deep in time

Chapter 28 (2)
"Baili..." The girl's voice stopped suddenly, but when she saw the person coming, her expression quickly changed from "friendly" to "respectful" when facing elders.

A well-maintained woman with gorgeous red phoenix eyes stood at the door.

"I'm Cheng Lichen's mother, is Teacher Lin there?" Song Lanlan, who didn't even eat lunch, rushed over after getting off the plane.

"Hello, Auntie," Liu Yujing smiled sweetly, "Mr. Lin should have gone to eat. Baili and I are looking for Cheng Lichen together, and we made an appointment to go back to the office if we can find it after school. Auntie, please sit down first. Baili should be back soon."

The heat slowly lingers over the glass before disappearing.

The south facing office has some fall coolness.

"Auntie, have a glass of water." After putting down the water glass, the girl clasped her hands in front of her chest and stood obediently aside.

This girl is so beautiful and well educated.Song Lanlan took the water glass, looked at the girl in front of her, feeling close to her.She politely said thank you, and then asked, "What's your name?"

"Liu Yujing. Auntie can call me Jingjing, that's what my mother calls me."

Song Lanlan put the water glass on the table in a daze, and carefully looked at the girl in front of her.

"Guoguo was adopted by a family surnamed Liu, and Yuanyuan was also adopted the next year. The two girls kissed like sisters in the orphanage. Later, Yuanyuan often went back to the orphanage, but Guoguo was in vain. It’s news. Also, very few adopted children are willing to return to the orphanage, and the memory here may be too cold for them.” ——That’s what the dean said at the time.

This girl's surname is "Liu". Now my daughter should also have this surname.

If he finds his daughter, how should he tell her about the heartless abandonment of her back then?

In fact, the matter is very simple, and it can be summed up in just one sentence - a 17-year-old girl, her parents are working outside the home, and there is only one old grandmother who is blind at home, she is too lonely to be with that boy, she is completely ignorant It wasn't until I was five months pregnant that I found out in a panic that it was summer vacation, and I kept pretending to be sick and didn't go to school after school started.It's not that I never thought about killing the child, but I didn't know whether to buy medicine or go to the hospital. I hesitated, and I was anxious with the feeling of wishing for time to come back, until I gave birth to the child in a small clinic.That day, she took the bus from the remote town to the neighboring city, and quietly put the child in front of the small fountain in the park.Nervously hiding behind the tree, his nails dug deeply into the palm of his hand, seeing that someone soon found his daughter, made a phone call, and the Civil Affairs Bureau sent someone to take her away.She was still uneasy, and stayed in a ten-person room for five yuan a night for four days. To the orphanage.

When I think of my newborn daughter with a wrinkled face and being handed over by unrelated people one after another without knowing anything, my heart will tighten tightly.On the way back in the car, I wished that the child had never been born. Later, when I was in poor health because the child had not been recuperated well, I also hated why I was so stupid when I was young.

I also comforted myself: I will forget those heart-piercing pains.

However, time took away the grief and the boy with the blurred face, but did not take away the memory of "abandoning his daughter".On the contrary, in the depths of consciousness, on that gloomy Sunday, the dilapidated bus that read "Infertility to XX Hospital" sarcastically, and even a colored brick in the pool in the park peeled off, such The details are clearly played scene by scene.

Those pains became more and more unbearable as time accumulated.

I often dream of a familiar old alleyway in my sleep. It was originally wide enough for two cars to pass side by side, but it became smaller and smaller when I was about to pass, and finally got stuck in the middle hopelessly. There was no one, and I desperately wanted to call for help, but I couldn't make any sound.The world was silent, and the feeling of fear after waking up from the dream could not subside for a long time.

The street that is getting smaller and smaller in the depths of time is actually the guilt that is getting bigger and bigger in my heart.

It took her six years to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau in her spare time, find out from the dusty files the orphanages that her daughter might have gone to in the area she belonged to, and list the 48 people who were registered in the files in October of that year. The baby girls confirmed one by one, like a large net with meshes as fine as gravel, sifting out the "impossible". Finally, she found the Sun Welfare Institute and found Guoguo who was adopted by the family surnamed Liu. The thread was interrupted by a new address.But Yuanyuan, that is, Baili, often goes back to the orphanage, so it is much easier to find.

Knowing that the surname "Liu" is my daughter's current surname, this word has become the deepest scar in my heart.

Song Lanlan looked at the clean and beautiful girl in front of her, and a thought suddenly popped up in her heart, and this thought quickly made her heart sink into a soft spot, and her voice couldn't help but become softer: "Jingjing, where do you live? brothers and sisters?"

"Ah." The girl uttered a vague syllable, perhaps because she didn't understand why the topic changed from the routine questioning of the elders to the topic of probing people's privacy.Checking the household registration—the girl curled her lips in disdain, but the smile on her face never faded, she just looked at her watch without a trace, and changed the subject obediently: "It's already ten past twelve, Can Baili find Cheng Lichen?"

Song Lanlan was a little melancholy, and she also looked out the window: "Let's look for it again."

[Four]
The autumn wind carries a hint of coolness.

A few leaves fell scatteredly on the school road, and boys and girls holding food boxes sat in the shade of trees, beside flower beds, and on the grass.The wanton and beautiful youth is always hidden in our hearts like the warm autumn sun.

People everywhere greeted Liu Yujing.The popularity is so good that it can be described as "explosive".

Always with a smile.It can be seen that the family background is very good but never shows off.very beautiful.very kind.No matter which one of these items you have, it is enough to be welcomed by everyone.

"Yu Jing, I've made a meal for you." A girl with a round face, small eyes, and a bit of baby fat came out from the side of the school road.

"Thank you, Yingzi. You are really kind." She expressed surprise with a little exaggeration and was considerate.

"Have you found Cheng Lichen yet?"

"Yes." Liu Yujing shook her head, "I'm planning to walk around again to see if I can meet him."

Yingzi sighed, and the carefree girl found Song Lanlan and said quickly, "Hello, Auntie."

"It's Cheng Lichen's mother, Aunt Song." Liu Yujing introduced, then turned her head and said, "Yingzi, why don't you help find a few classmates who have eaten and walk around the campus."

"Yeah." Yingzi nodded emphatically, and soon attracted more than a dozen boys and girls.

"Let's contact by mobile phone." Liu Yujing smiled and said to everyone, but turned to Song Lanlan inadvertently, "Aunt Song, don't you have a mobile phone in Baili?"

"No?" The uncertain tone turned into affirmation in a second, "No."

"Is Baili Cheng Lichen's younger sister?"

Song Lanlan replied almost subconsciously: "No, Baili is a child sponsored by Ah Chen's father."

The boys and girls who had gathered around originally scattered to the four sides of the campus in groups of twos and threes.

"What is sponsorship?" asked a doubtful voice.

"It seems to be a kind of charity... Maybe it's a kind of help for children from extremely poor families... I didn't expect that there are such people around us. Baili seems to be from an unknown small island..." Voice It has become faint.

Song Lanlan's fingers were twisted together, she took a deep breath, glanced at Liu Yujing, the annoyance of "saying the wrong thing" boiling in her heart was like a balloon being punctured, and disappeared with a "bang" in the air.

[Fives]
On both sides of the school road are tall plane trees and some other shrubs, some with small white flowers, and some with clusters of red berries.

The weather was as gloomy as a thick curtain, and two girls stood at the intersection of the school road leading to Lover's Forest.

"The grove looks...really beautiful." Girl A sighed.

"Bah! You're actually thinking from the bottom of your heart—lover Lin is worthy of being the most romantic and romantic place in the school." Girl B smiled and interpreted the "deep meaning" under the words.

"Do you think you have learned to read minds? Damn girl!"

The two girls giggled and approached the grove one after the other.

"For a while now, the bald director of politics and education is focusing on his lover Lin Ai. So the grove that was so lively before is now deserted. After all, no one wants to be caught."

The fallen leaves are piled up layer by layer, and when you step on it, you can hear a series of "click, click, click" sounds.

"Hey, do you think there are centipedes, earthworms, caterpillars and so on under the leaves?" Girl A trembled slightly.

The grove was so empty that the sound of falling needles could be heard.

Girl B suddenly said something without beginning or end: "It's so pitiful."

Girl A who was staring intently at the ground was startled for a moment, but she immediately understood that even though her voice was low, it still seemed particularly abrupt in the quiet woods: "Yes, so Baili is on the ground. I grew up in an orphanage without a father or a mother."

"Usually, I don't notice her at all. She conceals it very well, but..."

"It's still very poor." The two girls who said this sentence almost in unison smiled at each other for the noble sympathy in their hearts and the tacit understanding of their friends, and they continued to move forward.

After a while, the words floating in the wind became——

"Cheng Lichen should not be at school."

"By the way, he was so ruthless that he beat Ji Nan until his teeth fell out?"

"Isn't it best friends?"

"..."

"Squeak, creak" - the sound of shoes stepping on fallen leaves gradually faded away.

Behind a tall tree trunk not far from where the two girls stayed just now, the boy whose knuckles were blue and white because he was holding it too hard looked worriedly at Baili who had no expression on his face, and some other emotions appeared slightly.

It should be very sad to hear the gossip about my "poor life experience" behind my back, and I am trying my best to control the emotion of wanting to cry.

"It's nothing. You don't think I'll be sad when I hear this, do you?" Baili suddenly raised his face, his eyes were as clear and transparent as green leaves, as if he had guessed the boy's mind, "I don't know how much I have heard since I was a child. , if I feel sad every time, then wouldn’t I be sad to the point of dying a long time ago.”

"Ah..." The boy twitched his mouth in embarrassment.

"Cheng Lichen, it seems that you should worry about your own affairs now, instead of worrying about me." Baili said lightly.

(End of this chapter)