defense was almost broken.

"What I want is absolute equality." She hid her panting and asked quickly and eagerly. "I can't get this thing just because you said you would give it to me."

Xu Fengjia's lips had almost touched hers, but following Qiniangzi's voice, he froze.

Qin Niangzi was able to breathe now, she slightly pushed Xu Fengjia back, but she was reluctant to pull it too far.

"What you have to understand is," she gasped gradually. "I'm not something you can get with just a snap of your finger...Even if you do everything I ask, we may not be suitable, but you can't go back on some promises, Shengluan, I may not be worth what you pay... "

Xu Fengjia softly booed her warning.

"Whether it's worth it or not is up to me." He was like a buyer holding a lot of money, cunningly hovering in Qinianzi's ear, enthusiastically tempting her to take the initiative to discount and lower the price. "Just say what you like how I do it."

This sentence is too attractive to women!Seventh Lady even became a little annoyed.

"You have to understand." She sat up, leaned against the head of the bed as much as possible, away from this strong and fiery temptation, and calmed down her tone. "You and I are equal, Xu Fengjia. Even though the entire Xu family, even the entire capital, the entire Great Qin, and the entire world expect women to obey the three rules and four virtues, I never take these nonsense seriously."

It was the first time that Seventh Lady showed her disdain for Nvjie and Nvze presumptuously in front of another Daqin person.

"I am a complete person. My existence is not to please my husband. No matter who is my husband, this will not be changed... If you want me to treat you well, you have to treat me first Good. It’s not enough to like me, you have to be nice to me, you have to understand my preferences and fulfill my wishes.” She was a little funny as she said. "But first of all, you still have to understand that I am equal to you. Your kindness to me does not mean favoring me. I can accept it or push it away. Rejecting you will not make me a bad person. "

"But to me, you are the bad guy." Xu Fengjia complained softly, "I love you so much, Yang Qi—"

Qin Niangzi responded with an eye for an eye, and also hushed his protest.

"How much do you love me?" She asked softly, "Can you be the only one in your life?"

In the third room of the west, it fell silent again.

Xu Fengjia froze.

Seventh Lady patted him on the shoulder almost sympathetically.

"I know this is difficult for you to accept." There was actually some understanding in her words.After living in Daqin for so many years, she understands that for men in Daqin, sex and love can never be confused.Take the eldest master as an example, whether he loves the eldest wife or not is definitely not determined by whether he has a concubine or not.Even if a person has never taken a concubine in his life, it is definitely not because of respect for his wife, on the contrary, it is because of fear of the power of the wife's family, or gratitude for the special kindness of the wife herself.Although Xu Fengjia loves her, she will never regard devotion as a duty requirement. "And I'm not even asking you, once we fall in love, you can't have someone else. No, that's not the case. For me, a husband who is not dedicated doesn't even have the right to ask me to open my defenses. Even if in the future we Opening up everything to each other, I found that it is not suitable, but this kind of specificity is still what I need. Xu Fengjia, we are equal, even if all the men in the world have three wives and four concubines, but in Mingdetang, in In my house, if I only have you all my life, you will only have me all my life.”

"Don't rush to answer, think about it carefully." She sighed softly, brushing Xu Fengjia's eyebrows. "At 20 years old, when the color is still fresh, this promise is not difficult. At 30 years old, I am getting old, but you are still young, or you can still persist. 40 years old, 50 years old, 60 years old... a lifetime is very long, and you will always be by my side There will be flowers ready to be picked. You have to think about whether you can never say no."

"Even after you make this promise, you probably won't like the real me. I'm dull, I feel boring to myself, I'm not kind at all, I can't even be considered considerate...and I don't have any special talents." She carefully analyzed it for Xu Fengjia. "And don't think that you can deceive me, make this promise temporarily, and then go back on it later..."

Her voice cooled down.

"Because if you dare to do that, from the moment I know what happened to you with another woman, I will destroy your life bit by bit, everything you value, everyone you value... I It will make you feel that living in this world has no fun at all.”

Xu Fengjia fell silent.

On the contrary, Seventh Lady felt relaxed.

Ask yourself, she has never been optimistic.Asking a man to give up all the flowers in the world and only take her, which is not even a particularly attractive herb, is as cruel as asking a gourmet who is always hungry to eat only one dish.

But even so, even if she knows her request, there is probably no one in this world who can satisfy her.She still doesn't regret that she made such a harsh condition, even if no one is willing to meet it, even if no one can meet it, even if she herself may not be worth so much for a man who has received a Daqin education, just to get this opportunity.

But it feels really good to do so. It is a rare enjoyment for her to show her true self, whether she can find resonance or not.

"Ah, I forgot to tell you." Seventh Lady even leaned forward a little, and let out a soft breath in Xu Fengjia's ear. "Miraculous doctor Quan helped my pulse. He said that I am not in good health, and I am afraid it will be difficult to conceive."

She relaxed completely, let out a breath of relief, and showed a sincere smile.

Qin Niangzi felt that she no longer needed to straighten her back. In this life, she no longer needed to use external persistence to encourage the fear deep in her heart.

After so many years, for the first time in this life, she finally found her true self, even if there is only a little bit, even if there is only a small piece, she is still the same her, the orphan girl who is unwilling to completely compromise with reality even if she has nothing.

(End of this chapter)