deep in time

Chapter 34 (2)
It's a luxury.The little girl I lost back then had a light red birthmark resembling a butterfly on the right side of her waist. When I dreamed later, I would always dream of various little girls calling myself "Mom, Mom", but when I went to check it When touching the little girl's right waist, the dream will suddenly ripple like water waves, and then the little girl will disappear completely, dissipating into the darkness like thousands of light spots.

So, when she saw the girl who was dripping all over her body took off her coat and was only wearing a bottoming coat, revealing the butterfly-shaped birthmark on her right waist, Song Lanlan's eyes suddenly turned black and white.

There is no other voice in the world.The huge and noisy world outside the carriage has nothing to do with him at all.This girl is the only one left in her world.

"Guoguo." She tried to call the name she saw in the orphanage.

Liu Yujing's eyes were focused for a moment, she turned her head slowly, with a confused smile on her lips: "Who is calling me? Who are you?"

"I am your mother." Repressed, as if burning life.

Regardless of the wet water stains, Song Lanlan hugged her daughter tightly, exhausting all her strength.

Liu Yujing seemed to be dreaming, she dreamed of a warm, mother's embrace.

[Four]
No one likes a hospital, not even doctors.

In addition to being associated with "sickness", there is another word that is "death." I don't know why after I went to buy something outside the hospital, I took a detour and passed a remote place.The empty corridor, even with rows of incandescent lights on, can't help but produce a desolate and gloomy feeling.

When passing through that door, the wind suddenly picked up, and the door creaked and creaked when it was blown open, and then I saw one after another white beds, with huge white curtains, and finally Respond with hindsight.

——This is the morgue.

The footsteps became hurried all of a sudden, and the heavy echoes of stepping on the silent corridor made people feel an irresistible sense of fear for no reason, almost running from this corridor to another corridor as if fleeing, even if there was a long The road was soaked by the slanting rain, and half of his body was wet, but he didn't notice it at all.

I can't imagine the scene of my mother lying on a certain bed inside!no way!Never do this!
Baili just walked out the door and saw the blue-faced boy running over quickly, almost bumping into her.

"what's wrong?"

The boy stood still, seeing Baili's concerned expression, his heart was still beating rapidly.

"It's nothing." It can't be said that he was frightened like this because he passed the morgue, but other than that, how can he express the uneasiness and worry in his heart.

But Baili stared at him clearly: "You didn't take your mobile phone out. Uncle Cheng called just now. I answered it. He said that he will be back tomorrow."

"Hmm." A tone of particle was sent out as an answer.

"You didn't blame Uncle Cheng, did you?"

"No." The boy raised his face, and suddenly gently held the girl's hand in front of him. There was warmth from the skin, and the boy emphasized again, "Really."

—I have learned to forgive.

They opened the door together and walked in.

It’s still the noisy big ward, but it won’t frown like the first time, and I can understand my mother’s desire to save money and insist on refusing to change to a single ward.In addition to the high charges for single wards, large wards have the excitement and popularity that single wards do not have.

People who are sick are afraid of loneliness and the suffering of being alone.

Try to look at everything around you with mature eyes, so you grow up unconsciously.

He was very happy to see the boy's mistake, and shouted loudly across several hospital beds: "Brother Achen, brother Achen."

"Yeah. You are so good, what are you doing with your mother?" The boy walked over quickly, sat on the edge of the ward, climbed onto the boy's lap naturally, put his arms around the boy's neck, "I sing to you Mom is listening."

"So cute." The boy stroked the wrong hair and looked at Xu Meifeng who was dodging sleepily.

The haggard Xu Meifeng still lay down facing the wall when he came in, no matter whether she was eating, drinking or just in a daze before, as soon as the boy walked into the ward, she would lie on her side without saying a word down, covering half of his face.

"Brother is not here, what is mom doing?" Wanting to know more, the boy had no choice but to ask wrong.

The little girl said without thinking: "My brother is not here, my mother has been looking at the door and asked me several times why my brother hasn't come back."

——You are not by my side, time passes so long, time becomes a river that is so thick that it can hardly flow.

The boy's chest rose and fell violently, he couldn't help it anymore, he turned to the other side of the wall, this time he wouldn't back down even if he was screamed "Get out" or "I don't want to see you".However, what the boy who turned to the other side with the little girl in his arms saw was——

The hair is messy and dry, the sallow face is stiff and swollen, the mother who bites the bed sheet tightly, trying hard not to let herself cry.

Tears welled up all of a sudden, like an ocean of so many tears that my eyes were sore and astringent.

"Mom—" With a crying voice, he called out softly.

She didn't want to hear a response, but Xu Meifeng sat up suddenly from the hospital bed, the middle-aged woman's voice was hoarse but soft, she looked straight at her son, her pale lips moved: "Ah Chen..."

This is the voice of my mother in memory, as soft as a cloud and as beautiful as a petal.

The boy crashed into Xu Meifeng's arms with great momentum.

The embrace of the mother that I have not had for many years is different from that of the past. I am already a head taller than my mother, but my ears are placed on my mother's chest, and I hear the slow heartbeat, as if I have never left.

He hugged Cuicuo and lay in his mother's arms with Cuicuo.

Expectantly, mother's hand finally landed gently on his black hair.

"Mom is sorry for you."

"No, no, no, no, no..." Repeatedly, the boy raised his tear-stained face and said firmly, "If my mother is sorry for me, it means that my mother didn't live well."

[Fives]
Live well, and the long night will be illuminated by the morning light.

[six]
Suddenly mature, forget how to be weak.

Everything has just begun.

It was a cold morning with a constant wind.

In the narrow and dark alleys, plastic bags are flying in the air like paper dandelions.

A sleepy woman with outdated curly hair opened the door, but what she saw was a few men with sloppy faces. The men in black tight tops and flowered shirts with "bad society people" written on their faces asked sideways: "What about the family next door?"

"Ah, are you asking about the woman or the man?"

"man."

"I don't know." The middle-aged woman who shook her curly hair desperately lowered her voice.

The few men who seemed to advocate violence snorted. They didn't know where to find a chicken whose hair was so dirty that it couldn't tell the color. Suddenly, they cut off half of the head with a knife, and their proficiency was doubtful. Do you specialize in the meat business in the vegetable market?

"Ah——" the woman who was cursing bad luck screamed, the distance was too close, the back of her hands, neck, face, and clothes were all splashed with blood. She wanted to continue screaming with a pitch comparable to that of a female soprano, but One of the mustaches waved the knife in his hand at her, and she fell silent knowingly.

The gang finally hung the dead chicken on the gate of the next door, and even painted on the gate of the next door with bright red big bullshit characters like "pay back the debt, not pay the dead".

The sky in the alley is only as wide as a stream.The midday sun rarely visits this stream, and in the world invisible to the naked eye, a large cloud of dust is flying all over the sky.

At noon, a group of women gossiped in the aisle.

"I heard that Chi Wu, the man next door, has been gambling. This time, he even exported his crotch."

"Maybe even he himself lost at the gambling table." The numb and struggling people in the lower class gloated over things or people that were more miserable than themselves, "Maybe he would lose his life."

"Hey, I heard that the woman in this family has died, it seems to be cancer, and she passed away soon. A few days ago, I met her daughter, with a white cloth tied on her arm, and she was taken away by a car. .”

"It can't be taken away by child abductors." The imaginative woman in her 40s opened her eyes wide.

"Well, probably not, that car is pretty good, big and... domineering." Someone who was complacent thought of a suitable word.

"Haha, do you know about cars?" There was a mocking voice.

"You know what I don't understand, fart."

A topic that was quickly changed.

Also in this time period.A bus with advertisements such as "good air conditioner, made by XX" painted on the outside was driving on a bumpy sandy road. A long-legged boy curled up on the seat with difficulty. stationery and storybook workbook.

"Hey, there are so many, who will move them after getting out of the car?"

"You!" The short-haired girl and the paralyzed boy sitting opposite the long-legged boy said in unison.

"Why me?" Ji Nan cried out.

"Because those who insist on following are free laborers who are not in vain." The voice without warmth was accompanied by a contemptuous expression.

"Oh, you are taking revenge on me for destroying the two-person world between you and Baili." Jinan's imagination has always been rich.

Seeing Cheng Lichen who was blushing gradually, Ji Nan smiled wickedly: "I didn't expect you, Chen, to be so innocent. You still blush when you make fun of me now."

The blue sky flew by outside the window.

In the distance, the rice fields that have just been harvested are covered with light yellow grass.

Baili glanced at Cheng Lichen whose ears were flushed, and smiled with her lips pursed, but she didn't want to keep watching Cheng Lichen suffer, so she changed the subject: "Ah Chen, what's in your backpack? Let's see what your baby looks like now."

"secret."

"It's so sour, I can't watch it anymore." Ji Nan exclaimed exaggeratedly, and then suddenly said solemnly, "Baili, I know a secret about Ah Chen, and I sincerely hope to tell you."

Cheng Lichen looked at Ji Nan indifferently, with an expression of "I didn't do anything to be sorry for Baili", but after Ji Nan's eyes turned on his mobile phone a few times, he sat up straight suddenly, There was an unkind smile on the expressionless face: "Brother, you have something to say."

Go back in time to a week ago.

Cheng Lichen, who was unhappy, and Ji Nan, who was looking at the beauties, were sitting by the school playground.

Cheng Lichen, who accidentally picked up Ji Nan's phone to play with, saw Baili's photo in his favorites!

It was the photo of Baili that was posted on the school forum at that time, and it was the one with the water splashing on his chest.Cheng Lichen had also downloaded it in the cell phone that Cheng Lichen left on the grass behind the school. Later, he found the cell phone after a lot of hard work, but because of the continuous rain, the repairman was so helpless that he was soaked by the rain. So those photos of Baili have also become memories.Now seeing that there is actually one in his friend’s cell phone, he first cursed everything from the emperor to the faculty and staff who maintain the school’s website, and then quickly deleted the photo from Ji Nan’s cell phone, but before deleting it, he By accident, I sent the photo to my current mobile phone.

For this matter, he was teased and threatened many times by Ji Nan.

What would happen if Baili knew that Chen had his "over-limit photos" in his cell phone?The result was beyond Cheng Lichen's imagination.

So, Ji Nan stared lazily at his backpack: "What's the secret here?"

Is that secret important or this secret important?Of course there is no choice.Cheng Lichen opened the backpack obediently, and took out a glass jar from it, which was full of dark ointment that exuded the unique smell of herbs.

"What is this? I have a phobia of sticky objects..." Ji Nan leaned back.

"Idiot, don't you know how to read?"

"What is this for?"

"Specific medicine for frostbite." The boy lowered his eyes, not looking at Baili.

Baili stared blankly at Cheng Lichen, with mist in his clear eyes.

——Auntie, I will bring you medicine next time. It is very effective in treating chilblains.

The boy said this to Jiang Xianhui when he first came to Gulang Island, but he still remembered it and put it into practice.

"What's going on? What's going on?" Ji Nan asked with a smile, and when he figured out the ins and outs, he called out in a strange voice, "So it's from Xiao Jing (silenced) ah ah ah ah ah ah what……"

[Eight]
Time is a long memory played scene by scene.

Regardless of pain or loneliness, it will eventually turn into a ray of warm and gentle light in the process of growth.

Light up the way of the future.

(End of this chapter)