How much love has become a cloud of smoke

Chapter 40
"Why don't I care, I'm your sister."

"Just because you are my sister, I don't want to hurt you." He turned around, looked at Jiamin and said, "But, I can't give you what you want. You don't know anything about me and Qiqi Understand, she may not be smart enough or good enough, but I love her. There is no choice in this kind of thing, but I will not regret it. But as long as there is even the slightest possibility to catch her, I will not let go."

I shook my hand as I flipped through the magazine, and accidentally tore it to pieces. The aunt at the newsstand immediately asked me, "Miss, do you want this magazine?"

I reacted immediately and said: "Yes, yes." The aunt stared further at the purse on my body, and I had to find out 20 yuan to give her. "Sometimes I wish I could be like you, choosing only what I want to believe and forgetting what I don't want to believe. But facts are facts. I love Kiki, even if I tell myself I don't love her, that's a lie Human. Only I know how I feel for her, maybe she doesn't know either, but as long as I know it, that's fine."

"You're lying." Even on the street, Jia Min shouted, "You're obviously lying."

"She's not here, why would I tell such a lie." Chen Jiayan took a slow breath, seemingly unable to continue speaking.I saw this scene through a gap in the newspaper, and my heart felt sour.His heart for me has always been true, truer than real gold, and I have ever doubted and hurt me so much.

The aunt suddenly handed over a pack of tissues and said, "Miss, one piece, do you want it?" I said, this aunt, you really know how to do business, and I wondered if it would suddenly rain, would she suddenly take out an umbrella and ask Do I want it or not.

I took out a dollar and gave it to her. The aunt probably saw that I had done two deals with her within a few minutes, so she specially added a sentence to me: "It's very common for young couples to quarrel. You see, your husband is so sick that you come here." Chasing you, don't make trouble with him anymore, go back early."

At this time, Jia Min suddenly grabbed Chen Jiayan and said, "Why do you say that, you know that I only have you in my heart."

"You're enough." Gao Tianming couldn't stand it any longer. He stepped up and pushed Jia Min away and said, "You are a girl, what do you look like making a scene in the street? If it wasn't for your illness, I would I've been rude to you a long time ago. You said Qiqi didn't care about him, what about you? You know he's a patient, but you still pester him like this, can't you see that he's already accommodating you. "

This is so beautifully said, I can't believe that Gao Tianming said it. "Chen Jiayan, you will regret it if you treat me like this." After she said this, she turned around and left.I think now that girls watch too many TV dramas, they will definitely know that they must leave harsh words when they break up. This sentence can be regarded as the golden sentence in the harsh words of breaking up. Anyway, he left.

Gao Tianming said to Chen Jiayan: "You go in first, I will find her for you." He raised his hand and shook his head, then said: "I'm fine, I'll go find her myself." Feng Yanyan also stopped him and said: "You still You have a fever. The doctor said you can’t move around anymore, it’s not right for you to run out like this, and you still have to go all over the street to find someone, isn’t that..." You are looking for death.I think these three words can most accurately express Chen Jiayan's approach.

Of course, Feng Yanyan, a dignified college student, would definitely not say such vulgar words, so she cut out the last three words and gave Gao Tianming a look instead.

But Gao Tianming glanced at me.I've come out from behind the newsstand, fully exposed to the street, so he can see me just by looking up.Gao Tianming is right, I can't let him die just to make him give up.Chen Jiayan is the kind of person who would rush out desperately to stop my car, the kind of person who would make me a widow if Long Jintang dared to marry me.He can do anything, this is Chen Jiayan.

Since Gao Tianming saw me, Chen Jiayan naturally also saw me, and everyone on the street also saw me.He suddenly let go of his hand holding the railing and was about to walk towards me. I rushed forward with a few steps, regardless of my posture and demeanor.I thought he would be better off if I left him, but now, even if I go to Mars, Chen Jiayan will not give up buying rockets and come to me.

So I'm not going anywhere.He held me firmly and said, "Are you going to run away again? If you run away, I will find you, as long as I can move."

"I'm not leaving." I raised my arms and hugged him and said, "Chen Jiayan, I'm never leaving again." After you said such things and made such determinations, how could I still be able to leave.My heart is not hard enough, and I am not smart enough. I am not living well without you.And if I leave you like this, it doesn't seem to make your life better, maybe it's just worse. I'm really not a person who is suitable for making decisions.

It was only when I hugged him that I realized how thin he was, and my broad shoulders hurt me a lot.I was reluctant to let go, I just wanted to hold him tighter, for fear that he would fall down if I let go.At this time, the lady at the newsstand stood up in time and said to me, "Oh, girl, do you still want this magazine?"

"Yes." I turned my head in time, and Gao Tianming looked at me strangely. "I paid for it," I told him.

Vol.2
The most difficult thing to build in this world is trust.

Although I only disappeared for a few days, my credibility has been discredited in Chen Jiayan's heart.No matter how much I promise, he can't believe that I won't run away again.When changing the gauze with the left hand, he grabbed me with the right hand, and when the right hand drank the salt water, he used the left hand to hold me. If there were handcuffs, he would have handcuffed me to him.

In fact, if I want to escape, there are many opportunities in front of me, but I won't.I was afraid of hurting him, and I was afraid that he would continue to hurt himself.He knew this, but he still grabbed me with his injured hand. The two brothers were as threatening as they were.

He even stayed awake to monitor me.In fact, I have already figured it out. Since running away cannot solve the problem, I think I should talk to him calmly.Don't they all say that communication is the best bridge?But that still needs to wait for him to get better.

I said, "Chen Jiayan, you don't trust people so much. There is really a problem with your worldview." Chen Jiayan, who was reading a book, raised his eyelashes and looked at me lazily, and said, "Who is to blame for this?" One page of the book also said: "We will always be deceived and hurt in our lives, but we should not be completely pessimistic like this. People must be strong and optimistic when they live. You should continue to trust others, but you need to be more careful."

He said calmly: "Yes, I should be more careful." I silently turned over another page of the book for him, and he paused and said, "I haven't finished reading it yet, so turn it back." Chen Jiayan, in fact, I have How much I want to be with you, you will never know.But now I can no longer be with you. Everything I wanted to give you is broken.You want me to get better so much, you care for me and love me like this, but I can't get better anymore.

Seeing me in a daze, he tugged at my hand and said, "What are you thinking about?" I panicked and said, "No." After thinking about it, I found an excuse to evade it, and quickly said, "I was thinking about Ah Huang. .You have been hospitalized, so what about Ah Huang?"

"At my adoptive father's house." He looked away from the book, looked at me and said, "You miss Ah Huang more than I do."

I hesitated, looked up at him and said, "Are you jealous?" He snorted and said nothing, and I smiled, "How can anyone be jealous with a dog."

"I like it, I want you to take care of it." After he finished speaking, he still lowered his head to read the book.I stared blankly at him, when did Chen Jiayan become like me... a rascal.There is a saying that don't talk about people during the day and don't talk about ghosts at night.Because it arrives as soon as it is said, whether it is a human or a ghost, it is quite fast.So when we were talking about Ah Huang, Ah Huang also appeared.Of course it can't come into the hospital, it's just news of it.At that time, Chen Jiayan and I were flipping through books and reading at the same time, when we suddenly heard that Ah Huang had disappeared.

My hand shaking the book slightly, but luckily I didn't tear off that page.Of course, I still remember the cruel words that Jia Min left this afternoon when he left without saying anything, but I didn't expect Ah Huang to be the implementer of these cruel words unfortunately.I have to be grateful that she didn't kill Ah Huang to drink the soup, but just drove him out of the house.As a dog, although it is difficult to live independently in the city, it is better than being slaughtered and burned in hot pot immediately.

At least we have hope of finding it.Unexpectedly, the literary and artistic young woman lost a dog so artistically. Jia Min took Ah Huang to a small island not far from the city by boat, and then left him there and came back alone.As expected, she was very thoughtful, because Ah Huang is a dog, no matter how smart he is, he can't buy a boat ticket to come back by himself.

I thought of Ah Huang's dog alone looking at the distant ship in the cold wind. The bleak shadow of the dog really made people feel distressed.

Chen Jiayan and I immediately bought a boat ticket and rushed over.In fact, I have already told Chen Jiayan that he doesn't have to go, but I don't know if he is looking for Ah Huang or watching me. In short, he insists on going, so under the strong opposition of the doctor and Gao Tianming's strong stop, Chen Jiayan still resolutely Resolutely changed clothes and went out with me to find Ah Huang.

It is a pity that, as a purebred golden retriever, Ah Huang does not have obvious physical characteristics.Although we took Ah Huang's photo and asked many people, we still didn't have the slightest clue.Finally, I finally met a golden dog on the island, and it was not Ah Huang.By this time, it was already dark.

We didn't expect that this small island would take so long to find a dog, so we didn't book a room at all. When we thought about going back, we missed the last boat because of the dramatic typhoon warning. the last boat.Chen Jiayan made a wise decision to spend the night by the fire on the beach.

A long time ago, I thought that if I camped by the sea with Chen Jiayan, it would be a very romantic thing.But now that this happened on such a beach full of rubbish, it is not romantic at all.It's just that Chen Jiayan's ability to survive in the wild really made me dumbfounded for a while. I think that even if time goes back 5000 years, Chen Jiayan will still be a wonderful flower of the Stone Age.

We rented two blankets from the nearest small store, found a charcoal basin in the barbecue area, picked up or broke some branches everywhere, and thus started the overnight operation of survival on a deserted island.

(End of this chapter)