Wang Junkai in whose landscape are you in?

Chapter 296 [Kay Me] Treat you the same (11)

[11]
[Ajiu's perspective]
Xu Luo has always been a child in my eyes, full of childlike nature, with good intentions, but later I found out that there are actually two children living in her heart, conflict and struggle are synonymous with her in recent years, I think I attribute her change to fate. After her mother died, she gradually became silent. Although she still looked heartless in front of me, I knew she would always shed tears in her sleep.

She didn't dare to show too much unhappiness, even on the day her mother died, she looked numb. Only I know that when she suddenly mentioned it a long time later, she shed so many tears that I can't count.

She is the most indifferent person I have ever seen. She doesn't seem to have much emotion, but she thinks more complicated than others.

I admit, I feel bad.

Xu Luo's illness is not easy to treat, it is an intractable disease, and he needs to take a lot of medicine to control it, but no one guarantees how long he can live.The doctor said that this disease is recessive and hereditary. The most ridiculous thing is that it is almost invisible. It can only be noticed when it is severe. I just discovered something wrong with her in the past two years and forced her. After checking, it turned out that she was sick.

Sometimes I really hate biology, it clearly let me know that even a person with both parents can still give birth to a child full of diseases, I really hate this, especially after I met Xu Luo.

I heard from Xu Luo that Xu Luo's mother also had such a disease, but it was very mild and could be treated with medicine, so Xu Luo foolishly thought that she would not have such a disease, and frankly, I never thought about it.

Hearing Xu Luo's father say that her mother suffered from depression before she died, I was thinking that it was probably caused by the fear of losing. Slowly, the trust was worn away and only suspicion remained, which was a burden to both parties.Unexpectedly, her uncle really cheated in the end, and her mother actually chose to commit suicide.

The hidden things were finally put on the table, and there were countless people who passed by with a smile.The dead can be freed, but what is left to Xu Luo is a life of endless darkness.So I can't help but want to be nice to her, even if she is fierce to me and she doubts me, I can't bear to leave.Not only because she treats me sincerely, but also because she only has me left.

She is now sleeping in front of my eyes, unsteady, her eyelashes trembling as if she is about to cry, she purses her mouth, as if she wants to say something.I leaned closer to listen, and heard the five words Wang Junkai and Ajiu, but the rest of the words were unclear, so I couldn't guess it.

Simply sitting on the stool and flipping through the novels she wrote, looking up at her from time to time, her face became paler under the white light, she frowned tightly, like a Barbie doll bearing the pain behind her back. Tormented by countless diseases.

I was suddenly in a daze. Although Xu Luo from before and Xu Luo from now have not changed much, the things in his eyes have gradually changed. Hope is gradually replaced by disappointment. You can even stand farther away from her. The word loneliness can be seen from her outline.Am I wrong for allowing Wang Junkai to approach her?I asked myself but no one could give me an answer.

The sound of the door being opened seemed a bit loud in the silent night. I pursed my lips and looked at the person coming, and called softly, "Wang Junkai."

"En." Wang Junkai nodded, but kept looking at Xu Luo, and I couldn't read the emotion in his eyes.He was wearing the overcoat I handed him yesterday, the trousers were black, and his figure looked a bit lonely, "Is she better?"

"Sometimes I think, if only she would take a step back." I asked an irrelevant answer, but I believe Wang Junkai understands.He didn't speak, just shook his head and sighed.

"She won't." With helplessness in her smile, she was about to leave as she said, but when she reached the door, she suddenly explained lamely, "I'm just passing by to have a look, you continue. Oh, by the way, she didn't make things difficult for you, did she?"

I just shook my head, secretly feeling a little funny when I thought of her questioning appearance.I really want to answer, Xu Luo is not stupid, she can feel your existence, but I can't.

I don't know when I fell asleep, I only know that Xu Luo kept looking at me when I woke up.

I wanted to get up and get water for her, but I heard her voice, "Ah Jiu, I'm sorry." I looked at her, the reflection of the sun on the ground was beautiful, her whole body seemed to be radiant, like an angel .

"Take me home."

"I figured it out."

But I don't know why I suddenly feel like crying.Probably because someone once said that people who are dying make changes in their minds.And I know that Xu Luo said that she would never set foot in the house again, so what does her behavior mean now?
I hurriedly turned around and wiped away my tears, turned around and said with a smile, "Okay. Take you home."

When a person is about to die, his words are also good.

Time, slow down, and then slow down.

[Wang Junkai's perspective]
I've always had a premonition that I'm going to lose Xu Luo, and this kind of thought has been haunting me, making me at a loss.

The president of the company signed me up for the trials, and he has been kind to me, so I had to leave.

I helped them set up the stage together, and the competition went smoothly at first, but something went wrong on the day when Xu Ruotong was dancing.

The stage collapsed.

Xu Ruotong's distorted face because of extreme fear at that time made me feel sleepless at night just thinking about it.That place is my responsibility, so I am responsible, and my conscience tells me it's all my fault.

At that time, I picked her up and went straight to the hospital and the operating room regardless of other people's pointers. I, who has always been known for being calm, would be so flustered.Because I feel guilty.

I can tell that Xu Ruotong likes me, and I have always kept a distance on purpose.

I have facial paralysis, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and I like silence.

I don't understand how she, who dances well and sings well, likes me. It's probably because I don't like her, so I haven't figured it out.I know she has always had a dream, she wants to dance, a dance that everyone likes, but from the moment she fell, I clearly realized that I was going to destroy her dream.

What about guilt?I can't afford it.In a trance, I remembered a sentence from the heroine in Xu Luo's novel: If you lose your dream because of you, in fact, it is fair for fate to do so.But I can't do this, because it's unfair to Xu Luo.

I would rather spend my whole life atoning for my sins than Xu Luo frowning.

After I accompanied Xu Ruotong for the operation, she insisted on transferring back to the local hospital. I let her go, but I didn't expect to see Xu Luo.Unexpected but expected, after all Xu Luo is in this city.

The world is big, but the world is also small.I should have known.

The figure is thin, the color of the pupils is dim, and there is no emotion.Her skin is getting paler, and her delicate facial features look so pitiful without frowning. I want to explain, but I don't know where to start when I look at her face. I hesitate, and I despise myself. .Then she said the breakup I expected.

Xu Luo has always been so stubborn.It is indeed easy to coax and bully, but in reality, he is more sensitive, vulnerable and insecure than anyone else, but he is easier to blindly rely on others than anyone else.

She depends on me.

I can't give her enough sense of security.

I made a lot of phone calls, but no one answered.

I walked around her home alone for a long time, but I didn't see her, and I became more and more panicked.

I really can't help it.

I sent a text message to Ah Jiu, but she asked for leave in a hurry and took a plane to come back quickly before get out of class was over, which surprised me a bit.

She made a long phone call at Ah Jiu's door, and finally sat down on the ground, sighed, and slowly talked about the past, choked up, and looked like she was about to cry at any time.

"Xu Luo is sick. You go first." After she finished speaking, she stopped talking and just looked into the distance without focus.I nodded, walked to the street lamp in the distance, and was in a daze.Later, Ah Jiu went to Ah Luo's house, and I was still standing under the streetlight.The wind is like a stepmother's hand covering my face with a slap.I trembled, but refused to leave.

can't go.

It's over.

It was beginning to dawn, Ah Jiu sent me clothes, the coat was very thick, she hurriedly left after arguing with me, I didn’t look at her, my eyes kept focusing on the grass, I looked at the frosted grass and unconsciously want to laugh.Maybe it was because I was so sad that I laughed.

I didn't expect that she would come out to see me.

I didn't expect the president to call at this moment to say that something happened to Xu Ruotong.

Responsibility and love are really the most difficult choices.But Xu Luo gave me direction, and she asked me to give up on her.She's gone, and I can't keep her.

It was only when I got back to the hospital that I realized it was a joke again. Xu Ruotong was sleeping soundly and steadily on the bed. The president had a playful smile on his face. I stood there for a long time without speaking, and finally exited the ward silently.

When Ah Jiu called, I was in a daze on the bench in the park. I couldn’t hear her voice clearly, but it shocked me. I replied, “I’ll be right there.” I hurried to the hospital , Passers-by looked at me with crazy eyes, but I didn't care about anything, I only knew that Xu Luo needed me.

"Ah Luo underwent surgery, Anning Hospital." Ah Jiu's words were really like a bomb, and my heart couldn't stand such a toss.

I finally understood that day that even if she was given anesthesia, she would know that I was coming.

Because she held my hand and refused to let go, her smile became brighter and brighter.But in that operating room, my expression became more and more ugly.I feel uncomfortable, her smile is like a needle, piercing my heart.

In the evening, the selected company called. The person in charge said that I had passed the selection and would make me debut with Wang Yuan and Qianxi.

Count me acquiescing.

Late at night.

I came to Xu Luo's ward, looked at it for a long time and then left.

With reluctance, I said silently, "I give each other time."

But I learned much later that she didn't have much time.It was my fault that I didn't hold her hand tightly at the beginning.

[Phase [-]/Original Work: Min Luo/To be continued]
　Today topic:
　　#王源新歌#
　　Answer: Time flies, but fortunately there is you.

　　
　
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