Struggle in Valoran

“Are you awake?”

When Yasuo returned to the world again, all he saw was the ceiling of his dojo, and the burning around him The healing incense. The one who asked this sentence with concern was an Elder Ma that he was very familiar with. At Su Elder Ma’s side, the eyes were red, and the sad mother was looking at him, and silently wiping the tears from the corners of his eyes.

Obviously, Yongen’s death hit his mother very hard, and because he was also awake, his mother’s appearance must not be well during this time. But despite this, he can still see a happy look on his mother’s face. But this maternal love made him ashamed and unable to show one’s face, wanting to escape here in a hurry. Because of his recklessness and enthusiasm, Yongen, who was taking care of his mother until now, died.

In a trance, he remembered that he had never taken care of the mother who brought him up. His big brother was always taking care of his mother and taking care of the family’s farmland. I have been looking for someone to drink and fight, and laugh at Yongen for not practicing his sword well.

How can I do this?

What is the difference between me and a pig dog like this? Worrying about my mother, confronting my brother, relying on military force to ignore everything around me…

And I killed everyone…

What the hell am I?

Am I really human?

Yasuo’s eyes fell into confusion all of a sudden. When the entire dojo saw him like this, they also closed their mouths that they wanted to make noise. After all, although their children have left them forever, the most important thing now is the living people. Yasuo’s appearance has already shown how painful the things he has experienced, so they will not ask Yasuo at this time to aggravate his pain.

They will ask Yasuo when he is willing to say it, not now.

After all, even if Yasuo has been stuck in sorrow and pain and is unwilling to tell what happened to him, they can also invite psychics, or wait until the Spring Festival, Sion will ask them when they return to the world with the help of flowers . This is the way the bus with the concept of balance and harmony exists in this nascent land, and it is also the outlook on life and values ​​that they have maintained for thousands of years.

“It doesn’t matter what you encounter, you always have to face him, just like the wind hits a wall. Either you blow it down or bypass it. But in short You have to face it, otherwise how can you know that you can’t beat the opponent?”

After seeing everyone else are gone, Su Elder Ma shook his head slightly, and then watched as he was sitting silently. Get up, Yasuo, who is looking at his hands in a daze, motions to Yasuo’s mother to leave here first.

Yasuo’s mother did so, and when she left, the white-haired Su Elder Ma looked at Yasuo, who was sitting there, still staring at her hands, shaking her head. On the one hand, he said the fact that Yasuo was most reluctant to face.

“You killed them, right? At least you think so.”

Yasuo lowered his head, countless tears in this brief moment from his eyes Rushed out. If he can be more cautious and humble, then his same sect senior and junior brothers will not die, and Elder Ma who treats himself like a grandfather will not lose almost all of his discipline at this age. And my big brother will not die, and my mother will not fall into that kind of sadness.

So he still couldn’t say a word, the screams of the same sect senior and junior brothers before death continued to ring in his ears, his big brother’s last disappointed look, and that The accusing words still echoed in his ears. He hardly dared to close his eyes, because once he closes his eyes, those resentful eyes of the same sect who died will appear in front of his eyes, and his big brother Yongen is definitely the head.

“Death is like the wind, always with me… Don’t worry about me, child. I’m already this age, maybe I will be able to see them next year, so you don’t have to worry about my loneliness, And unattended. The most important thing now is whether you can face your mistakes and get out of them.”

Taking his dísciple on the shoulder, he can feel the loss and anxiety of his dísciple , And the unruly wind that could be felt on him in the past also slowly ceased in this brief moment.

This means that his discipline is now unable to use the Wind Sword technique. Not only is his heart locked by himself, but the sword in his heart is also broken by himself. If the heart can’t dance with the wind, and the sword in the heart can’t fuse together with the sword in his hand, let alone the Wind Sword technique, he may not even be able to defeat the apprentice he just learned. The shadows of the past will linger in front of his eyes, making him no longer able to feel happy, and stirring the wind.

Yasuo can only cry constantly, but he still can’t forgive himself, that the weight of many lives will hold him down, especially when these people still die because of him. That’s it.

lifts the head, a piece of white outside the dojo can be seen in the dim teary eyes. Almost everyone in the entire village was dead, but the reason was his anger.

If he was to die alone, and he would suffer thousands of tortures, he would not leave a single tear, nor would he regret it. I only regret that I can’t improve my sword skills again, and I can’t repay my mother’s nurturing feelings. But now his mistakes cost others their lives, and he, the culprit, survived alone.

He could not accept this ending.

“It’s harder to live than to die, Yasuo, I don’t remember that I taught a coward. Among your mother’s sons, there has never been a child named Yasuo who is afraid of challenges.”

Yasuo is still silent, he doesn’t know how he can face his guilt. He wanted to escape, but he couldn’t escape because he knew that after he escaped, he would only be able to escape forever, just like the father who ran away in the face of the burden of the family. And once he evades his responsibilities, his mother will bear all the guilt on his behalf.

His death of his brother has made him worse than a pig. Should he still act as an adult and let his mother suffer for his guilt? In that case, wouldn’t he be inferior to maggots?

“I…killed all of them.”

Speaking hard, I said the most difficult thing to say, and the guilt and pain in my heart made Yasuo no longer Once I lost my ability to think, I could only stare at my Master blankly, and at the sad and very old face of my Master.

Su Elder Ma knew that he couldn’t completely comfort Yasuo’s inner scars, so he could only sighed for a long time and enlighten his most proud student as much as possible.

“Everyone has their own choice, Yasuo, what you have to do is not to let the life they recaptured.”

But my life is not worth so much.

Yasuo closed his eyes again, there was no more wind in his heart, and Yongen’s resentful eyes appeared in front of his eyes on time.

“I don’t want to be like this…”