I Don’t Want This White Moonlight Anymore!

The first time Sun Lu saw Zhao Yinqing was not in Yingcai, but in a bookstore in the city.

She carried a bunch of materials, mixed with manual training books and recipes, and the content was very messy, as if she had entered the door on a whim, not buying something inappropriate, and choosing books was extremely perfunctory.

When I left, I also discussed the content of the small book with the children in the aisle.

The girl was very good-looking, but her demeanor was not steady, so Sun Lu was more impressed.

After I transferred to the elite, I found that I was in the same class as this person, which was quite destined.

I soon learned that her name was Zhao Yinqing, she was very active in the class, and her popularity was good, but her academic performance was very bad, and she was often criticized by the class teacher, and she didn't care too much.

This person is very strange, like there is a circle that belongs to her alone, no one can break into it, she jumps and runs in it recklessly and happily, vigorously like a little sun.

Sun Lu occasionally looks in that direction. He likes to see this person smile, which makes the boring life a bit different.

Later, I overheard her conversation with other people.

Someone asked her: "Zhao Yinqing, do you like Sun Lu?"

She said, "Isn't it normal to like him? He looks so good."

Sun Lu lowered his eyes and pursed his lips lightly. After receiving this information, he found that he was not disgusted at all, and even had a little expectation.

Someone said again: "Then you chase, why didn't you move at all?"

"I haven't chased anyone, and I don't know how to start."

"I heard that the conditions of Sun Lu's family are not very good. It should be very difficult to come to Yingcai."

After a quiet meeting outside, Zhao Yinqing’s voice came and said, “That’s easy. My family is the least short of money. I’ll use money to hit him. I want to hit him as much as I want, and it’s mine. !"

Sun Lu's eyes instantly cooled down, and he was ashamed of his little mood the moment before.

He actually has a good impression of such a vulgar person, he has a pit in his head!

Zhao Yinqing tried his best, and began to throw money on him, ranging from snacks to watches, clothes and shoes. She still seemed very confident when she first appeared, but after many refusals, the confidence gradually grew. Become pleased.

Sun Lu looked at the humble face that was supposed to be full of sunshine, and instantly became even more bored.

Of course, every confrontation between the two is what the spectators in the class are most looking forward to. Whether it is to shame Sun Lu, the former Qing Gao, or the loss of the rich lady, it is a good entertainment project.

You Zhao Yinqing had a lot of money in the past, a bit of beauty, and you have been used to the wind and rain. Now you finally get to the iron plate, right?

Everyone was gloating at the bottom of their hearts. They might also like to see Zhao Yinqing's desolation better than seeing Sun Lu's embarrassment.

The names of Sun Lu and Zhao Yinqing began to appear frequently in other people's mouths, unknowingly, they seemed to be connected in another, more twisted way.

Sun Lu hated this feeling. He didn't want to have anything to do with Zhao Yinqing. He didn't like that as long as she mentioned her, others would subconsciously think of himself.

He and her were originally two kinds of people, and they didn't try to each other. They just wanted to stay away from each other.

However, no matter how he refused, Zhao Yinqing was like weeds, always appearing in front of him next time when he thought he should give up, and his recovery ability was extraordinary.

Once Zhao Yinqing followed him after school, he was discovered by Sun Lu.

Thinking of the messy environment and the smallness of the space in which he lives, it is completely at the extremes of Zhao Yinqing's living conditions since childhood.

Suddenly, Sun Lu was furious. He didn't want to show his downfall in front of her, especially in front of her, no way!

So that day, his words were harsh and vicious, how ugly they were.

He said: "Are you so shameless? How many times do you want me to say it, I am not interested in you, I am annoyed when I see you, and I am sick, because of your existence I want to be blind, can you do it well, let go Pass me?"

Zhao Yinqing was frightened, and those big eyes were scared and dazed not understanding why he was angry.

She murmured: "I didn't mean anything."

"Being disturbed is already the greatest malice."

Zhao Yinqing held his schoolbag strap tightly with both hands, looking at him with aggrieved expression.

Sun Lu raised his hand and nodded her, and warned, "Don't follow me anymore."

After speaking, turn around and leave.

Sure enough, Zhao Yinqing didn't follow up, and didn't even come to school for many days. Everyone was guessing what happened to her. Some even congratulated Sun Lu, and finally got out of the sea of ​​suffering and no longer need to be harassed by idiots.

Sun Lu has always ignored these unnutritious remarks. He concentrates on class, concentrates on the questions, and devotes himself to the study. Only when there is so little fatigue, he suddenly thinks of Zhao Yinqing, but the next second The name swept out of his mind.

He didn't dare to touch all the things about Zhao Yinqing, but sometimes he would think of her inexplicably. It was very contradictory, and the contradictions made him a little disgusted with himself.

Four days later, Zhao Yinqing came to school as usual. It was clear that people had lost sight of it, but he was in good spirits.

Later, I heard that I was sick and had a high fever, so I rested at home.

Everyone was waiting for her to find Sun Lu, and even Sun Lu himself was secretly waiting. He had thought out the words to deal with in advance, and even the familiar feeling of boredom rose up first.

The results were all in vain, and Zhao Yinqing did not come to him.

One day, two days, three days, did Zhao Yinqing change his sex? He didn't even bother Sun Lu.

And Sun Lu was full of self-thinking that it was like being poked a hole, and then he was flattened down. He secretly laughed at his high self-esteem, what kind of thing are you, you really think that you are RMB, how to toss people will be liked?

Zhao Yinqing's liking for you is nothing but that.

Later, when it rained, Sun Lu didn't bring an umbrella, so he showered home that day. He caught a cold and went to school forcibly.

Zhao Yinqing was urged to come over to give a box of medicine that day. She seemed to be afraid of being scolded and ran away as soon as the medicine was released.

Sun Lu touched the pill box and ate it obediently.

It was this time of acceptance that Zhao Yinqing showed signs of coming back to life, and silently began to appear around him again, but he had learned a lot and became a lot more low-key, and he no longer sent anything to him casually, but like The snail girl brought him tea and poured water.

Someone joked: "Sun Lu, you are the most comfortable being a human being. There is a free babysitter at school."

Sun Lu glanced at the man coldly and didn't say a word, but he didn't refuse Zhao Yinqing's kindness anymore.

Because he suddenly didn't dare to speak harshly anymore, he was afraid that Zhao Yinqing was courageous, so he ignored him as before.

Sun Lu had to admit that between the two of them, it was possible that he was the one who longed to be needed. Once Zhao Yinqing withdrew, he would have nothing to do.

When Zhao Yinqing disappeared beside him, he suddenly felt a little lonely.

After living in peace for a while, Zhao Yinqing saw that Sun Lu was no longer so scared, and one day he cautiously came over to invite him to watch a movie, and specifically emphasized that there would be other friends in order to increase the success rate of the invitation.

Perhaps her expression looked too pitiful, and Sun Lu ghostly agreed.

But the feeling on the day of the movie was not very good, because it was not someone else who came here, it was Ren Xue.

How did Zhao Yinqing meet Ren Xue?

You can guess it without thinking about it, it must have been inquired from behind, knowing that he has a good relationship with Ren Xue, I want to make friends, and get close to myself by taking shortcuts.

Sun Lu had the feeling of being played fiercely by others.

No matter how Zhao Yinqing talked to him that day, he never looked at her with his straight eyes.

In later days, Zhao Yinqing surrounded him again, and Sun Lu would still ridicule her, but pay attention to the measure so as not to hurt people too much, but it would not make Zhao Yinqing too proud.

Sometimes he felt that he was quite perverted. When he enjoyed suppressing Zhao Yinqing, the pain on her face showed up, but he couldn't do without her pursuit.

How did you become like this?

On the day of the college entrance examination, he had a car accident, and Zhao Yinqing found her in the noisy hustle and bustle around him. On that day, he saw her as if she had fallen from the sky, as if she had been redeemed.

Zhao Yinqing did not participate in the college entrance examination this year, because she could not find her admission ticket.

Zhao Yinqing laughed, but she didn't care much. She even comforted Sun Lu and said, "It's okay, I'm not good at school anyway, the most important thing is you!"

Sun Lu deeply realized that there would be no second person in this life who could do this for him.

He looked at Zhao Yinqing's beautiful and lovely face, with a deep guilt in his heart, but he was usually indifferent to her, and he didn't know how to express ordinary care.

In the end, he only said flatly: "That's good."

He selfishly comforted himself that Zhao's family has money, and Zhao Yinqing's birth is already the end of many people. For her, the college entrance examination may be really irrelevant, and she will have more choices.

However, who would have thought that the Zhao family went bankrupt in a short time.

Zhao Yinqing moved out of the big house, without a personal driver, without high-quality living conditions, and fell into the mud pit from the high clouds.

Everyone I knew was waiting to see her joke, caring on the surface and gloating in secret.

Zhao Yinqing became depressed a lot, the smile on his face was less, and occasionally, it was no longer bright.

Sun Lu didn't like her like this, Zhao Yinqing in his heart shouldn't be like this.

He didn't like Zhao Yinqing's contact with the old acquaintances here. None of these people really hoped that she was good.

He wanted to take her away, where he could see.

So he asked Zhao Yinqing to follow him to City B.

It was a city completely unfamiliar to the two of them, and you could leave the past behind and live anew.

He helped Zhao Yinqing find a house. The house was very small and crude, and the environment was not very good, but this is the life of ordinary people. This is how he came from childhood. Zhao Yinqing should adapt. She is not. Miss Qian Jin must understand the sufferings of the world.

Without a high degree of education, the jobs that can be found are very limited. It is nothing more than a job such as a salesperson that does not require academic qualifications and does not require technical skills.

She has managed a clothing store, worked as a waiter in a restaurant, did credit card sales, and sold insurance. In the past few years, she changed a lot of jobs, and every time she changed, she would be mocked by Sun Lu. He always disliked her for having no hardship , There is no qualitative.

Zhao Yin cleared his smile, as if he didn't know what to do. Facing the high-achieving student of A, it seemed that everything he said was wrong.

Does Sun Lu have a good time for her?

If you think about it carefully, maybe there are some. I gave her gloves in winter and bought her air conditioners in summer. At that time, he was just a student. Zhao Yinqing was also happy to be able to use the pocket money he earned to buy something for her. of.

Zhao Yinqing’s only unhappy possibility is that Ren Xue often finds Sun Lv, and when she finds a correct one, then she will have a huge gap in her heart, and she will also put herself and Ren Xue on the weighing pole, and she will do this again in the next second. The picture of self-inflicted humiliation is erased.

Sun Lu has suggested that she go to school or go to school. Zhao Yinqing thought about her messy grades, and shook his head firmly and refused.

The current chai, rice, oil and salt is enough to make her headache, she has no energy to think about other things at all.

Every time at this time, Sun Lu would have an expression of hatred for iron and steel, and Zhao Yinqing would shrink his neck and dare not say anything.

Later, I graduated from Sun Lu University and joined a financial company. I was very busy every day. Originally, I didn't meet many times with Zhao Yinqing, so I didn't even see each other now.

Although it was hard work, but the income was good, Sun Lu wanted to give Zhao Yinqing a better place. He thought the other party would be grateful for Dade, but strangely Zhao Yinqing refused.

She said: "It's good to live here. If you change to a good place, the rent will be higher and the pressure will be even greater."

Since Sun Lu was helping, he never thought about letting Zhao Yinqing pay the rent by himself, but when he said something, Zhao Yinqing still felt that it was inappropriate, why use his money for no reason.

The two broke up again, Sun Lu thought to himself, if you want to draw a clear line with me, OK, then you don't want to find me.

Later, Zhao Yinqing called to make an appointment for dinner, but he didn't go there twice, and the phone didn't come.

Each is busy with each other, and the time seems to be fast.

Only in the dead of night, people will subconsciously think of this person when they stop.

Sun Lu missed her while sulking.

After another two months, Sun Lu finally couldn't bear to take the initiative to take a look at her, only to see Zhao Yinqing go home with a man, and the two were talking and laughing.

Looking up and seeing himself, Zhao Yinqing showed surprise on his face, and quickly bid farewell to people, trotting over, with a joyful smile on his face.

Sun Lu said, "Did you find a boyfriend?"

Zhao Yinqing said: "It's a colleague, I just drop by at the end of the dinner today."

Sun Lu looked at the man who turned away and walked away, Guixin was on the way.

He sneered, then opened his mouth and said harshly: "I have long eyes, don't just run with you if you are a man, you don't know if you are deceived."

Zhao Yinqing's originally happy smile faded in an instant. Seeing this change, Sun Lu flashed a trace of annoyance in his heart, but couldn't say an apology.

The two stood there stiffly, with nothing to say, and each went back to their own home.

Sun Lu didn't know what he was doing.

He didn't think about the future, he didn't think about living a good life with Zhao Yinqing, nor did he think about abandoning her, entangled for many years, he didn't know how to get along with Zhao Yinqing is the best way.

The so-called high-achieving students can't handle even such a simple interpersonal relationship.

Perhaps the most daring thing Zhao Yinqing did was to trick him into the hotel.

Seeing her sitting at the end of the bed wearing only a bathrobe, her bare, exposed calves were white and slender, slowly dangling there, her hair falling wet on her shoulders, her forehead was exposed, her eyebrows were clean, just as immature in the impression that she was once immature. Young girl.

Sun Lu was stunned for a moment, his heart beating wildly, his whole body was almost full of blood and energy, he was panicked and at a loss, the whole person didn't look like his own anymore.

In order to cover up his embarrassment, he blurted out subconsciously: "You actually asked a man to open a house, you are not cheap!"

Zhao Yinqing was stunned, the blood on his face faded visible to the naked eye.

Sun Lu regretted it as soon as he spoke, but he didn't know how to save it, so he turned around and fled.

He never thought that this would actually be the last time with Zhao Yinqing.

It didn't take long to receive news of her jumping off the building.

Are you kidding me?

He didn't believe it, how could it be possible?

How could that woman who had been around her for more than ten years jumped off the building when she said she jumped off the building?

He locked himself at home for several days and refused to accept the news.

However, in the afternoon of the fifth day, he drove to Zhao Yinqing's cemetery, and walked up step by step according to the information given by others.

He wants to see it with his own eyes, he can only see with his own eyes.

He finally came up and stood in front of her tombstone. In the photo above, Zhao Yinqing was still smiling, his face was as good-looking as when he first saw it.

Zhao Yinqing was twenty-six years old this year.