The first daughter is not bad, the prince does not love

Chapter 412 Who can be ashamed?

Lin Siran looked at Qingxuan who was on the verge of collapse, and wept with distress.

She walked over, gently put her arms around Qingxuan's shoulders, buried her head on her shoulders, and said: "Godmother, you are not wrong, standing in your position, you are not wrong. What you do is what you should do In the end, the one who chooses to fulfill His Majesty is my aunt herself, she can't bear to see the person she loves suffer, and she can't bear to see him bear the eternal infamy for love."

Lin Sizan didn't know why, she had never known Qin Yinuo before, but she deeply felt her feelings. She seemed to understand and feel everything she did.

If it was her, in that situation, she would make the same choice as Qin Yinuo, right?
"I pushed her, didn't I? I went to find her. She didn't know that His Majesty was fighting for her. Maybe... maybe if you persist for a while, the Queen Mother will compromise, the ministers will compromise, and His Majesty will win , they will have a happy ending."

Qingxuan has been brooding over this possibility until now.

Lin Siran shook his head, and said: "No, even if His Majesty wins, it will only be more painful if the aunt enters the harem. How could the Empress Dowager allow a woman who fell in love with Her Majesty so much and forced her to back down as the Empress Dowager? How can a mother-in-law treat a daughter-in-law who is on her head like a fish in water like a fish in water in the harem? In the deep palace, the relationship between her and His Majesty will only gradually wither because of the troubles that follow .”

"And the Qin family may continue to force her to fight for the interests of the family with the queen mother, the concubine, and the majesty because she became the queen. What will happen in the end? She will live in such torment forever, unable to survive, I can't ask for death."

"Under such circumstances, it is best to be separated from His Majesty, unless His Majesty really abandons the country and becomes an ordinary couple with her who only envy mandarin ducks but not immortals, but that... abandons the country and mother Your Majesty, will there really be a day when you regret it? When the relationship is passionate, you can die for the other person, but if one day, this love will be flat in the daily life?"

"Does he still not regret it?"

Lin Siran's question made Qingxuan forget to cry, but fell into deeper contemplation.

"You and Abai said exactly the same thing. Every time he persuaded me, he said the same thing, but I couldn't forgive myself no matter what. Because... because of Enoch's death, she didn't get happiness, she died... ...Even those tragic assumptions have become extravagant hopes. If she lives...I can see who she married, who she spent the rest of her life with, and whether she has a happy home, but no...she died in the enemy Under the butcher's knife, how desperate and fearful is she at the moment of facing death?"

"When she died, did she think of me, did she hate me? Did she pray for someone to save her?"

"Just thinking about it, how can I forgive myself? Am I not her best friend? How can I be one of the people who pushed her to the abyss?"

Qing Xuan covered his face, tears slipped down his fingers.

Lin Siran also wiped away her tears, and said, "Godmother, it's not your fault...it's the fault of those vicious people, they don't allow Qin Yinuo like this to have a happy life, they want to take her away." life."

"It's not you...don't blame yourself, you just did the right thing."

"The right thing? As a friend, the only right thing is to try my best to help her achieve happiness, instead of being a stick to beat the mandarin ducks. Others can persuade her. It shouldn't be me...it shouldn't be me! "

Qingxuan shouted hoarsely.

Lin Biran suddenly thought of herself, wasn't it because she was Huo Min's friend that she stopped her from loving her brother?
Because she was afraid that Huo Min and her elder brother would not be able to be happy because they were not in the right household, so she stopped her budding love first.

"Because you are not just her friend, you are also His Majesty's sister, a child brought up by the queen mother, and the daughter of the former princess, you can't just be her friend, you have to bear the responsibilities entrusted to you by other roles and obligations. She must know that you have not betrayed friendship..."

Lin Siran comforted Qingxuan, so why wasn't he comforting himself?
"Not everything in this world can be judged by right and wrong, and not everyone can act willfully. Life is full of contradictions, struggles, and helplessness... Who can really be honest?"

Lin Siran just felt extremely sad.

Sad for Qin Yinuo's confidante's fate.

Sad for His Majesty's lack of love.

Sad for the tragic death of many innocent people in the Qin family.

It is also sad that Qingxuan has blamed himself for so many years.

But living in this world, who is really easy, who can really get rid of all sorrows?
"Godmother, it's enough to let go of your self-blame. If you really did something wrong, it's enough to suffer in your heart for so many years. Forgive yourself."

Qingxuan closed his eyes slightly, and asked: "What about Enoch, I forgive myself, who will remember her?"

"Remembering her is not contradictory to forgiving yourself." Lin Sizan said softly, "Just remember, remember that she once came, loved, and lived brilliantly. If you remember her, she will not disappear."

Qing Xuan finally opened his eyes.

Lin Siran helped her wipe the tears off her face.

Qingxuan asked: "Don't you think I'm mean?"

"How come?" Lin Siran asked.

"At that time, I chose to accept you and wanted to help you because you had a face very similar to Enoch's. Treating you well seems to relieve my regret and pain." Qingxuan said, "I think Isn't it despicable to use such a method to alleviate the guilt?"

"Godmother, what's wrong with you? Do you think of yourself this way? You are kind to others, because I am like her, and take care of me more. What's wrong with that? A truly despicable person dare not look directly at this face, because he feels guilty, Because it hurts to see it."

Lin Siran held Qing Xuan's face helplessly, and smiled wryly.

"I am grateful to you, and also to my aunt who has no fate. It is her existence that gave me this luck."

Qingxuan laughed while weeping.

"You... There are always many reasons that people can't refute."

"I can't refute it because what I said is reasonable, isn't it? It doesn't matter what happened back then. How could a person in the middle of the game jump out?" Lin Sizan smiled.

Qingxuan sighed deeply, and said: "I have been asking myself all these years, if I hadn't persuaded her so much at the beginning, maybe the ending would be different, did I do something wrong?"

"You don't need to ask like that. Life is a game of chess with no regrets. If you didn't do that, it might be better, or it might be worse? Do you want to hate yourself even more?" Lin Siran shook her head, "You It's not that you forced her to leave, you just did what a friend should do, and she made the final choice."

(End of this chapter)