The first daughter is not bad, the prince does not love

Chapter 625 You have changed

"You're pushing me." Lu Jinnian looked at her sadly, "Why can't you take a step back?"

"I have no way out. If my husband dies, I won't live alone." Lin Sizan said, "Besides, do you think Lu Xiang and Princess Huayang will spare me?"

"If Li Xingxu doesn't come back, we will embrace the third prince as the crown prince. Your life and death will not affect the overall situation. With me around, they dare not touch you." Lu Jinnian explained.

Lin Siran didn't expect that they were already ready for the next step.

"Since the rebellion of the Four Kings, have you all been ready to support the Third Prince?" Lin Siran asked.

"We must consider every possibility. If he wins, he will be the second prince. If he loses, he will be the third prince. In short...it can't be Li Xingxu." Lu Jinnian replied truthfully, he didn't want to lie to Lin Siran.

Lin Siran let out a wry smile.

"You guys really... use everything to the extreme, you are too calculating."

Lu Jinnian said: "If the aristocratic family wants to stand firm and compete with the imperial power, it must have sufficiently strong means."

"So you think there is nothing wrong with what you have done?" Lin Siran asked.

"In a power struggle, there is no right or wrong, only victory or defeat." Lu Jinnian threw another firewood into the fire.

"Do you still naively think that this struggle is a child's trick? No one wants to use despicable means, but if you don't use it, you will die?"

"In the struggle for survival, survival comes first and everything else has to be compromised."

Lu Jinnian said calmly.

"You have changed." Lin Sizan said, "Maybe, you have always been like this, but I have never seen you clearly."

"Maybe." Lu Jinnian smiled wryly, "But one thing has never changed, my feelings for you."

"The only person I've ever loved in my life is you, and the only person I want to have but can't have is you."

Lu Jinnian swallowed the pain bitterly.

"Our meeting was a mistake, Mr. Lu shouldn't be obsessed with such a mistake." Lin Siran closed his eyes slightly, unwilling to look at his expression at this time.

Lu Jinnian asked, "Wrong? Do you think so? But I think meeting you is the best thing in my life."

Lin Siran felt a pain in his heart.

"I really don't understand. You are willing to risk your life for me, but you refuse to forgive my family for me."

Lu Jinnian looked at Lin Siran sadly.

"Why? I can't figure it out, and I can't figure it out after thinking about it for a long time."

"Did that 1 taels of gold really hurt you so much? You can't forgive it?"

Lin Ruran pursed her lips and was silent for a long time before asking: "Have you never understood?"

"I thought you were as smart as you, and had already figured it out."

"No, I can't figure it out. I really can't figure it out. If you were willing to stand with me at that time, even if you disobeyed the imperial decree and my father's order, I would definitely choose you instead of Li Fu."

The pain in Lu Jinnian's eyes was not fake.

He really cared about Lin Siran, and was deeply heartbroken that he had to part ways in the end.

"The 1 taels of gold is just an appearance. The real reason is that I understand that I, Lin Siran, are insignificant in the eyes of your Lu family. Mrs. Lu must have got Lu Xiang's acquiescence to do that. She just wanted to Tell me, even if Lin Siran risked his life, he would not be worthy of the eldest son of the Lu family."

"Am I going to give up my dignity in order to marry you?"

"I won't admire anyone, and I don't think I'm not worthy of you, but if the person who thinks so is your parents, can I ignore it?"

"When I marry you, I don't just marry Lu Jinnian, right? Behind you is the Lu family, the intricate network of relationships behind the Lu family. Unless you leave the Lu family, how long can you and I go together? Or Forced to separate, or I will die with hatred."

Lin Siran seemed to have seen that ending.

"I will protect you." Lu Jinnian still said the same thing, "I will protect you with my life."

"You can say this now, what if you had no choice at that time? Between family responsibilities and me, would you really choose me unswervingly?"

"If you really choose me unswervingly, you will agree to His Majesty's conditions, give up your right of inheritance, leave the Lu family, and stay with me."

Lin Siran said it right.

Lu Jinnian was full of resentment: "Then if you choose Li Xingxu, you won't face such a predicament? He is the crown prince. If he wants to inherit the throne, you will face more tests."

"But Your Majesty and Concubine Hui readily accepted me, unlike the Lu family who refused to accept a daughter-in-law like me who has no roots from the very beginning."

"Li Xingxu is not the same as you. He didn't promise me to protect me with his life, but he believed in me and believed that I could become a woman standing shoulder to shoulder with him. I can survive without being protected by him."

"There are not so many obstacles behind me and him. We are also not understood by the world, and we are also despised by others, but we have never despised ourselves."

"No matter what we encounter, we can get through it without giving up or compromising."

"The malice we face does not come from the families of both sides, and there will be no one behind us to hinder us."

Lin Siran took a deep breath.

"How about marrying you? Can you guarantee that no one in the Lu family will harbor ill intentions towards me? Can you guarantee that when we do our best to fight against the enemies outside, we can leave our backs to your relatives and friends?"

"Or do you think Lu Xiang and Mrs. Lu will tolerate and love me as they would their children?"

"nothing!"

"Being with you, facing the enemy, between your relatives and me, can you really choose me firmly?"

Lin Siran shook his head: "You won't."

Lu Jinnian clenched his fists tightly and his body was tense. He looked at Lin Siran with red eyes.

"How do you know I can't? Why do you say I can't?"

"Only Li Xingxu can betray the whole world for you, but I can't?"

"Then between you and the throne, what choice will he make?"

"If he ascends the throne, there will be three thousand beauties in the harem in the future. Can you really accept serving a husband with so many women?"

"Can you accept to suffer in the intrigues of the harem all your life?"

"Since ancient times, the harem has been the biggest cage for women. Can you bear being restrained with such an arrogant personality?"

Lu Jinnian really couldn't accept it, Lin Siran finally chose Li Xingxu.

"Even if you choose an ordinary man to live your ordinary life, at least I can comfort myself, this is the peaceful life you want."

"But you obviously chose a more difficult path than marrying me. You just... like Li Xingxu more, right?"

At the end of Lu Jinnian's speech, his voice became hoarse.

He actually lost to Li Xingxu, the prince who had never been favored, and who had survived until now under the guise of cowardice and incompetence.

Lin Siran lowered his head, then raised it slowly, with a smile overflowing from the corner of his mouth.

"He said that as long as I'm not afraid, he will only have me as a woman in his life."

Lu Jinnian was stunned and tongue-tied.

"It's hard to believe, isn't it? Maybe you can say that he made the promise lightly just to coax me."

Lin Siran smiled.

"It's not impossible, because no one can say for sure what will happen in the future, but there was a moment when Jinnian could promise me so without hesitation? No matter what the situation, would you be willing to stand by my side?"

(End of this chapter)