Our family is in decline

Lance listened all the way and probably understood the change in his state of mind.

To put it simply, he understands that he can't find the noble and feels that revenge is hopeless. He has relied on revenge to support his heart along the way. Once this collapses, he will definitely feel at a loss.

At this time, his heart was extremely empty and he urgently needed to find new reasons to live.

In this case, he was directly swallowed up by the guilt caused by the wrong things he had done back then.

What he was looking for was not salvation, but just like Leonard, he had done a lot of wrong things in the first half of his life, and in the end he longed to die on a road that was... at least nominally correct.

Lance thought he knew Disma before, but now he realized that he didn't know him at all. It wasn't until he came into contact with his story today that he understood why he had such a strange personality.

However, he was not confused by the complex psychology in Disma's story, but quickly sorted out the key issues.

"I found that you made a mistake on a very critical issue, that is, you used this oath to the wrong person."

"What do you mean, sir?" This sentence made Disma a little confused.

Seeing him like this, Lance was not in a hurry. He turned to another way and asked, "Do you know why you made this oath?"

"Because I shouldn't kill women and children."

"Then why shouldn't we kill? You have obviously killed so many people, and it doesn't matter just one or two."

Disma was silent when talking about this. After thinking about it for a while, he found that it was difficult for him to explain why. Only then did he realize that something was wrong~

"Because the prison guards oppressed you, those gangsters took the initiative to attack you, that person betrayed you, the carriage guards were paid to do things, and they carried weapons and threatened you, you were already mentally prepared when you took on the mission.

But women and children are innocent, weak people who cannot threaten you without weapons, and their appearance without warning is not at all what you expected. This scene aroused your desire for protection, but they were accidentally killed by you, so this protection Desire turns into guilt. "

Lance understood that the reason for his such a big reaction was that the scene of watching his lover die left a psychological shadow on him. What he felt guilty was that he was unable to protect his lover at the time. Women and children were just a trigger, which affected his memory and inspired him. his protectiveness.

But he couldn't say this. He didn't want to touch Disma's sensitive nerves to avoid resistance, so he explained immediately.

"The desire to protect is a very common psychology among humans. It is an important manifestation of human social evolution. It comes from a special mechanism that has evolved over millions of years to maintain the reproduction and growth of species."

In fact, Disma couldn't understand the explanation attached to Lance's sentence at all, but he understood the general meaning.

That is because they are weak and innocent, so they feel guilty.

"But your oath has no effect!"

Suddenly, Lance expressed his opinion with a serious expression, and even made a conclusion.

Disma was even more confused this time. According to what the lord said just now, women and children are weak. Did he not do anything wrong?

He wanted to refute something, but the lord grabbed the topic before he could speak.

"What you really want to express is to protect the weak and spare the innocent. It's just that the manslaughter shocked you too much, so you subconsciously bound women and children to the weak and innocent. But in fact, you can't just Judgment of a person's attributes based on simple gender and age.

People are complicated. Don’t you know who inspired Barton to rob the town? She is a woman, and I will tell you another thing. The female cultist you backed down and did not kill, she sacrificed her daughter to join the cult..."

Lance told him about the parents who sacrificed their daughters to Christianity.

"What does your oath protect? Because you have spared bad people countless times because of this, and they will continue to do bad things. In a certain situation, you are their accomplice."

"Damn it! What have I done?" Disma realized the stupid thing he had done, and became anxious.

Lance looked at him with a calm expression and had no intention of comforting him. He even talked about how they killed people.

Those horrific scenes further stimulated him, and he shouted in a rage:

"Ah! I will cut off the filthy bodies of those cultists! Cut them open! Chop them into pieces!"

"So you understand, you are bound by a shallow oath and you are supposed to protect the good people, but you unknowingly condone the bad people."

"I was wrong……"

"No, you still have a chance to correct~"

"Do I still have a chance?"

"Of course, you have to know that you need to protect good people, not just women and children. Sometimes women and children are also bad people. They need to be completely purified. Only in this way can those good people be truly protected."

The time was ripe, and Lance's intentions hidden in his words were slowly revealed. He didn't need a timid Disma bound by an oath, he needed a ruthless bandit who only listened to his orders.

As for a good person, isn’t that what he defines?

When Lance was discussing religion with Leonard, he despised them for occupying the power of interpretation and controlling believers, but now he is doing the same thing...

"I understand." Disma realized, and at this moment he realized how stupid and blind he had been before.

Sure enough, his decision to stay was right at the beginning. After receiving the guidance from the lord, he reconciled with himself and understood the true meaning of his life.

Although Disma was positive before, he still had a belief in seeking relief, which was simply called seeking death.

But now he has rediscovered the meaning of existence - to kill the bad guys and protect the good guys.

The two quickly returned to the caravan. Leonard noticed that Disma's state had changed significantly from before going out. The carefree feeling disappeared and turned to be stable.

But he wasn't too curious, the lord had his own arrangements.

…………

"kill!"

Lance wielded his long sword and slashed, but this time he was not wearing armor, so he couldn't be as crazy as last time. Instead, he relied on fighting in the convoy.

He didn't even use [Blessing] to refresh his status, but simply used his own strength to fight.

It was a sudden attack, but it was destined to be a one-sided massacre.

Leonard tightened the reins to slow down the horse's pace, and the sword in his hand was still bleeding.

When he turned his horse and went back, he saw only broken corpses all over the ground. None of the gangsters who dared to attack the caravan could escape. The last one just fell to his sword.

The battle was over within three to five minutes from the start.

I have read all your suggestions, and the real problem is not my writing about farming, but simply my lackluster plot.

To sum up, I feel that the protagonist's will is not strong enough, which makes it not satisfying when finding a hero.

For example, if the protagonist knows that there is a talented person (a dog trainer) in a small town, and then goes there specifically to accept him, and the town accepts the dog trainer by uncovering a cult conspiracy, this way, the foreshadowing in advance can reflect the sense of satisfaction. The connection is more coherent.

To put it simply, the plot should be from the protagonist's perspective and based on the protagonist's wishes, rather than using accidents to promote the plot.