How much love has become a cloud of smoke

Chapter 39
Vol.1
From Gao Tianming, I know what happened during the seven days I was away.

Maybe it was the night I left, whether the medicine was counterfeit or my score was not enough, that is to say, Chen Jiayan should have woken up an hour after I left.I don't know if he noticed the note I left, I think he saw it, and then he went crazy looking for me.

Regarding those notes, I can only say that my Chinese teacher didn't teach me well, so although I wanted to write a letter and run away from home, I wrote a lot and couldn't finish it.In the end, I just left a note paper with three words "I'm leaving" scribbled on it, and took away other messy paper balls on purpose.

One hundred secrets and one sparse, it seems that some clues are always left behind.Of course, Chen Jiayan went to my father first. With my father's violent temper, when he saw Chen Jiayan coming to find his daughter, the first thing he did was not to ask what happened, but to tell Chen Jiayan what happened with his fists.But it was still dark at that time, and I should be on the taxi bound for Weicun, but Chen Jiayan was at his father's residence, and his father told him that he had found the wrong place with extreme irrationality.

Then, my father probably mobilized the hundreds of people under him to start a city-wide search for me.

I knew he would do it.But he would never have thought that I was in Wai Village, this place was not within the sphere of influence of any of them, it was a blind spot, how safe and difficult it was for me to be found, even a father would never have imagined it.

It's just that Chen Jiayan doesn't give up, so I know he won't give up. Sometimes I don't wish that I wouldn't be so smart, and Chen Jiayan shouldn't be so persistent.

"He's not good." On the minibus back, Gao Tianming answered my question straightforwardly. "When he came to me, his face was as white as paper, and his left hand was as useless as he could not move it. He would tremble with pain when I touched him. But even so, he refused to go to the hospital, and he was still looking for me. you."

I turned my face to look at the scenery outside the window, what's so good about these scenery, I just don't want Gao Tianming to see that my eyes are red.

Sure enough, Chen Jiayan searched every place I could think of, including Ai Ai's home, the orphanage, even Huo Jiajia and Zou Kainan.He tried every connection on me he could think of, but he still couldn't find me.How desperate he was at that time, I dare not even think about it.

I wanted him to give up, but in the end I almost killed everyone else.While I was drinking chicken soup, fish soup, and pork bone soup at Mrs. Gui's house, Chen Jiayan was looking for me day and night.Of course he also knew that he couldn't find me like this, but he refused to give up.Sometimes people have a kind of obsession, because they believe, so they keep working hard.

When you give up, it is not because you are tired, but because your heart is dead.I wonder if I should just tell him we broke up?Maybe he knows that I don't love him anymore, so he will let go?This is really a bad script for an idol drama, and it is very insulting to Chen Jiayan's IQ.After all, I am not an Oscar queen, not to mention my poor acting skills, and I can't even write the script myself, so he will definitely see through it at a glance.

But other than that, how can I make him give up on me? "If it wasn't for the high fever and coma, I guess he is still looking for you." Gao Tianming turned my shoulder so that I looked at him, and continued, "Qiqi, although I don't like him, he is my brother after all. This time you went too far and almost killed him."

I wiped the corners of my eyes and said, "I killed him, will you hate me?" Gao Tianming turned his face away and didn't answer me.I know that I really did a little too much, I should have done a little more, let him give up his heart, it doesn't matter if he hates me, I just hope he lives better. "How did you find this place?" I looked up at Gao Tianming. "I didn't find it." He took a notebook out of his pocket and handed it to me.I opened it and saw that the handwriting was messy and full of people's names, addresses and phone numbers.Some have been crossed out, some have not, and some of the corners of the page have been pasted away by themselves, blurred by blood.

I shook my fingers slightly, and water dripped down to soak up the ink stains. "If he didn't have a sudden fever, it would be him who came here at this time, not me." I tried not to speak, but my heart was sore and painful as if someone had squeezed me hard.I know I'm wrong, I'm really wrong.I really hope that the car will drive faster and faster, it is best to put on wings and fly to Chen Jiayan's side immediately, let me see if he is okay.But the car is a car after all, not a Transformer, and it didn't fly if I wanted it to fly. It slowly crossed the Tsing Ma Bridge like a master, and finally arrived in the urban area.

It was already afternoon when we arrived at the hospital.Gao Tianming took me to the door of the ward, but I stopped suddenly.He looked back at me and said, "What's the matter?" I shook my head and was about to turn around when he grabbed me, "It's all here, why don't you go in, didn't you say that you miss him very much? Are you worried about him? "

"Don't force me." I tried to push Gao Tianming's hand.Although it was shameful to run away at a critical moment, I was suddenly very scared. I was afraid that I would never have the courage to leave him when I saw Chen Jiayan.And my staying may make him feel better for a while, but it also makes him sad for the rest of his life.

Can I be so selfish?But at this time, someone called me from behind: "Miss Meng?" I saw Feng Yanyan walking over, still pure and innocent, wearing a white sweater with her ponytail, and holding a soup can in her hand.When she saw me, she was surprised at first, then smiled gratifiedly and said, "You are finally here, why don't you go in?"

I took advantage of that moment to break free from Gao Tianming: "I'm leaving."

"Go and try." Gao Tianming yelled this behind my back, which caused my unsteady heart to shake violently, and my steps stopped there.He said behind my back: "You just asked me if I would hate you if you killed him? I tell you now, I will never forgive you for the rest of my life. I will not tell you when he is dead, and I will not tell you the last time." I won't let you see him. He's my brother, and I can't tolerate people doing such cruel things to him, especially you."

This is obviously threatening me, and the tone is very similar to Chen Jiayan.I turned around slowly, the anger on Gao Tianming's face hadn't dissipated yet, but Feng Yanyan pulled him and said, "Don't do that, she's already here." I knew it was my fault, I was useless, but I I really don't know what to do right.

I hurt Chen Jiayan, and I didn't do anything other than make his life worse day by day.I was not a person who was good at making decisions, and I decided to follow my father once in a while, and ended up where I am today.

Gao Tianming breathed a sigh of relief, and said, "Since we're here, I'd better go and see him."

"Then I'll take a look at him," I said with my head down, "just take a look, and I'll leave." This is a compromise to Gao Tianming, and a compromise to myself.But things are not always as simple as I expected, or Chen Jiayan is resistant to anesthesia, he seemed to be in a deep sleep when I entered the ward.But I still walked over very carefully, for fear of waking him up, the bottle was quietly beside him bit by bit.

When I got closer, I realized why Gao Tianming threatened me like that.In just seven days, he lost weight surprisingly, his face was so pale that there was no blood.I looked at the increasingly deep eyebrows, and stroked the creases between his brows with my fingers.He suddenly raised his eyebrows, and I immediately retracted my fingers in fright, and took two steps back.

The next second, he opened his eyes and looked at me in surprise.The air in the ward seemed to freeze suddenly, and we were in a stalemate. It took him a while to call out my name cautiously: "Qiqi?"He rolled over and took my hand.

God, is this a patient?This is simply superhuman, so strong that I can't even shake it off.During the struggle, he grabbed the salt water bottle, and the bottle fell to the ground with a bang and shattered.

The people outside the door heard the movement, pushed the door in, and I took the opportunity to shake my hands and run out of the door quickly.

Unexpectedly, Chen Jiayan had already pulled out the drip tube on the back of his hand, and then chased him out.Because I couldn't find the direction, I paused for a while when I went out, but at this moment, I was grabbed by him, and I suddenly turned around to face him.

In a hurry, the brain usually has no effect. When I faced Chen Jiayan, I didn't know how to react. The first thing I said was: "I, I, I'm here to break up with you."

As if he had been punched in the face, the expression on his face froze.I probably didn't expect that I would say such a thing, and I actually didn't think why I would say such a thing. I really wanted to slap myself in the face.What a jerk line.

He glanced at me with a dull expression, and asked me back with pain in his eyes: "What did you say?" Feng Yanyan and Gao Tianming, who had been standing aside, were also shocked by my words. Gao Tianming wanted to come up to stop me, but Feng Yanyan Pulled.Chen Jiayan was holding me with two hands, but I threw one away and still held me with one hand.And the hand that I threw away was the bandaged left hand.

I looked at his trembling hands and bit my lips: Will I hurt him with such force?He frowned at me, looked at me in disbelief and said, "You want to break up with me? You came to see me to tell me this?" I think, that's probably all.Old people often say that short-term pain is worse than long-term pain. I have brought him too long pain, which seems to have become his burden, so it is better to just break it off.I'm gone, maybe he will live better, at least no one will be as stupid as me to stab the person he likes.

Make up your mind, I am more determined.I took out the little notebook Gao Tianming gave me just now from my pocket and threw it to him, saying, "You've been looking for me everywhere, and you've even disturbed my friend's life, I just came to tell you, don't look for me anymore, Stop harassing my friends. Let's break up."

I felt that I had finished talking, and I really couldn't continue. When I was about to leave, he stubbornly pulled me and said, "What's the reason?"

"what?"

"As for the reason for breaking up, you have to give me a reason." He insisted on pestering me so stubbornly that my IQ of a third-class student couldn't compete with him.

I was in a hurry to go to the doctor, so I could only say sullenly: "I don't love you anymore, can't I?"

"No." He actually blocked me like this.Nurses passing by in the corridor all looked at us strangely. He held me stubbornly, and the back of his hand was bleeding from the place where the dropper was torn off.I said, "Chen Jiayan, you are bleeding."

"You don't have to worry about it." He pulled me and said, "In short, you said to break up, but I disagree. If you don't love me, I say no."

Where in the world are there such unreasonable people.I stared at him, and he stared at me. When the two sides were at a stalemate, a voice suddenly broke into the imminent situation.And this person was not welcome at all.I just didn't expect that he would still have the face to come here and talk to me.

Long Jinyan was standing ten steps away from me, walking over step by step.At that moment, my palm felt cold. I wonder if Chen Jiayan felt it, and he squeezed my hand tightly.I raised my eyelashes to look at him, he was looking at Long Jinyan who was walking in front of him. "Long time no see, Miss Meng. I heard that the third master is looking for you all over the world. I didn't expect you to be here."

He glanced at Chen Jiayan, and still said to me, "Actually, I was looking for you too, what happened last time..." I raised my hand to slap him, but unexpectedly, he stopped me in mid-air, and he grabbed my wrist , There is no posture of pity for fragrance and jade.

"I'm different from my younger brother. I don't know how to be sympathetic to others." He suddenly lowered his voice and whispered into my ear, "If I can't get something, I usually destroy it. I also suggested that he do the same, but unfortunately he Can't learn."

I tugged hard and broke free from his grasp.But in fact, I didn't break free by myself, it was Chen Jiayan who pulled me from behind. Long Jinyan probably didn't expect Chen Jiayan to be so strong, so his hands were still holding me in mid-air.Chen Jiayan stepped forward, and said coldly to Long Jin: "You dare to touch her again and try again." The tone was completely threatening.The two of them were evenly matched in height, standing face to face like this, no one would lose in momentum.If Chen Jiayan hadn't been ill, he might have surpassed Long Jinyan in terms of momentum.But now it is obvious that he is holding on, and Long Jinyan is not a fool, of course he can tell.

He raised his hand and patted Chen Jiayan's left shoulder and said, "Lawyer Chen, you are a smart person, don't do stupid things."

He did it on purpose.Give me a scalpel and I can stab him right now.He clearly saw that Chen Jiayan's hands were bandaged, but he still patted him on the shoulder so hard.If it was an ordinary person, he would have been shot down long ago.But that was Chen Jiayan, and he endured it without moving.

"Long, you are not welcome here." Gao Tianming stepped forward and almost made a move, but it was Chen Jiayan who stopped him.

Long Jinyan looked at me and said, "Since Ms. Meng has come back, how about I arrange someone to propose to the third master tomorrow?"

When I heard this word, my head buzzed, and I didn't realize what to say next for a long time.

It turns out that this matter is not over yet, and I really didn't hide thoroughly enough.Unexpectedly, at this time, Chen Jiayan raised his hand and grabbed Long Jinyan's collar and said, "If your brother dares to marry her, I will make her a widow immediately." I knew Chen Jiayan was not joking.

"Then try it." Long Jinyan pushed Chen Jiayan's hand away nonchalantly. After all, it was the injured person, and he pushed it away with a little force.

Long Jinyan straightened his collar and said, "Miss Meng, goodbye." After speaking, he turned around and strode across the corridor, disappearing around the corner.

I was still there in a daze, and suddenly I heard Feng Yanyan behind me timidly asking: "Who is that person? It's so scary." I suddenly came back to my senses, and saw Chen Jiayan leaning on the armrest beside him, busy When I tried to reach out to help, my hand stopped there.You see, I just made things worse for him by coming back.Sure enough, I did another stupid thing.I don't know how Long Jinyan knew I was coming back, but he certainly didn't appear here by chance.

This matter is not over yet, maybe something more terrible will happen next, I really can't imagine what Chen Jiayan will do for me.My existence has been a complete one, and going away and then coming back is compounding the faults.

I wanted to leave again, but even Gao Tianming held me back and said, "You still have the heart to leave with him like this?" I couldn't bear it, but I couldn't help it.Just when I thought how difficult these two brothers were, the second most difficult person in the world appeared.Just as Gao Tianming held me back, Jiamin appeared.I don't know if she is conscious or unconscious in this state, but judging from the state that she looked at me and didn't pounce on me to eat me, she should be conscious.

And I took advantage of the moment when everyone was surprised by his appearance, I shook off Gao Tianming's hand and ran downstairs quickly.

I knew that Chen Jiayan would catch up. With such a short straight-line distance, I couldn't escape far and had to adopt evasive tactics.So instead of running straight ahead after I ran out of the hospital, I hid behind a pile of magazines at a newsstand around the corner.

As expected, Chen Jiayan chased him out, and inevitably Gao Tianming, Feng Yanyan and Jia Min followed behind him.

It must be that Jiamin came to stop Chen Jiayan first, I could hear them talking, but it was actually a quarrel, and the center of this quarrel must still be me.

"Why do you still not give up on her until now? She doesn't care about you at all. You are so sick that she ran away without looking back. She doesn't have you in her heart at all. I said a long time ago that you are like her today Damn it, you're still thinking about what she's doing." I heard these bad words clearly, and I really wanted to throw a magazine at that Jiamin's head.

But what she said was right, I was the one who harmed the Chen family like this, and I stabbed him with the knife on his shoulder.But it's not that I don't care about him, it's not that I don't have him in my heart, I just don't know how to care about him, how to put him in my heart.

"Jia Min, as I said, you don't need to worry about this matter." Chen Jiayan supported the railing on the side of the road, he could see that he was extremely weak, and he was a little short of breath when speaking.

(End of this chapter)