The first daughter is not bad, the prince does not love

Chapter 411 Want to Atonement
"Godmother, how can you say that? It's not your fault. Besides, isn't it all because of my aunt? You have done enough. I believe that my aunt has a spirit in heaven. She will also be extremely pleased, because she has no regrets in meeting a close friend like you in her life."

"There are many people in this world who make trouble, but what is lacking is a friend who can help you in a timely manner. You still miss her so many years after her death. This friendship is heavier than a mountain."

Lin Sili felt that Qingxuan was indeed a real gentleman, not only knowledgeable, but also impeccable.

Qingxuan suddenly burst into tears and shook his head: "I'm sorry for her, I'm sorry for her, everything I do is not just giving charcoal in the snow, but because I want to atone for my sins, I just want to atone for my sins!"

Lin Siran looked at Qing Xuan who suddenly collapsed, at a loss.

"Godmother, what's the matter with you?" Lin Siran asked.

"I have never dared to tell you that I am afraid that you will refuse my help and care because of this, but you treat me with sincerity, and I can no longer hide it from you no matter what."

At this moment, Qingxuan seemed to muster up great courage and looked at Lin Siran.

"She only knew Your Majesty because of me. As the first daughter of the Qin family, she should have no worries in her life. If she didn't know Your Majesty, and didn't fall in love with His Majesty, maybe she is still alive and well, and the Qin family is still a famous family." She should have married a well-matched gentleman, and so should your mother, and the life of the two of them should never be a confidante. "

Lin Siran listened, frowned, and said: "It may be because of you that I know His Majesty, but how can I blame you for falling in love with His Majesty? And... the Qin family's catastrophe, could it be related to His Majesty?"

"Your Majesty was crazy about Yinuo back then, and even once wanted to make her a queen. But no one would want the Qin family to have a queen, especially the officials headed by the Queen Mother strongly opposed it. For this reason, Your Majesty and the Queen Mother had a quarrel between mother and child... ...and even leave the country behind, and go far away with Enoch."

Thinking of what happened at that time, Qingxuan was still worried.

"At that time, His Majesty was still a hot-blooded young man. It was really possible for him to do that. He was definitely not talking about it. He even refused to go to court for a month, so he forced the Queen Mother to let go, and the Queen Mother has such a strong temper. Why is the daughter of the Qin clan bowing her head? The Empress Dowager used a hunger strike to challenge Her Majesty, to let the world know that His Majesty is not filial, and that for a woman, she actually wanted to force her own mother to death."

Lin Siran was horrified, he didn't expect that it would be so serious at that time.

"That shouldn't be your fault." Lin Siran said, "This matter is beyond your control."

Qingxuan's tears kept falling, his body trembling.

She looked at Lin Siran, hesitated to speak several times, and finally had to say: "I... After my mother died, it was the Queen Mother who took care of me all the time, that's why I have such a good relationship with Your Majesty. When His Majesty was young, it was almost I grew up with me, and they are only cousins ​​in name. In fact, we are no different from brothers and sisters, even better than brothers and sisters. His Majesty and I have nothing to say. The first time he fell in love with Enoch, he also came to ask me What should I do."

"At that time...he couldn't love him, and it was extremely painful. He also asked me, Sister Qingxuan, what should I do?"

Qingxuan slightly closed his eyes.

"I don't know how to answer him. I hope so much in my heart that he can finally get married with Enoch's lover, but I can't do that. I know...the world still needs His Majesty, if he was desperate to stay with Enoch , the imperial court is bound to fall into chaos. He has no heirs, who will sit on the throne? What about the Queen Mother? The Queen Mother regards me as her own, how can I remain indifferent?"

"So I went to find Enoch, and I told her that she had to let go, she had to leave His Majesty."

Qingxuan cried until he fell to the ground.

"Enoch trusts me so much. I know that she loves His Majesty more than anything else, so she will sacrifice herself for His Majesty."

"She agreed, and made an appointment with His Majesty for the last time. She smiled and said to His Majesty that she didn't love him at all. She just wanted to be a queen, and wanted to make the Qin family a descendant again. If His Majesty didn't have the ability to let her When the queen, she will not be nice to him."

Lin Siran imagined such a picture, and felt a pain in his heart.

How much courage and determination does it take to say such cruel things to a loved one?
Isn't it because you love each other that you can make such a big sacrifice?
"I just listened at the side. I knew that those words were against my will. I wished I could rush out and tell His Majesty that they were all lies, and that Enoch lied to her. It was Yu Bai who held me back. He said... I can't let you down. In Nuo's mind, Enuo chose to be this bad guy in order to fulfill His Majesty. If I go out, the situation will still be a dead end. Your Majesty cannot forget Enuo, and he will not be able to become a good emperor."

"Your Majesty yelled at Enuo, calling her a liar, but Enuo smiled and said that she was a liar in the first place. In the previous dynasty, the Qin family was the descendant family, and the bells and lanterns were full of food. It's just that in the tide of dynasty change, she stood still." After making a wrong team and failing to support the Li family in the first place, they became a second-rate family. Therefore, the Qin family was not reconciled. She wanted to change the fate of the Qin family, so that the Qin family would continue to be a descendant family, become a top family, and regain its former glory. "

Lin Siran shook her head and said, "Why did she say such a thing? This is tantamount to cutting herself off from Your Majesty!"

"Actually... In fact, it's probably not all lies. Some people in the Qin family may really hope that Enuo can complete such an important task, but Enuo doesn't think so. What she hates most is exchanging feelings for benefits. She knows His Majesty's At that time, she didn't even know that he was the emperor, how could she think that? She was just trying to convince His Majesty that she didn't love him."

Qingxuan's eyes were full of tears.

"That day, I saw His Majesty leave in a daze. From then on, he never mentioned Enoch again, and he didn't allow anyone to mention him. He became a good emperor, but he still refused to have sex with the concubine, so he didn't have sex with his concubine for many years. So, in the end... In the end, you also know that the Empress Dowager used tricks to allow him to be blessed with Concubine Hui, and only then did he have the Crown Prince, that's why he doesn't like the Crown Prince so much."

"He once told me that he wanted his eldest son, who was born with Enuo. I think although he chose to give up Enuo at that time, he still couldn't forget this feeling in his heart."

Qing Xuan sighed heavily.

"If I hadn't persuaded Enuo so much at the time, she wouldn't have stayed away from the capital and returned to the Qin family, maybe... she wouldn't have been silenced. I always suspected that it was because some people were afraid of her coming back, so they killed her." killer."

Qingxuan looked at his hands: "I...I harmed her. I knew her intentions and how deeply she loved, but I forced her to give up her love, and finally killed her."

"If she had been with His Majesty, nothing like that would have happened...for so many years, as soon as I closed my eyes, it was her who bid me farewell with tears, saying... never to see each other again but she will always think of me."

"I don't deserve... I don't deserve Enoch's friendship."

(End of this chapter)