deep in time

Chapter 27 (1)
[one]
New schoolbag, new clothes, new classmates, new room, new identity, new name—Liu Yujing.

The definition of "Yu" in the dictionary is "beautiful jade".

The definition of "Jing" in the dictionary is "beautiful".

At first, I couldn’t sleep well at night, and Tianming always dared not open his eyes, fearing that the comfortable and soft camel hair quilt on his body would feel like an illusion, and fearing that the gentle female voice outside the door was calling, “Yu Jing got up and started learning.” "It's an auditory hallucination, afraid of a room decorated like a pink dream, a spiral staircase from the second floor to the first floor, a 220-piece revolving crystal lamp that reflects beautiful light even in the daytime, a large wardrobe full of spring, summer, autumn and winter Her skirt, the pink laptop on the desk are all illusions.

It was such happiness, so happy that I forgot who I was.

A loving, honest dad who runs a supermarket chain.

Elegant, beautiful designer mom.

Cute and well-behaved self.

Such a family was created by the hand of God.

Very satisfied.

Where are the biological parents?
——No, it's not important anymore.I wouldn't be so stupid as to think about the person who abandoned me all the time like the one on TV.

No matter what, I will never forgive someone who has abandoned herself so cruelly.

It's just that we always naively think that changing to a new environment is a new beginning.

"This is the lace dress my mother bought for me in Japan, isn't it beautiful?" Proudly raising her head at a 45-degree angle.

"The one advertised on TV is my supermarket! It was founded by my dad!" In addition to being full of glory, there is also a lot of showing off.

"Don't touch my water glass! It's very expensive, you know, you won't be able to afford it if you break it." Unknowingly, she became proud.

"This watch of mine is genuine. You bought it at the night market." He said this intentionally in a beating tone.

I don't know when I became like this.

It seems that only showing off can fill one's guilty conscience, or the repressed inferiority complex exploded into conceit.

In short, it was wrong from the beginning. It is normal for such a vain and selfish Liu Yujing to be hated.

Rumors spread quietly on campus.

--Pooh!And "my father and my mother" is still on the lips, and it's not her real parents!
——A bastard that has no parents, but I have the nerve to show it off!

——I was adopted. I heard that I grew up in a certain orphanage, and I had to keep wearing my underwear even if it was torn!
——Just like her, she still pretends to be a young lady, and the mole under her eye is like a fly!Teeth are yellow and black!Pie face!When not smiling, the corners of the mouth are drooping!The eyes are big and big, but they look like wooden dolls!Have you ever heard of her singing in music class, her tone-deaf voice is loud and her accent is scary!A country bumpkin with a white skirt and a black T-shirt, she thought she was a maid!
We are not carriers that live independently in this world. We have to face all the eyes of this world. In addition to praise, appreciation, love, and indifference, there are also contempt, contempt, disgust, provocation, and ulterior motives...

Like all wounded animals, she bared her teeth, and she did not hesitate to fight back in the most vicious language she knew.In the teacher's office, with a ferocious face, she screamed at the two girls who spoke ill of her behind her back: "You bunch of fucking bitches, your whole family is fucking bitches."

Even the teacher who came up to persuade the fight was splashed with saliva.

Until, triumphantly, she withdrew her fangs and found her adoptive mother standing at the door.At that moment, the adoptive mother stood against the light on the narrow threshold of the office, wearing a long white dress, looking at her like a goddess' adoptive mother, with no warmth in her eyes.

She seemed to see the disappointment and deep boredom hidden in her adoptive mother's eyes.

The whole world can scold her, but she must not annoy her adoptive parents. This is the foundation of her existence.

At this moment, she seemed to have fallen into an ice cellar, and her whole body was cold.

[two]
Crying until it was as uncomfortable as if she was dying, she clung to her adoptive mother tightly and begged heartbreakingly: "Mom, please forgive me, Mom, please give me a chance."

"You can't be a shrew." The adoptive mother's face was calm.

"Yes, yes, I want to follow my mother as an example, and I want to be a deep lady like my mother."

Changed school and changed myself from then on.

—The mole under the eye looks like a fly.

I was taken to the beauty salon by my adoptive mother to have it removed. When the frighteningly hot mole stick was burned on my face, I trembled because of the thought of "whether I will burn a hole", but bit my lip and quietly Sitting, he smiled sweetly when he was praised as "good boy": "Thank you, auntie, for the compliment."

Mingming was so painful that he wanted to cry, but he still kept a proper smile.

Since then, I have been training myself-putting on masks one by one.A mask of tranquility, a mask of purity, a mask of kindness, a mask of beauty, a mask of when to do something, a mask of following the trend...

The scars under the corners of the eyes faded day by day, and finally became smooth and flawless, as if there had never been anything there.

—the teeth are yellow and black!
We are all familiar with and acquiesce to the exaggerated ingredients in toothpaste advertisements, how brushing our teeth can solve the problem, saved money, and went to a beauty salon for the first time to whiten our teeth.The corrosive liquid was sprayed on the teeth, and it seemed that the gums were trembling in pain.In order to be more beautiful, this little pain is nothing.Even when I came home at night, facing my adoptive mother who asked with concern, "Is the food not to your liking?", I could still smile and eat the sweet and sour fish that my adoptive mother brought me, as if I forgot the beautician's advice of "don't eat for a while." It can be dipped in sour, spicy and salty to rest your teeth for a while.”

——Speaking in a rude, loud and accented voice, it's scary.

In the room, I imitated a certain female star who is so "bad" that makes all the boys' hearts flutter, adjusted the expression of speaking, and even repeated the tone, volume, and movements of the modal particles such as "啦" and "ah" over and over again practise.When you say "Hey", you have to tilt your head at 45 degrees, cross your hands behind your back, and your tone of voice should be as sweet as honey, and the volume should be lower, so that you will look cute and charming.When saying "ah", the mouth should be opened into a circular "O", and the eyes should be wide open. Don't make an expression of surprise, but maintain a "perfect" smile at all times.

Gently, even a sigh is very charming.

Soft, making people feel comfortable irresistibly.

——The mouth is a bit big, and the face is big.The ears are not well shaped.

It doesn't matter, there is always a way.

At the age of 13, the first gift she gave herself was to make a deep dimple on the right cheek, so that everyone would be attracted by the sweet dimple at first sight and would not pay much attention to the shape of the mouth.

Has anyone noticed these insignificant changes, if noticed, put on a dazed look, stroked the dimple on the right cheek cutely, and said something like "Probably because I laughed a lot, so the dimple grew unconsciously Let’s go” to explain it with a quip like this.

You can use the "Eighteen Changes of Women's University" to explain yourself who is gradually becoming more beautiful.

Who would have believed that a 13-year-old girl could lie so freely?

Later, in fact, even I believed that the lie about becoming beautiful was true.

——My teeth have always been so white!My chin has always been pointed!The dimples have been there since I was a child, but they become more obvious when I grow up!It's not intentional, my voice is always soft and light like this!
When others were playing games, surfing the Internet, watching TV, or shopping, I danced ballet until my big toenails fell off, and I hung my throat until I felt like dying. In order to distinguish the "n" from the "l", I pronounced it again and again with a stone in my mouth until my tongue bleeds.

I gave so much because I expected more "that much".

I must never be "abandoned" again.Never allow it, even if I give my all, self-esteem, kindness and beauty.

So, Yuanyuan, when you appeared in my world again, I was so at a loss!
The past with you, the bed sheets that can never be washed, the cheap plastic shoes, the ill-fitting clothes given by hypocrites, the pitiful eyes with mocking sympathy!I don't want to feel any more.I am a beautiful and kind princess in my new world, even though those masks make me so tired, even if I want to spit on that frog-faced boy when he is courting me, even if I see that one And the girl who borrowed MP3 from me again and again wanted to turn around and leave, but I have been working hard to endure it.I constructed a crystal world.I am no longer the poor Dang Guoguo in the past, no one can make all my efforts go to waste, no one can disturb my happiness!Not even a "possibility"!

That’s right, I threw the schoolbag hanging on the treetop from the third floor, I wrote lines of vicious curses in your homework book with my left hand, and I put the picture of you exceeding the limit in the toilet on the Internet… …

I just don't want to see you in X!

I just don't want to see you in my world!

[three]
get out of class is over.

Students wearing school uniforms pouring out from various classrooms gradually converged into a blue and white river on the main road out of the school.

The smell of being crowded with people is filled with the smell of cheap sweat.Liu Yujing was sitting behind a quiet bush, with her chin resting on her cheeks, her delicate facial features shone with white light under the transparent sunlight, even if she was alone, her face would never collapse, the corners of her lips were still upturned to a perfect 32 degrees.

"Can Baili find Cheng Lichen?" the girl muttered to herself, a thick ironic smile was fleeting, "The campus is so big, without a mobile phone, how can I find someone. Baili, it's useless until now You are really an anomaly for using a mobile phone."

The blue sky is far and high, like a piece of blue crystal.

The wind blows through the leaves, making a rustling sound.

The girl stretched gracefully, stood up, a round leaf spot landed on her right cheek, like a butterfly stopped there, she carefully patted the dust that might have been on the school uniform, and brushed it away. The bushes went out.

The grass where she sat sank into a shallow circle, and the broken grass along the arc of the circle showed that the girl had been sitting here for a long time.

When the agreed time comes, no matter whether you can find someone or not, you will wait in the teacher's office.

Liu Yujing slowly walked towards the quiet alley that was completely opposite to the noisy school avenue, turned right, brushed away the branches and leaves that blocked her eyes, and took a shortcut with her body bent.

Sure enough, there was no one in the teacher's office, and even the class teacher probably went to have lunch.

With an expected expression, the girl walked into the rest area and washed the glasses on the table with boiling water.When Baili came back disappointed, she must have been very moved to see warm boiled water waiting for her just right.

With a slight smile, the girl carefully cleaned the scale on the bottom of the glass.

At this moment the door was pushed open with a bang.

(End of this chapter)