I won't be her substitute

Chapter 33

Proposal?When I was very vulnerable, Xia Tian proposed to me.I was confused, should I reach out and accept the engagement ring in his hand?I really want to, because I finally know that Xia Tian likes me.However, I really want to refuse, because I finally understand that I like Yu Zhe.I can't lie to Xia Tian, ​​and I can't lie to myself. I don't have the courage to accept or refuse. Where is my end point and what is the right choice?Who will tell me?
——An Mengqing's diary

Looking forward to the stars, looking forward to the moon, and finally looking forward to An Mengqing being discharged from the hospital.After stressful days, I feel better and even my breathing becomes easier.Everyone laughed so hard at An Mengqing's rebirth, but she was the only one who matched the good mood of others with a half-hearted smile.

Why are you unhappy?An Mengqing doesn't know why, is it because she doesn't want to wake up and face such a fact?Or because of something else, something only she doesn't know.

"Mengqing, come in quickly, don't catch a cold." Xia Tian found that An Mengqing had been standing outside the door alone for a long time. Ever since she woke up, Xia Tian felt that she was weird. "Meng Qing? Meng Qing?" An Mengqing who lost his mind ignored her, and Xia Tian shook her hands in front of her eyes.

"Thank you." Two words came out from An Mengqing's mouth faintly.

"Thank me for what?" Xia Tian was confused.

"You saved me, didn't you?" An Mengqing turned around, with a never-before-seen expression, rich and incomprehensible eyes, Xia Tian couldn't read her expression, nor could she understand her hidden meaning.

He smirked and fled. "I don't want to make my uncle and aunt sad, after all you made their only daughter."

Yes, An Mengqing is a filial child, how could she abandon her parents for her own affairs?She is not alone now, and she still has her sister's wish to stay on her shoulders, and she wants to take care of their parents for the two of them.

"It turns out that the reason is so simple, but I have been hard on myself for so many days." An Mengqing suddenly felt relieved, and finally she found a good reason. "My parents are the only reason I'm alive."

"Only", what a precise word.Inadvertently broke someone else's heart.Could it be that in An Mengqing's heart, only her parents are her hope of survival?Could it be that Yuzhe really hurt her so deeply?Too deep to find a reason to live?Xia Tian does not understand, but now he also does not want to understand.Before Yuzhe left, let him take good care of her, this is his chance.

"The moment you stepped into the arms of death, you really didn't think about other people. People other than uncles and aunts? For example, Ai Jing? Those bloggers of yours? Your loyal readers?" And me, you Have you ever thought about me?
"I thought about it." Xia Tian felt his heart skip a beat, he was really nervous, did An Mengqing think about himself?Even just staying for a minute is enough to make him excited for a while. "Yu Zhe, it's him who makes me hate, makes me love, makes me want to leave, and also wants to stay. There is no reason, this is the rhythm of my heart, sometimes fast, sometimes slow, so uncomfortable, so uncomfortable..." An Meng Qing clutched her heart, her complexion changed, it became tangled, it was so painful.

what to do?What is he going to do?Looking at her, he also felt pain.But his pain was outside her heart, there was no room for him.Will this pain add to the pain, and the feeling of being overwhelmed with pain will appear in Mr. Xia's body?It seems that his choice is not wrong, he loves her, it's just her, An Mengqing in front of him.

Xia Tian didn't speak, and firmly ignored the pain that he had no place in An Mengqing's heart. He put his arms around her shoulders, put her head on his chest, and let her ears be close to his heart, for her beating heart .

"Mengqing, everything is over. Don't be sad, don't be sad, happiness is only one step away from you, as long as you look in front of you, you will see happiness is waving to you. The whole world abandons you, I will never... "Although I don't know how far forever is, Xia Tian has already made an oath in his heart that he will give An Mengqing happiness. Life is long or short, and happiness does not matter how much. In his lifetime, every day, every minute, every day Seconds, he will give her happiness.

Just like that, in Xia Tian's arms, she cried, she cried to her heart's content, crying for no reason, only feeling a pain in her heart, a pain she had never experienced before.

"Oh my god, Mengqing, how can you do this? It's too much, I warn you, you are not allowed to give up your life for Yuzhe, it's not worth it. Also, how can you bear to leave me." I don't know why Who leaked the news, Ai Jing, who was far away from abroad, actually knew about An Mengqing's hospitalization, An Mengqing who was sleeping sweetly connected the phone in a daze, and the disheveled one was scolded. It took a long time to realize that the harasser in the morning was actually Ai Jing.

"Don't be so excited. Who said I'm going to leave you. I'll stay with you and bother you all my life, even if you drive me away."

"I'm relieved to hear you say that. It seems that you have come out of the shadows. However, what you said is so nasty." An Mengqing seemed to feel Ai Jing's trembling.I couldn't help laughing out loud. "What are you laughing at?"

"Nothing. By the way, have you found your Prince Charming?"

"Oh, not yet." Ai Jing's mood suddenly fell into hell.

"Don't be discouraged. I believe that a lover will eventually get married and will find him."

"I'm not that weak. But..." Ai Jing seemed to have something hard to say.

"But what?"

"If I can't find him within three months, I'm going to get married."

"What? How could this be?"

"I'm an old man, and my parents are urging me to get married quickly. It took a lot of spitting to convince them to give me a three-month deadline."

"Three months? Are you sure?" An Mengqing broke into a cold sweat for her. After searching for so many years, Ai Jing didn't even have any news about him. Deadline, the chances are slim.

"Let's take a gamble. If I have a destiny with him, we will definitely meet again within three months. If there is still no whereabouts of him when the deadline is up, we can only blame our destiny."

"No, you have paid so much for him, God will see it, Yue Lao will not tear you apart."

"Mengqing, you really know how to comfort people. I feel much more comfortable. By the way, I'm going back to China soon, so prepare to cleanse me up."

"Okay. When will you come back? Let me prepare."

"Come back and drink your wedding wine."

"Drink my wedding wine?" Monk Zhang Er was really puzzled by An Mengqing. When did she say she was going to get married?

"That's right, didn't Xia Tian tell you? His movements are really slow. Oh, didn't he say that? Didn't I ruin the surprise he gave you? Meng Qing, just pretend you didn't hear anything, I I didn't say anything. Goodbye." A person babbled a lot, which made An Mengqing puzzled.What on earth did she hide from herself with Xia Tian?

Holding the mobile phone in his hand, he was stunned for a while, then shook his head, no longer thinking about those boring things, let everything take its course.

"Dad, Mom, where are you going?" When I went downstairs, I saw my parents packing up their things, as if they were about to go out.

"Oh, we want to visit Xiaoyu, and hope that her spirit in heaven can keep the whole family safe."

These days, it seems that An Mengqing hasn't missed An Xiaoyu for a long time. In the past, she would think about it all the time. Could it be that she really couldn't forgive An Xiaoyu and Yu Zhe?

It's really absurd, originally it was my sister who met Yuzhe first and fell in love with Yuzhe first, strictly speaking, I am the third party, what right do I have to hate anyone?
After calming down, An Mengqing looked at the matter very simply, and could only say that a key suddenly opened the door of her heart.

"I'll go as well."

"You are just recovering from a serious illness, so you should rest at home."

"It's okay. I want to go see my sister."

A family of three carrying things, walking on the street, passing by a flower shop, An Mengqing stopped, the same, she bought a pink rose, the difference is that there are 15 more yellow roses in her hand (15 yellow roses mean :apology).

"Mengqing, don't you usually buy roses? Why are there so many roses today?" Mother An was puzzled by her daughter's behavior.No wonder, how could she know these flower language with special meaning.

An Mengqing just looked at the flowers in her hands, smiled slightly, and walked ahead without saying anything.The astonished parents just looked at each other and followed closely behind.

With complicated moods, An Mengqing walked on the street, looking at the crowds passing by, she smelled busy, as if she was the only one who was the most leisurely in the world, and she might be buried in her work so that she had no time to think about other things She'll be in a better mood.

As she was walking, an unknown force stopped her, she regained her composure, and An Mengqing stopped at the gate of Yu's Group.When I went to visit An Xiaoyu before, I never passed this road at all, so I naturally wouldn't see Yu's Group.Now why?

What is he doing now?in a meeting?Still talking about business?Still dating? ...An Mengqing stood where she was, looking at the four characters Yuda Yu's Group in front of her. Through the thick walls, she fantasized about Yu Zhe's situation at this time.

An's father and An's mother behind him looked at each other, hesitating.Finally, when he stepped forward, Papa An blocked An Mengqing's sight with his body.

"Son, stop watching. Let's go." There were no extra words, and under the urging of her parents, An Mengqing took a step, but it was strangely heavy.

It's a long way.When he came to An Xiaoyu's tomb, he put down the things in his hands.

"Xiaoyu, you must keep your family safe and happy." Mama An said to her, her nose sore and she shed tears.Without An Xiaoyu, how could the family be happy.

An Mengqing looked at An Xiaoyu, then lowered her head, closed her eyes, clasped her hands and placed them under her lips, communicating heart-to-heart between sisters: Sister, I'm sorry.I'm too selfish, too narrow, I shouldn't hate you.You once told me, why do we like the same things?Perhaps this is destined, not only do we have the same hobbies and things we like, but we even love the same person.Sister, Yuzhe still loves you, he doesn't hate you.I can't give him happiness, and I can't give him happiness. I hope you can bless him and make him happy forever.

An Mengqing opened her eyes and looked up, her eyes were filled with crystal clear teardrops.At this moment, she wants to let go of her love for Yu Zhe.Although An Xiaoyu was gone, she could make Yuzhe change his mind, but she didn't do it, not because she didn't love him, but because she didn't want to fall in love with a man like her sister.

What day is today?An's father and An's mother bought a lot of dishes. The delicious food is full of color, fragrance, and aroma. The already empty stomach is even more restless under the temptation of food. In desperation, An Mengqing had to get up and stay up for two nights ,very tired.Belly is too disappointing.It's just that I've been hungry for four meals. Is it necessary to keep screaming?

With red eyes and two unique dark circles, An Mengqing went downstairs listlessly. "Mom, why did you buy so many vegetables? Are there any guests at home?" Looking at the table full of delicious food, his squinted eyes suddenly became energetic, as big as a copper bell. "Xiamen? How did you come?" Turning around, he bumped into Xia Tian who was helping.Wearing an apron, he really looks like a "boiled man". "Mom, don't you need to spend so much to welcome him?"

"Silly boy, what are you talking about? Today is your birthday, don't you remember?"

That's right, it's An Mengqing's birthday, isn't it also An Xiaoyu's birthday.Oops, Father An, Mother An invited Xia Tian, ​​so it's just that she is An Mengqing instead of An Xiaoyu.Every year when she celebrates her birthday, a place will be vacated on the table, and there will be a birthday cake with the words "Happy Birthday An Xiaoyu" written on it, and "Happy Birthday An Mengqing" written on the other cake.It seems that this year is no exception, there are indeed two cakes on the table not far away.

"No." An Mengqing shouted.

"What's the matter? It's so loud. What's wrong?"

"I... mean... say..." How can I say this.An Mengqing stomped her feet anxiously. "Anyway, it doesn't work."

"What's wrong? You have to explain clearly." This is so anxious to the ignorant father and mother An.

"You mean I can't do it here?" Xia Tian's voice.

An Mengqing had to admire his IQ, no wonder he was the president of Haiyun International Group.

"You child, what's wrong with Xiaoxia here? He's our guest, a guest invited by your father and me. Xiaoxia, ignore her." An's mother's protection really made An Mengqing want to take a noodle The idea of ​​hanging yourself.Don't understand anything, just add to her confusion.An Mengqing ignored it, stepped forward and pulled Xia Tian away.He was stopped by Father An, who had quick eyesight and quick hands.

"Don't mess around. Why do you still act like a child when you are so old?"

"Uncle, forget it. You can't blame Meng Qing. She has her own ideas." Xia Tian hinted at them.They also comprehended the meaning of Xia Tian, ​​said nothing more. "Mengqing, don't worry about anything, I already know."

What is in his eyes?He knows everything?What does he know?what to do?She couldn't move anymore, she believed in Xia Tian's eyes, eyes mixed with an unknown substance.

An Mengqing, who was sitting at the dining table waiting to eat, looked at the birthday cake and couldn't help but think of that night——

Mengqing, happy birthday!
Thank you.

……

How do you know I like these?
Of course, you must know your wife well.Don't stand here, just blow out the candles and make a wish.

Such a scene that is still fresh in my memory, such a warm birthday dinner, and such sweet words seem to have happened yesterday, but a year has passed. 360 five days seems long, and the occasional shortness is unacceptable.

"What is Mengqing thinking? It's time to eat."

The food was served and the cake was brought.only one.

"Xiao Xia, didn't I tell you not to buy cakes? It's too expensive."

"Auntie, don't say that. This is also my heart." Xia Tian smiled and put the cake she made by herself in front of An Mengqing. "Mengqing, open it and have a look."

An Mengqing obediently and slowly opened the cake.This is a very rich fruit cake with a tempting aroma, I really want to eat it all in one bite.Hey, what's the one in the middle?Still sparkling.Curious, An Mengqing took it out and took a look.a diamond ring.so beautiful.

An Mengqing who was holding the diamond ring raised her head at a loss.My God, Xia Tian actually stood in front of her holding a large bouquet of red roses. That bouquet is so big, there should be nine hundred and ninety-nine flowers, right?

"Mengqing, marry me, okay?" Xia Tian is proposing marriage?

"But, but..."

"I love you, An Mengqing, not An Xiaoyu."

Xia Tian's words were astonishing, An Mengqing really wanted to faint.Somebody tell her what happened.

"The first time we went to the haunted house in the amusement park, I suspected that you were not Xiaoyu. At that time, Xiaoyu and I went to the haunted house. She always scared those who pretended to be ghosts to death, and you seemed very scared. From then on From now on, I have been observing and watching you. Finally, I learned the truth from my uncle and aunt. Xiaoyu is the first girl I know who is tempted. After going abroad for so many years, I thought I was always thinking about her. No matter what the situation was, I They all love her. But after returning to China, I found you and got to know you, and I realized that I love Xiaoyu, and true love for you..."

Xia Tian discovered her disguise very early, he was terribly smart.An Mengqing, whose mind was empty, had long been absent-minded, and didn't hear a word Xia Tian said later.

"Mengqing, we also know about the three of you. Xiao Xia is a good boy. If you are entrusted to him, your mother and I can rest assured."

An Mengqing raised hesitant eyes to look at her parents, then looked at the loving Xia Tian, ​​her flowing eyes inadvertently saw a familiar figure outside the window, she put down the diamond ring in her hand, rushed out the door, and heard the sound of the door opening , the familiar figure turned his head.

"Are you Yuhang?" On the day of their wedding, they met in a hurry. The two brothers looked quite alike. An Mengqing thought it was Yu Zhe from the back, and rushed out without thinking.

"I'm waiting for my brother to wish you a happy birthday."

(End of this chapter)