Featured by Frederick Floyd

Chapter 13 [-]
Fu Cong took advantage of the opportunity to perform in Hong Kong in the summer to talk to his parents on the phone to express his missing.However, Fu Lei and his wife were unable to go to Hong Kong due to the limitation of social environment to meet their son whom they missed day and night.

1965.1.28
Dear children:
I haven't heard from you for nearly six months, and I even wonder if you received the letter sent on October 31.Around the [-]th of last month, I almost wanted to send a telegram: Now it is even more different than before. Besides the two of you, there is another doll to increase our worries.How about adults?How is the child?Is someone sick? ... After all, your mother will be considerate, saying that your long-term silence may not only be for busyness, but mainly for your mood.Yes, she must have guessed right.Although we don't know the specific content of your troubles in life and thought, we can always imagine a general idea.All in all, with your temperament, no circumstances will make you happy.You know it yourself.In this case, it is better to give up some ideals in life; ideals can only be pursued in the field of art, and of course they will never be pursued, at least they can be approached gradually, and academic depression will not damage our mental health.Even when you can't distract yourself, I hope your mood will not affect your family life too much.In the final analysis, you are not a bachelor now, but bear the responsibility of a family of three.As the old saying goes, you and Mira will live together.Although unsatisfactory things outside cannot be avoided, small disturbances in the family can always be controlled by oneself.There are already enough objective difficulties, so why add subjective ones?Of course, this requires the joint efforts of both parties, but you should always do your best.Be more restrained, calmer, more forgiving, less demanding, think more about your own shortcomings, and more about the strengths of others.The difficulty of life—especially married life—is that, like playing the piano, one must be vigilant all the time so that there will be no or less trouble.Always keep the thought of being in the same boat through thick and thin, and seek a situation of living in harmony, tolerance, and compromise, so as to survive the hardships and hardships of life.This is our wish as parents.There have been very few women throughout the ages who can live in peace and comfort with the company of artists.Combining a thousand sentences with one sentence, and trying to minimize one word, may be the only secret to relieve boredom and reduce disputes.We haven't heard from you two for a long time. We are always worried about your relationship. Of course, we are also worried about your health, but we are more concerned about your relationship, because you can't find a doctor to treat this disease.And this is an instinctive worry between the flesh and blood.Even if you hide your bad mood, it's useless.Not only were we equally anxious, but because we didn't know the details, we made random guesses, anxious about this, anxious about that, which made us restless.If you think the above advice is groundless, it proves how much anxiety can be caused by long-term silence.You can't forget that your father often nags you about these things, because he is a person who has experienced it, and he doesn't want the mistakes made by the previous generation to repeat in the next generation.When I tell you this kind of thing, I will always hold the heavy heart of self-blame!
As for my intermittent ailments, don't worry, as long as I don't lie in bed and interrupt my work, I'm happy.My sleep is always bad, my brain can't stop, I can't tell if it's neurasthenia or something.Fortunately, my mother is in good health and can take care of everything.My brain is getting worse every year. Needless to say, the translation of seven or eight hundred words every day is miserable. Even writing to you is very difficult if you have to change two or three manuscripts.I'm afraid that if the body continues to deteriorate, it will become a real old, weak and disabled soldier.At present, I can still work all day and all year long—except when I am sick—except reading books and doing some research at the same time, thanks to the constant materials sent from Paris.The most painful thing is that I can't rest, my mind can't stop when I sleep, and I can't stop when I wake up.This is probably the main reason for insomnia.

There is still no news about your record, and we dare not hope that we will receive it one day!

I won't write any more, please take care and write quickly!

Dad January 28, [-]

1965.1.29
Dear Satoshi:

I really don't know where to start when I bring up a pen!You don’t give us letters for such a long time. I really don’t know the pain we miss you. Dad’s tossing and turning at night can’t fall asleep, and most of it is also on you. The same anxiety; I often wake up in the middle of the night with mixed feelings and burning with worry. These four words can explain how parents miss their son.Now that you have a child, you should feel it.Fortunately, in the past six months, Mira has received a letter and Ling Xiao's lovely photos, which have given us a lot of comfort. I am very grateful to her.You still know your actions more or less, and Mira also described the children's emotions very interestingly. We are really happy from the bottom of our hearts.The child grows more and more beautiful. My friends said that the shape of the nose and face resembles yours, and the forehead and eyes resemble his mother. It is almost six months now, and I am afraid it has changed again. I hope to take more pictures and send them often. In our lonely life, there is more brilliance and warmth.

Your records haven't arrived yet. Can't the record company in London order them from the United States and send them by Air London?You really don't know how much we attach importance to your records. Playing your films seems to bring us closer and closer to you.We are thousands of miles away, of course it is impossible to meet each other, but we should have the right to listen to your records, it is not impossible to do it, hope to hear from you during your busy schedule, let us have fun!

The Spring Festival will be celebrated in a few days, and the children are not around. Although I am used to the lonely and monotonous life, there is always a sense of emptiness.Stop writing, goodbye!
Mom January 29

1965.2.20
Dear children:
The only letter from you in the past six months has given us so much comfort.After reading the schedule, I took a trip with you as usual and daydreamed for half a day.There is something amazing about human beings. They can experience the world thousands of miles away, the scenery of various places, the reaction of the audience, and the feelings of wanderers without leaving home or leaving the small room.You said that you were back in Poland and the Soviet Union in South America. Just from this sentence, I can feel your joy and excitement;

The photo is another kind of excitement for us, the tiger-faced look is most like you.Probably the camera was too close. When the child saw the strange thing pointing at him, he was a little frightened and wary.It's a pity that the two photos with the smile are blurred (and the expression is the least like you), the next time you shoot the action, the aperture should be enlarged to F.2 or F.3.5, and the time should be 1/100 or 1/150 second.If you use flash (that is, flash), use F.11, and the time is 1/100 or 1/150 second.The one looking at you playing the piano is the most fun and beautiful; you should zoom in on the two of you as a close-up, leaving the blank space of your left hand at all; you need to zoom in five or six inches to see clearly, because the original is too small.I don't know if the other one is sitting on a chair or a car?There is a glass frame containing Chinese paintings (whose ones) on the ground floor, we can't figure out what's going on after guessing, please explain!

Your paternal nature is very strong, just like your mother, but you still have to be restrained. First, don’t interfere with your daily work, and second, don’t spoil Ling Xiao—children often play with him, and it becomes a habit. Don't catch you now, not only will Mira suffer, but it will also be bad for the child.Being able to endure loneliness is a great weapon in life, and being able to endure loneliness needs to be trained from an early age!It is important to love children, but it is also important to develop discipline; if you don’t pay attention when you are a few months old, and then tighten it up when you are two or three years old, both adults and children will suffer.

I can fully understand your mood.You are right, knowing a son is like a father, because the temperament and temperament of parents and children are always very similar. Didn’t I often say that you are my mirror?Not to mention that you and I have the same keen senses, but the artistic temperament of changing moods, high tides and low tides, excitement and depression, etc., is almost the same between you and me.Unfortunately these genetics (or acquired infections) do more harm than good to your actual life.What is good for art is often not good for life; because the artist's feet are on the ground, but his mind is in the sky. Of course, this posture is not suitable for the real world.We often feel that it is not easy for Mira at last, so don't judge Mira by your mother's temper.You have to remind yourself at any time that there is no reason to vent your depression on a third party.Besides, her childhood was not happy, and you two should feel sorry for each other.I have never achieved self-denial in my life. If you can achieve better results than me and get results sooner, then my mother and I will be so happy!

When it comes to exile, how many great figures from ancient times to the present have suffered this kind of suffering, and Dante is one of them; what is the point of mere mere brats in my generation!It is said that "Divine Comedy" was written under the influence and stimulation of Exile, but we should take this as an example and sublimate the pain of Exile into art.The above words, I know that it is impossible to eliminate your sorrow and sorrow, but at least it can provide you with some reasons for relief, so that you can extricate yourself from anger and depression.To be an artist, if you don't have the heart of a religionist, you will become a virtuoso [artist] who pursues pure technology or pure abstract ideas, or a madman like the so-called abstractionists; Opinions, and you will suffer from others (suffering your partner), and you will never be able to detach yourself. Finally, there is a practical argument: with your love and understanding of music, you may have to struggle in the society you hate.You said that there are outcasts everywhere, isn't that what you mean?Art is also a tyrant [tyrant], because all his slaves are willing, so this tyrant is especially terrible.Since you have recognized art as your master, all the hardships and sufferings are your tribute to him. If you believe in his religion, how can you not sacrifice too much prison or too much prison?Every line has humiliation [shame] and misery [misfortune], being able to resign [obedience] is the only way to reduce pain.Have you ever thought about why Chopin voluntarily went into exile in a foreign country for the rest of his life?What price did he pay for his works after Op.25 [Work No. 20 No. [-]]?

Cherish all things and love yourself for the country!
Papa February [-], [-]

Any work of art has a part of implicit things, which is called "exhaustive words and endless meanings" in literature, and what Westerners call "between lines".It is impossible for the author to write all the feelings in his heart, and the revelations he gives people are often beyond his own expectations.Painting, sculpture, drama, etc. all have this potential realm.However, what music expresses is the most erratic, the most ethereal, the most elusive, and the most difficult to ascertain. The overtones seem to be richer and more mysterious than other arts, so ordinary people are too lazy to explore, and even don’t feel any overtones at all.In fact, a real performer should strive to understand this potential state (that is, what is called "the one who listens to the sound without sound" in "Huainanzi" does not refer to this hidden artistic conception) and express it. Come out, although his experience is not necessarily correct.Whether you can experience it has nothing to do with nationality.From which angle to experience it, and which hidden things in the works can be understood, mostly depends on the character and cultural tradition of each nation.What nation A experiences is different from what nation B experiences, whether correct or not, as well as different types and degrees.I guess the tacit understanding between you and your father-in-law lies in the fact that you and your father-in-law are both Orientals, you have a common way of feeling things, and you often see things in a similar way.This is also the reason why you and the Dong Brothers feel that you are in love with each other when you first cooperated.Since we are all Chinese, we naturally have more commonalities in terms of feelings.

Dear Cong and Mira:
Three or four days before I received your letter, I had a dream about you, and I secretly thought that your letter would arrive soon. As expected, it was a great harvest for us.I often have premonitions, and they come true many times.Ling Xiao's photos are so beautiful, getting better every time.I asked Aunt Xiao to send me a kind of Japanese photo album that doesn't need a photo corner, and it is dedicated to children's photos.Ling Xiao sits on the sofa and listens to you playing the piano. The one is temporarily placed on the chest of drawers in my room, and the other one (the one with Chinese paintings underneath) is placed on the small bedside table. From time to time, I can look at him with joy!Although we are so far apart, I can understand and be very optimistic.Now how many young people are actively going to the countryside to settle down, or go to Xinjiang to participate in the construction, and it is not easy to meet each other?At the same time, there are also many people whose sons and daughters are far away in foreign countries.We can communicate, exchange photos, and we are not the same heart to heart!
You said send the record right away, we're so happy, I hope the check won't be dishonored!

It's been six months since Ling Xiao, it's time for him to giggle and babble amusingly, why don't we watch him dream!I'm afraid the sweater I made was too small, and I can't wear it anymore. I'm ashamed to say that I really don't know how to express my heart as a grandmother!

I would have liked Papa to translate this letter into English to please Mira.My foreign language is not a problem. Every time Mira writes a letter, I have to read it several times. It can be said that I fully understand her.It’s a pity that I can’t write, and sometimes I really want to ask my dad to translate, but my dad is too busy, and I don’t want to waste his time, so you must do this for me and tell Mira patiently, I will be happy .

I hope you all take care of your health, write more letters, and send more photos!

mom february [-]

1965.5.16/21
Dear children:
The excitement that the long-distance call from Hong Kong gave us is indescribable.The whole day on May 23th, your mother and I were out of our minds, eating and doing things a little bit in a dream, and I couldn't calm down to work at all.Especially in the early morning of the [-]th, my mother told me that she dreamed that you were still a baby, she fed you, you fell asleep, and she put you on the bed.Half an hour after she said this, a call came!No wonder some people are superstitious about dreams!Aunt Xiao's letter made us excited again for a long time. She wrote down your [-]-hour crossing in Hong Kong in detail, and even reported the Shanghai dishes you ordered. How interesting.Letters and photos, we looked and looked over and over again, heard your voice on the phone, and saw the person you called the night before today, and then we put them together and became a complete you! (Didn't I say that your voice has changed a bit? I figured it out later. You and I have talked on the phone the least number of times in your life. I have never been familiar with your voice after the phone has deteriorated. In [-] you called in Beijing. When I came to make a long-distance call, I also felt that your voice was strange.) Looking at your demeanor just after getting off the plane on the evening of May [-]rd, we know that you are still healthy physically and mentally despite the dust and dust. We are very relieved.You can develop nerves that are not afraid of tension, afford a body that can work hard, and be able to cope with the life of a performer in the [-]th century. In the final analysis, you are also unique.Your mother and I are getting older and more and more nervous, and the slightest thing will make us nervous.On the one hand, our character is born, and on the other hand, our years of quiet life make us unable to adapt to the whirling modern tempo [rhythm].

May [-] night
Another thing that is on my mind is what you said about moving houses.According to the drawing drawn by Mira in March [-], don't you now have a living room besides the studio?The child and you two also have their own bedrooms, even if it is a bit more crowded than when there were no children, it is still not too much to live in, right?Young performers in London who are of the same level as you may not necessarily live in a more spacious place than you.You don't go out to socialize, and you don't entertain formally at home, so you don't need to care about ostentation; besides, you don't like to pay attention to ostentation.You have always believed that simplicity is a virtue of Chinese people, especially Chinese artists are traditionally proud of being poor: like your current daily life, you can’t talk about poverty, and it’s better to make do with it.

With a child, all kinds of unforeseen expenses increase day by day with his age; even if there is still money on hand at the moment, it is better to save some money in case the child has any indispensable expenses. .Besides, according to my inference from your experience of renting in [-], London probably used "classic houses" (there was a similar method in the old days of our country. I knew there was such a rule in the interior before I was ten years old. "Classic house" is not the "top" method that was popular in Shanghai later: pay a sum of money at the beginning, then pay quarterly or monthly, and after a few years, you will enjoy permanent (or semi-permanent) residence All land belongs to the government, not private individuals.This kind of house can be "transferred" at any time. In principle, after living in it for a few years, the price of the property must be lower than the original price when the property is acquired, which means that there will be some losses.Unless the market is particularly good - the so-called period when the national economy is particularly prosperous, the price of the mortgage will be higher than the price of the mortgage.But if you have mortgaged your original house, you still have to mortgage a new house. If the market is good and the mortgaged price is high, then the price for the mortgaged new house will also be high. You want to transfer a larger house, not that the original house is larger and the transferred house is smaller; if the house is larger, the pawn price will of course be higher. The price of the pawn is higher than the price of the pawn.Unless the living area is different, the original house is in a relatively high-end residential area, and the house transferred in the future is in another relatively middle-class residential area: only in this case, the mortgaged price can be compared with the mortgaged price of a larger new house Equal, or on the contrary, the mortgaged price is higher than the mortgaged price of the new house.

Do you think my above statement (more correctly, speculation) is consistent with the facts?In addition to the loss of codes and codes, and the monthly or quarterly burden will probably increase in the future, there are some issues to consider: ([-]) At least one large room in the place where you live must be equipped with soundproofing equipment, which is very expensive. Large, and does not increase the market value of the house.For example, the house you live in now, the studio [studio] has sound insulation equipment, but this does not make the price of the mortgage higher, unless the person who is mortgaged is also a musician. ([-]) The new house still needs to be decorated, such as carpets, curtains, etc. It is unlikely that the original ones in the old house can be used in the new house.That's another sizable expense. ([-]) The actual affairs of your family are entirely handled by Mira alone. She is no more busy than she was in [-]. She has a child and is busy enough without moving. .Besides, she is very busy at home, and because she is too busy, things may not be done well; you are impatient and picky, and if you are not satisfied with it, you will inevitably blame her with a few words, make her thankless, and make her resentful , affect the relationship between the two, so why bother!

Therefore, I hope that you will go back and have a long-term discussion with Mira, tell her what I wrote in the letter in detail, and think twice before acting.On this matter, your father-in-law's opinion should not be trusted too much. Of course, he sees things differently from us with his status and qualifications.What's more, he has servants in his family, probably more than one. Moving house is much easier for him than it is for you: what he thinks is easy, but it takes a lot of effort for you.This point must be firmly remembered!

Don't think that many things can't be explained clearly to us, that we don't understand the situation outside our country; we are from the old society, we just need to mention a few words, and we will understand.For example, when you mentioned "income tax" on the phone, I immediately understood that some shrewd people try to evade taxes, but you not only can't do it, but you don't want to do it.

As I write this, I think of the rumor I heard a year ago that your father-in-law gave you a villa in the suburbs of London: I laughed out loud when I heard that, and I said where did Cong get the money to pay such a "gift tax"?Where does the money come from to maintain a villa?It can be seen from this that we have heard a lot of rumors about you, and no matter whether the rumors are good or bad, we all laugh them off.

There are so many coincidences in the world: just after you called on May [-]th, you went downstairs and received two other records: Schubert Sonatas ["Schubert Sonatas"], Scarlatti Sonatas ["Scarlatti Sonatas"].So far, all your new albums have been collected, only the copies are missing. Mira’s letter mentioned that it was sent by the ship, which probably refers to double copies[copy]; I am not worried about anything else, only that she does not use wooden boxes , still packaged in cardboard, it will become a bad biscuit like Beethoven's records two years ago, because it takes two and a half months to travel on the ship, and it is often piled up in other mail parcels, which will often be too much to be a record.

As for the results of the records, from Bach, Handel, Scarlatti [Bach, Handel, Scarlatti], your skills in playing classical works have been greatly improved compared to 21. Mr. Li appreciates your touch [ Tactile feeling], it is said to be like bubbles (we say it is like pearls, the so-called "big pearls and small pearls falling on a jade plate" in Bai Juyi's "Pipa Xing"). Chromatic Fantasy ["Chromatic Fantasy"] is so different from the previous impression that I can't recognize it at all.You say that Scarlatti's innovation is unexpected, and it is true. Schubert [Schubert] was only familiar with his Lieder [art songs] in the past, but he didn't know that his late Sonata [Sonata] had such a state.I dug out a long passage from your letter from Norway dated September [-], [-], and only then did I have a preliminary understanding of the work.Regarding his Sonata, I am afraid that Western scholars still have different opinions. Some still think that it cannot be classified as an authentic work, while others (including Tovey [Tovey]) think it is great.

A few years ago, Teacher Jie wrote to you, saying that he met you in Brussels and tried his best to persuade you not to put these Sonatas in the program. Presumably he also thought that the public would not accept it.You said timeless and boundless [across time and space], there is indeed such a realm.In general, your records have always brought us great joy, your phrasing [syntax] is like your breathing [breathing], whether in Mazurka ["Mazurka"] or other works, especially It's a slow movement, we are so familiar with it, it's like hearing you speak.It's a pity that the record has been inspected, the stylus of the audition is not good, and the auditioner is not careful enough, the new film that comes is often scratched, and it sounds broken, like the old one, especially the forte [forte] ] and ff [more pronounced] passages.

Ling Xiao is about to babble and learn to speak. I suggest you first buy a set of Chinese recordings (see letter LTC-65, issued on January 28 this year), and often play them to your child so that he can get used to them. There are also benefits.In the future, I’m afraid we will have to hire another Chinese teacher to teach the children—you see, don’t children need to spend a lot of money?How hard your life of traveling around the world is, you should always live within your means; any excess in any aspect is absolutely indispensable, and you can only find ways to save it in other places that can be saved.Likes and dislikes of the masses are capricious, and artists are more or less influenced by fashion or unfashionability. They always think more about the distance and don't have too much money.

The moving issue mentioned above is worthy of calm consideration, and it is for this reason!As long as you calculate your monthly household in London reasonably and be good at scheduling, you can guarantee that you can save about 20.00% of your expenses and still maintain your immediate living standard!The same applies to your out-of-pocket expenses as well.You should understand that I don't mean that you are extravagant, but that you don't know how to schedule or calculate; why don't you learn this most important course in life!

Whether you can come to the Far East again next year largely depends on the overall situation in Southeast Asia at that time.Whether we can meet you or not depends entirely on the leader's decision.But in case you decide on a date, you must tell us as soon as possible so that we can ask for instructions as soon as possible.If we can't meet each other, Mira and Ling Xiao don't have to travel all the way to come with you.I can’t finish talking, I hope you will read this letter twice and think about it on your way back to England.In case there is any change in your performance in Hong Kong, Aunt Shaw will forward this letter to London.

Your letter from Tashkent is lost again, what a pity!Just hope to hear from you from New Zealand in a week.

How is your Bach practice?Do the Chopin etudes continue often?What new repertoire [track]?I have asked you these three questions several times in the past year, but you have not answered them!
Send you ten pages of performance schedules for the past three years on February 22, so don't lose them again.If you are free in mid-July, you must correct it and send it back.

Recently, my brain is getting worse and worse, and I am miserable!I am deeply afraid that the translation industry will not be able to continue (in terms of my own ability), what should I do if I become a waste?

Take care, boy, take care of everything, take care of everything!

Dad late at night on May 21, [-]

1965.5.27
Dear children:
You talked about the characteristics of the Chinese nation's ability to "transform" and other thoughts about art. I fully understand, and those are my thoughts.For many years, I often said to my mother: The more I study Western culture, the more I feel the beauty of Chinese culture, and it is more suitable for my personality.I first fell in love with Chinese painting when I was studying Western painting at the Louvre in Paris at the age of 21.I'll talk to you about these issues later.The wonderful thing is that every time you make this kind of discussion, it coincides with mine, and some words in the letter seem to be written by me.I don’t know if it’s because you have been too deeply influenced since you were a child, or because you and I have the same deep Chinese roots?Probably this root is the main reason.

Only when an artist is always open-minded and fresh, can he always have fresh content to express, and never get bored with his art, and even think it is hard work like some people do.You can do this step - there are always endless words pouring out of my heart, I am really happy beyond words, and I am also very happy for you!

Dad May 27, [-]

1965.6.14
Dear children:
This time there are two performances a day, I am very worried for you, my good mother said that you complained of muscle pain afterwards, I wonder if you will pass right away?Is being on stage in Bath the same as usual after arriving in London?Such a heavy program, Schumann’s Toccata ["Toccata"] and Kreisleriana ["Kreisler Occasionally"] are quite awkward, and they are the most likely to cause finger fatigue; every time I hear that a domestic piano player breaks his hand, I will secretly do it for you worry.Of course, it is mainly a matter of method, but excessive fatigue is also related, so please pay attention!You have been tense for a week since the final stage in New Zealand. Have you ever completely relaxed and returned to normal after returning home?It's a pity that your neuroticism is too much like us!I can't sleep well when I'm excited by reading, I can't sleep well when I'm excited by listening to music, and I can't sleep well when I think about little things... It's exactly the same as your parents!I hope you can completely relax [relax, rest] every summer, and I hope you can have a good rest when you go to Germany next month.Don't be too pushy when you are young and strong. After 45 years old, everything will go downhill: the most important thing is to leave some leeway as soon as possible. Energy, physical strength, and emotions must be managed in a steady flow!Children, please remember these words: the line of work you do is the most hurtful, and parents are always concerned about your health—not only your immediate health, but also your health ten or twenty years from now!We are completely assured that you can be clean and self-respecting in terms of conducting yourself in the world; you should also be able to love yourself in terms of saving energy and caring for your nerves!

You have been to Hong Kong twice this time, and you must have a better understanding of the reasons why I tried my best to persuade you to cancel the appointment in Hong Kong in the spring of [-]. Mr. Shen also sent a letter, and some things are similar to what I expected.Fortunately, he and his good mother were cautious in everything and everything, and finally got through safely. The overall objective reaction is still unknown.Next year's affairs will first depend on the overall situation in Southeast Asia. If the Vietnam War expands, nothing can be discussed.Can't expect much from that at the moment.Your father-in-law will consider it carefully if he thinks about it.

In addition, your biggest gain this time is probably in terms of feelings. You talked to us three times. The fly in the ointment is that you didn't call me in the morning of May 23th and June 40th. Maybe you were too nervous. It seems a big loss not to hear "Dad" instead of following the rules.Mom is happy every time you call her!The motherly love and affection of the good mother and the good father have more or less dispelled your hunger and thirst for homesickness and nostalgia.Yesterday, I received a long letter from both of them at the same time, and my mother couldn't stop crying while reading the letter.Such enthusiasm and excitement are really the most precious things in life.We have friends like this (Mr. Li was thinking about your performance from 24:[-] p.m. Parents (Uncle Tian has been caring about you for more than ten years. He has read all the letters from my good mother before the end of May, and his eyes are wet. You know that Uncle Tian never shows much emotion), send you It is enough to be happy as my own child.They described your daily activities in more than [-] hours in detail. Since you left home in [-], we have never known so much about your actual life.We have read their letter four times within [-] hours, and every time we read it, it feels like we are reunited with you.But boy, did you ever write to thank them after you returned to England?Of course they will forgive you for being fussy, and they don't care about etiquette, but you have to express your heart.It doesn't matter if the message is short, but it must not go without news.People have given you so much, how can you not give back a little bit?What's more, you only need to spare half an hour to write a few lines, and people will be happy enough!Liu Kang and Uncle Chen Renhao's records must be given away, the number of copies is not limited, and the most important thing is the heart.This matter must be done before the end of this month, otherwise it will take several months to go out.

In your letter from New Zealand, you mentioned the words horizontal [horizontal] and vertical [vertical]. I wonder if they are terms that are popular among Western intellectuals recently?Or did you create it yourself?According to my understanding, the horizontal (or planar, horizontal) you mentioned means starting from an equal position, unlike the vertical one, which is top-down; in other words, "horizontal" is the way of penetration , into people's hearts unknowingly; the vertical one is a compulsive indoctrination method, forcing people to accept it.In terms of objective effects, the former is subtle, while the latter is passive (or forced) acceptance.I don't know if my explanation is right?If a nation's culture adopts a permeable method, its power will be strong and lasting.Only by adopting a "transformation" attitude towards new things or foreign cultures and arts can one achieve a state of mastery and mastery, and use them for one's own use, instead of copying them mechanically and cutting one's feet to fit one's shoes.No matter whether you receive or receive, starting from the word "hua" (I digest other people's, let others digest mine), only then can there be a real new culture. "Transformation" does not mean that there is no struggle, but it is not a superficial short-term violent struggle, but a potential long-term relatively moderate struggle.Who can say that "transformation" does not include "critical reception"?

A letter dated December 21, 511 said that in "rehearsing Mozart's Rondo in a min. ["Rondo in a minor"], K.[-] [Work No. [-]] and Adagio in b min. ["b Adagio in Minor]" is considered to be the best work among Mozart's solo piano works.I remember when you were at home before [-], I told you that Romain Rolland admired these two pieces most.You must be out of practice now, right?Have you taken it to the stage?Also, is Schubert's Landler ["Landler Dance"] only suitable for encore piece [encore music]?I simply have no idea.When will the above two pieces of Mozart be able to be recorded!Otherwise, I'm afraid I won't be able to hear it for the rest of my life.

As long as I have time at Elmans [Elmens], I really look forward to talking to me about the issues raised in this letter.The words can never be finished, so take it for now, take care of everything!
Whether the hand is normal, be sure to write to let us know!I have something to do with Tomira, so I won't mention it to you.

Dad June [-], [-]
Smoking and drinking should be controlled as much as possible, and you won't overdo it, both are bad for the heart.

Dear Cong and Mira:
From May [-]th to now, I have been so excited that I can't calm down.During this period, my good mother has exchanged many letters with us. In order to make us happy and know that we are eagerly looking forward to your news, she is willing to sacrifice her sleep time. She took the action of your two stays in Hong Kong and took the trouble to spend your life. Tell us all the details (for example: we talked on the afternoon of June [-]th, and it turned out that you were covered in soap and talking to us in the bathtub. No wonder you said, "We will talk tomorrow. I need to get dressed." We fully expected that you would Crossing the sea in a dress, ready to go on stage! We laughed out loud. And you ate a rice dumpling in two or three mouthfuls, it looked very delicious), satisfying the insatiable desire of parents, making us really feel like you live together.

What a great and profound friendship this is!We are sincerely grateful and will never forget.We have no friends in our life who are not loyal and honest, and help us everywhere. After all, we have received far more from others than we have given to others. Although it is inevitable that we feel guilty, we are also proud of it.

You travel around, as long as you meet our bosom friend, not only warmly entertain you, but also love you in every possible way, the most obvious one is the good mother, she wrote that her "love for you is indescribable" , she loves your accomplishments, but also your character.The performance in Hong Kong this time is all related to her. Let me introduce you to Shen: a noble and invaluable bosom friend.Everything is arranged for you in a meticulous and meticulous manner, replacing what we should do, and doing it better than us.You really want to treat her like a mother, where can you find this kind of sincere affection in such a cold society!Good dad also has a letter, she is full of enthusiasm as in previous years, because you said that you still remember her often, which made her fall in love with her even more, and the words are unrestrained, how exciting!I read their letters while weeping, it was joy and bitterness, and I couldn't restrain my feelings.

Mira recently sent several photos of Ling Xiao. The child is changing day by day, and his expressions are getting richer and richer. Sometimes his face looks like you, sometimes not quite like you. It seems that the uncle's atmosphere has increased , the eyes are more like Mira, you see it right?

The clothes bag for Ling Xiao's first birthday can be sent out within about a week. Please tell me if the size is right after you receive it?Maybe it’s a bit bigger, so it’s time to wear it next year, or what kind of style you need, ask Mira to tell me honestly, you’re not welcome, my father has already talked about everything I want to say in detail, and I won’t be verbose, I hope you guys take care!
Mom June [-]th

1965.7.11
Dear children:
Since May 21st, I have written you the fourth letter; I don’t know when I will receive news from you in Germany!After all, the telephone cannot replace the letter; the former is only a brief outline, while the latter is the "text".

I received a London newspaper clipping on June 28, knowing that you will have a recital at the Festival Hall [Festival Concert Hall] on the 27th. It can be seen that your hands are completely normal, and I am finally relieved.This review is not like the previous two or three years, the tone is much better.I just don't know if the income and expenditure are balanced?In terms of the season, I am afraid that many people have already gone on vacation at the end of June. The number of listeners cannot be unaffected, is it?You have played the program five or six times in Manila, New Zealand and Hong Kong. What do you think of the performance in London this time?The new pieces added in recent years, the artistic and technical progress after returning from Vienna in the fall of [-] are what I want to know most, and I hope to talk about them in detail!Does Mrs. Capos still go to ask for advice sometimes?

I saw a few copies in Hong Kong's Chinese newspapers: It's too childish, and with a mistress' tone, it's unbearable.This shows the cultural level of the general public.I think whether it is worthwhile to perform in that kind of place is a matter of consideration.Except for a small group of people, most of them come to watch the excitement and people, not to listen to music; but you have to spend so much energy on guarding everywhere, paying attention to every word and every action with trepidation, isn't it a bit wrong?With so much attention from the press, if you stay longer, there may be untruthful reports that will embarrass you, especially from the domestic point of view, it will be more harmful than beneficial to you.If I meet you in Hong Kong and Kowloon, my name will inevitably be published in the newspapers. No one can be sure what the newspapers say. It is very inappropriate for me.The only safe way is my reunion with you incognito (a pseudonym), but this is also a fantasy.Having made an appearance in Hong Kong and Kowloon, it will be extremely difficult to reappear incognito in the future; what's more, coming to Hong Kong without performing once will cost too much financially.So even though my mother and I are 120% eager to meet you, Mira and Ling Xiao, I think we still need to think carefully.Leaving aside the question of approval or disapproval, you should think twice about applying.Our situation is different from yours: some things are not impossible to do, but have other side effects besides being impossible—and these side effects may not necessarily cause you to feel the consequences immediately, but it will take a few years to happen.In addition, if you come with your father-in-law next year, you will definitely attract more attention than this year. It is inevitable that the press will leak a few words and affect the domestic opinion of you. (For example, "going to XX" is a very common understatement in the writing of foreign reporters, but it is very dazzling in China, which suddenly uncovered the scars of many years ago!) All in all, things are far worse than you and your good mother imagined. as simple as that.So apart from the Vietnam War, the issue of you coming to Hong Kong Island with your father-in-law has to be considered from other angles.You should ponder over my words carefully, I think you will understand.Not only is the environment in Hong Kong and Kowloon complicated, but it is also too close to the mainland, so the reactions to everything are extremely fast and sensitive; and people's views on you cannot but involve me: the difficulty of the problem is really hard to describe.

Have you ever sent a letter to my good mother?Has Uncle Liu Kang's record ever been sent?Don't forget that the turntable catalog was never received.Shen Jun from Hong Kong did not send it either.Has the membership of the National Rose Society (National Rose Society) organized by Tomira been completed?A pack of Ling Xiao sweaters was sent to your father-in-law's house on June [-].I wonder if this letter can be transferred to your hands?What concerts are there in July?Your original schedule only ends in June.Take care of everything!
Dad July [-], [-]

1965.9.12
Satoshi:
After waiting for three months for your letter, my mother sighed after reading it and said, "Now I don't know how long it will take to receive the next letter!" It will make you feel even more how we miss you.I am really happy for you to be able to take the time to visit Italy again in mid-August. Perugia [Perugia] is the birthplace of Raphael's teacher Perugino [Perugino], and he must have left a lot of works, especially in the church. Assisi [Assisi] is the hometown of the saint St. Francis [Saint Francis] in the thirteenth century. He is the founder of the "St. Franciscan Society" (a school in the old religion). My dear monk is also a monk who is simple and close to a fakir.I didn't expect that those small cities in Italy would invite you to a concert.I remember that you have been to Turin, Milan, Perugia [Turin, Milan, Perugia] more than once, but Rome, Naples, and Florence have never performed.Some things are really not easy to understand, for example, Paris only invited you once; Etiemble [Etienne Boule] also said in the letter: "Paris still cannot appreciate votre fils [your son]", does the French music industry really treat you Any prejudices?And wait for the announcement next spring!
It is said that Frank is out of fashion, nobody asks for [Nobody cares about], so how is his "Violin Sonata" an exception?The likes and dislikes of the masses are really inexplicable.I don't think Variations Symphoniques ["Variations Symphony"] is not a bit "antique", and I am more interested in it than Saint-Saëns' Concertos ["Concerto"]!Have you ever tried Chausson with your father-in-law?I remember listening to his "Violin Sonata" 20 years ago. It was extremely bleak, but I liked it very much.Have you heard Duparc's songs in recent years?What's your impression?I think it is more distinctive than Faure [Fau Rui].You're going to play Landlers ["Landler Dance"], I'm so excited to hear it, and I hope it will be published soon.What you have never heard of before, after you praise it again and again, of course I am very curious.You think it's better than his Impromptus, don't you?To be honest, Schubert's Moments Musicaux ["Music Moments"] does not have much appeal to me.

It's really not easy to get chamber music [chamber music]. Personality [personality] must be able to match, no one will be outshine [covered] by others, it is something that can be met but not sought after.The fact that everyone agrees in advance does not mean that they feel the same. Intellectual understanding alone is not enough; even if the feelings are the same, the depth of the feelings may not be the same.Under such circumstances, of course, there would be no last degree conviction [strong belief].Even with such a strong belief, there may still be differences in the strength of each person's tone: it is inevitable that one will accommodate the other, or one will overwhelm the other, or one will barely follow the other in sweat.Of course, when it comes to these things, some duet sonata [duet] players don't feel these trouble [difficulties] at all.I remember Kentner [Kentner] and your father-in-law playing Franck, Beethoven [Frank, Beethoven], I couldn't stand it.I heard that Kentner's music memory is incredible, but after all, memory has nothing to do with art: otherwise, the computer could become a first-rate music performer.

Recently I am reading Chaplin's autobiography ([-] edition), which is very interesting but also very desolate.I was full of emotions while reading it.Mainly he was a very lonely man, and I was very lonely: this commonality made me feel particularly dear to him.I feel more and more that I am detached from everything [and everything is out of touch], working hard is actually only due to mechanical habits, physical and psychological needs (without working, there is no place for my heart to rest), rather than any conviction [belief].As for hobbies, whether it is rubbings, calligraphy and paintings, small antiques, or planting roses, even though I spend some mental time from time to time, I often laugh at myself, laughing at my stupid, empty, self-deceiving dawdling!
Many of Chaplin's opinions on art are very profound and pertinent; he does not follow the trend, and always maintains an independent spirit and independent thinking, which is the mark of all first-rate artists.What he wrote about New York 55 years ago (I was only two or three years old) and his impressions of being there for the first time reminded me of your impressions of going to New York for the first time—there are quite similarities with minor differences.What he wrote about America before and after World War I was a new discovery for me: How could I have imagined that in [-] there were already skyscrapers and Coca-Cola [Coca-Cola]?To what stage has capitalist society developed?This situation is very different from the Europe I knew around [-].

We wait for Ling Xiao's birthday photo every day!Talk again, take care of everything!
Dad, the night of September [-], [-], the second day after the Mid-Autumn Festival

This year, after Min and she returned to school one after another, they felt lost for three to five days, and their hearts were filled with loneliness, which was even more uncomfortable than in previous years.Probably feeling more old. Xiao Rong is innocent and simple, laughing and laughing all day long, 24 years old looks like 56, [-] years old, extremely cute.It's just that such an innocent character is out of date in any era, it makes people sad [sorrowful] after watching it!

1965.9.23
Dear Cong and Mira:
I received Ling Xiao's birthday photo, which brought us so much joy. The child grows up day by day. Although we are thousands of miles away, we live together with you. Let us have more fantasies and dreams.I am afraid that the child has already started to learn to walk, so he will call him mom and dad!You said he laughed all day, how fun!However, in the photos sent, there are not many smiles. When taking pictures of children, it is not easy to catch the smiling shots.In the future, when you send someone with a full expression, you must enlarge it and repeat it several times. Uncle Ma and the others have asked for it many times, but we refuse to give up, which is really embarrassing.Send you a few photos of us today, send them hard during the holidays, no matter good or bad, it’s better to let you see than nothing.

Ling Xiao's nanny is gone, how can Mira be so busy?I couldn't help at all, and I couldn't express my guilt.I hope to find a new nanny as soon as possible, otherwise, in the long run, I am worried that Mira will be overwhelmed.What do you think?Is there any temporary workers to find, at least part of the rough work can be assigned.Write more letters when you have time, we are too lonely and need the warmth of our children!

good luck!

Mom September 23rd
1965.10.4
Satoshi:
On September 29th, my eyes suddenly became blurry. The specialist doctor couldn't find out the reason, but said that my eyesight was too tired and I had to rest for a period of time to see again.In fact, I haven’t worked much recently, so I can’t say I’m using my eyes too much. In the past few days, I can’t even read a book.But I still wanted to write you a letter before you left England, so I reluctantly picked up the pen.

After reading "The Autobiography of Chaplin" two weeks ago, I have a preliminary understanding of the United States from [-] to [-].The influence of that kind of material civilization on people is indeed beyond our expectation.In terms of the extravagance and extravagance of ordinary millionaires, I really can't understand the joy.That kind of noisy and entertaining thing is like a kaleidoscope of all kinds and grotesques. It is already dizzy to read in books, let alone experience it in person.Like me, I can't stand it for a day; not only I hate it psychologically, but I also can't bear it physically and nervously.The temperament of the Orientals is very different from theirs.I heard that there has been a debate in British academic circles recently. Some people believe that a high degree of industrial development is necessary to eradicate poverty, while others say it is not the case.I remember that when I was in Paris in the [-]s, there were many articles discussing similar topics.It is not easy to improve one's life; it is even more difficult to have material enjoyment but not to be enslaved by material, to be involuntary, and to pursue endless luxury.Old oriental intellectuals who are accustomed to living indifferently can hardly imagine the appetite of Westerners for material requirements in the twentieth century.In fact, human beings are the animals that know how to live best, and they are also the animals that know how to live least; in my opinion, the key lies in self-restraint.In the past, I always wondered why marriage and divorce are so casual in the United States. When "Chaplin's Autobiography" mentioned his last (and still reconciled) wife Oona, there were two sentences: As I got to know Oona l was constantly surprised by her sense of humor and tolerance; she could always see the other person's point of view...[As I get to know Una better, I am always amazed by her sense of humor and her tolerance; she always understands others...] Thinking from the negative side, just Knowing the character of the average American woman can partly explain the reason why American married life is not stable.The general impression: the American nation is too young, and young people have both advantages and disadvantages; re-industry is highly developed, and individuals are driven by the crazy tempo [rhythm] of the entire social machine, becoming more and more blind, more and more involuntary, and more and more The more physically and mentally unbalanced.The spiritual adjustment required by this type of people can only be rough, violent, simple, and primitive entertainment; if things go on like this, it may not be possible to talk about real culture.

What happened to Chaplin in the United States before and after World War II, as well as the big trial, are beyond our imagination.In the past, I only heard about the rise of fascism in the United States, but only now have I seen specific examples.It can be seen that in that country, the so-called freedom of speech, judicial independence, and other good words are all deceitful.When you perform over there, you have to be careful in what you say, so as not to cause unnecessary trouble as a young artist.Every word and every action that does not help, but is harmful to oneself must be avoided.Of course you already know this, but you are still sometimes too naive and too gullible (even journalists or residents of small towns will not have spy[spy] to pay attention to you), so I can't stop reminding you!

have a safe journey!Feel free to write a few lines from Mira if possible!

Dad October [-], [-]
1965.11.22
Dear children:
Since the end of September, my eyesight has become dizzy and I have been unable to work or read. I have been sitting and wandering for almost two months now, feeling extremely depressed.The doctor couldn't find out the exact reason, but only said that his eyesight was overused and he had to rest for a long time, but the work was delayed indefinitely, and he was not like a university professor, and he was paid for sick leave. It was really worrying.

On the [-]th of this month, it was reported that there was a power outage in seven states in the eastern United States. I checked your schedule immediately, knowing that you would have gone to the west by then, so you would not be in trouble. I was relieved, but I don’t know if Mira is in Philadelphia [Philadelphia]. No involvement.Three days ago, it was reported that there was a heavy snowstorm in London, and there was a power outage, and Ling Xiao was quite anxious.The letter from your father-in-law at the end of October did not mention where the child is (in Switzerland or London), and your letter of November [-] (received yesterday) also did not say where Ling Xiao is.

In the letter dated November [-], I fully understand the feeling of traveling in the United States. If it were me, I would probably be more unbearable than you.The contrast between the highly materialistic life of the twentieth century and the extremely poor spiritual life is indeed a great tragedy.It's ridiculous at the same time.I know you don't want to go to a place like that if you don't do it for a living.

You have been away from home for nearly two months, Ling Xiao must have grown a lot and learned a lot, and it will be good to receive new photos at the end of the year and the beginning of the year.This is our only consolation and hope—besides your letters.

STUDIO99 [99 Studio] did not fully answer my question twice (I must ask clearly in advance, because the old machine is matched with the new turntable and the new Pick-up [pickup], and it is necessary to prevent the parts from breaking down in the future. cannot be added).I recently sent a letter to the company that distributes Beogram in London, asking for technical details, and finally got an answer. Beogram's turntable—Pick-up is recommended by STUDIO99, and it will cost about 40 pounds, including packaging and postage.After a few days, I will discuss it with a friend who knows this way before making a decision, so I will write to STUDIO99.At that time they will bill you.Asking you to spend money again and again, I am very contradictory. I don’t want to buy a new turntable. It’s okay, but your record will break as soon as you sing it. The record is gone.

After your performance in Italy from December 21th to [-]st, do you want to leave England for a New Year holiday somewhere?Hope to tell us!Thousands of thousands!Our greatest concern is not knowing where you are.If there is news about the program going to France in April next year, let me know immediately!
At the moment, I am taking traditional Chinese medicine to adjust the health of my whole body. Because there is no cure for my eyesight (both Chinese and Western medicine), I can only nourish it from the whole body, but the effect is very slow, so I can only wait patiently.

Is there a new nanny in the family?Can the old Swiss mother succeed the former Eloise [Heloise]?Otherwise Mira is too busy, what should I do?Letter when available.Take care of everything and say hello to Mira!

Dad November 22, [-]

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