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Chapter 891 Hate You, But Love You Even More

what?
Jin Nan's mother turned out to be Chang Wenna? !

Cen Qinghe has always wanted to coax Jin Nan to speak, she wanted to share the pain he buried in her heart, but she never dreamed that when he opened his mouth, it was a big secret of today.

Without looking in the mirror, Cen Qinghe guessed that the look in her eyes must be panicked, even though she tried her best to keep her face the same.

After a long delay, she felt that she had to say something, otherwise... it would be impolite.

"I'm willing to listen to you, as long as you want to say it." Cen Qinghe's tone was very careful, with a gentleness that he couldn't detect.

She felt that Jin Nan was really pitiful. He actually hid such a secret in his heart. What kind of mood did he face Chang Wenna for so long?How do they get along within the family?
Jin Nan always maintained a posture, staring at a certain place with his eyes absorbed. After a while, he said softly: "I also only found out three years ago. It turns out that the mother I have called for more than 20 years is not my own. Mother, on the contrary, it is the aunt I have called for more than [-] years, she is my mother."

"My parents' relationship has never been very good." After a pause, Jin Nan explained: "I mean my aunt."

"Living under the same roof since I was a child is no different from an ordinary family of three. The only difference is that my dad is too busy, and I rarely see him, so I don't feel that he and my aunt are far apart. What's wrong, after all, according to my dad, to get married, as long as you live together, as for love, he doesn't care, and my aunt doesn't seem to care either."

"As far as I can remember, my aunt was not very close to me. She was not like other mothers to their sons. She basically would not take the initiative to approach me. When I was young, the nanny at home told me that as long as I was obedient, as long as I got grades She'll be happy if she does well, so I try to do everything I can, just want her to be like other people's mothers, even if it's just to smile at me. As I grow up, I'm starting to see some of that, I guess , it may be that the relationship between the husband and wife is not good, so even the mother hates the son. Later, I went abroad to study. The Chang family used to be a business family, so I studied business and management. Help her take care of her work, she might be happy."

"I came back from abroad three years ago. I didn't inform them. I wanted to give them a surprise, but I accidentally discovered that my mother and my aunt were with other men. In fact, when I was still in high school, I vaguely felt that not only did she not love me Dad, there may be other people out there, but I didn’t want to believe it until I was forced to run into it. I was very angry at the time, and I told her that it’s okay to have no love, but you can’t betray. If my dad finds out, what will he do? Where should he put his face? Maybe I really offended her, or maybe there are some things that everyone has kept in their hearts for too long, and if they don’t say anything, they will fester, so she pointed to my nose and told me, do you think you Didn't Dad know? He always knew that he was the one who was sorry for me first, and he knew that I gave him a cuckold, but he had to endure it for me!"

When Jin Nan said these words, his voice was tight, like an asthmatic patient about to have an attack.

Although his tone didn't have obvious ups and downs, and didn't even carry too much emotion, Cen Qinghe unknowingly shed tears all over his face.

Jin Nan, what has he experienced?
Being beaten by the "mother" whom I have called for more than 20 years, even an outsider would feel trembling when she heard it, let alone him?He worked so hard to do well, he just hoped to be a good boy that his mother would like.

Jin Nan kept his eyes down, and didn't notice that Cen Qinghe's face was full of tears. He fell into his own world and said to himself: "I was panicked at the time, and I couldn't understand what she was saying, but she stared at me with disgust. Tell me that I was not born by her, she is infertile, she admits that she is sorry and feels sorry for my dad, but this is not the reason for my dad to sneak up with my aunt and secretly get pregnant. She said she hates I feel sick and want to vomit when I see me, my presence reminds her all the time that her husband cheated on her with her closest relatives, and even gave birth to me..."

Cen Qinghe couldn't bear it anymore, she suddenly took a step forward, and hugged Jin Nan tightly, because his hands were shaking constantly, until all the undrinked water came out when he opened the bottle cap.

She hugged him tightly, tears streaming down her cheeks, and said in a low voice: "Don't be afraid...Jin Nan, don't be afraid, it's all over."

Jin Nan looked at the ground without focus, and his whole body fell into the memory of fear. He said: "I never knew that my existence would cause so many people pain. They are all my relatives, but they are not Love me."

Cen Qinghe hugged her very hard, but at this moment she just wanted to push harder, she shook her head in tears, and said to him: "No, it's not like that, in fact, they all love you, your mother... your aunt is just angry with your father With her sister's behavior, she doesn't hate you, let alone hate you."

Jin Nan didn't hug her back as hard as he did in the morgue, trying to draw courage from her, but now he just drooped his arms weakly, and said almost raving: "Just because you can't have children , just because he wanted a son, so it was supposed to belong to his sister, but later his sister replaced him, but so what if he gave birth to me? Except that my surname is Jin, what else is normal about me? Everyone can’t If you don’t pay for this disaster, everyone will have to live in darkness and spurn from now on, I don’t understand, why? Qinghe, tell me, why me?”

Cen Qinghe found that no words could describe her heartache at the moment. She felt distressed when she saw old people begging on the street; This is incomparable to the man in her arms at the moment.

Too many people think that he is the proud son of heaven, his father is powerful, and his mother is a wealthy businessman, and he is the only son. The family must love him very much, right?

Just like Shang Shaocheng, although he always complained that his parents didn't have time to accompany him, Cen Qinghe had seen Shang Jingtian and Shen Qing. They were busy, but they loved Shang Shaocheng like eyeballs.

She always thought that no matter how good Jin Nan is, he would be treated like Shang Shaocheng, but she never thought that some children lack love, and some children have never realized what love is since they were young!Not only did I not understand, I didn’t understand, and I was told in the end that I actually hate you.

The cruelest thing is nothing more than this, Cen Qinghe didn't experience it personally, but heard the sound of heartbreak from his calm tone.

He just experienced Chang Shan's death, and now he peeled off his bloody side to show her, and tasted the pain of memories again. Cen Qinghe was afraid that he would not be able to hold on, this is not a problem that a man should be strong, In fact, he is only 28 years old.

So she hugged him vigorously, and replied in a very sure tone: "It's not your fault, Jin Nan, these have never been your fault. Even if this fault is destined to be paid by someone, your father, your mother, you Aunt, none of them survived, except you."

Jin Nan's voice was very low, and he said aggrievedly: "But they hate me..."

Cen Qinghe shook her head, tears blurred her vision, but she was sober as never before, and said: "I have seen how Auntie Chang treats you, she loves you because she is a mother; I don't know your father , but I know that there is no father in this world who does not love children; as for your aunt, do you know why she hates you? Because she loves you so much, she wants you to be her son so much, and she hopes you are all smart and sensible They are all derived from her half flesh and blood, I am a woman, I know women too well, women are narrow-minded, we will be jealous, when we like something too much, but we feel that it is not mine, at this time we will say, We don’t like it at all, we hate it, we use this method to hide our likes, in fact, we simply can’t ask for it. You have to understand that she watched you from birth to growth, and you are getting better and better, She is getting better and better, she is afraid that sooner or later you will know who your biological mother is, and you will become unfriendly to her, so it is better to keep a distance from you from the very beginning, you do not understand, she loves you of."

"is it?"

Jin Nan's voice was very soft, with a hint of anxiety and suspicion that he couldn't easily believe.

Cen Qinghe nodded vigorously, "I won't lie to you, you are so nice, why would anyone hate you?"

Jin Nan's body, which had been tense all the time, finally relaxed slowly. He slowly raised his arms and hugged Cen Qinghe almost greedily.

With his face pressed against her shoulder, he looked helpless like a child.

In fact, he has never grown up. Even though too many people, including Cen Qinghe, use old cadres to make fun of him, because his behavior and thinking are very old-fashioned, but he has always been a child who longs to be recognized and loved in essence. .Why doesn't he want to live a happy and unscrupulous life?It's just that there are too many things hidden in his heart, which makes him unable to laugh.

He thought that this secret would no longer be known by anyone other than the Jin family, but he told Cen Qinghe that he calmed down now, and he didn't feel regretful at all. If it wasn't for her hug at the moment, no, if it wasn't for her listening to the one in time... Hug, I'm afraid he won't be able to hold on for a long time.

Chang Wenna has been unmarried for more than 20 years, and even the child was adopted. This is her punishment for herself. She gave birth to the child instead of her sister, but Mrs. Jin will never be her. She cannot meet Jin Hui alone, nor can she be called Jin Nan's son , she has to bear the cold treatment and hatred of her sister for more than 20 years.

In this mistake, after all, no one was spared, and everyone was making atonement.

Jin Nan was lucky, fortunately he was not alone at this moment, otherwise Chang Shan died, he would feel that the only clean light in this family would also be extinguished, how would he continue?

(End of this chapter)