The trainer, whose time is running out, just wants to survive

But Rudolf knew very well that Kitano was somehow more busy than finding the next person to take charge.

However, it is very embarrassing. In the past, the deeds of him and Qianming were overly spread by the media and various rumors. In addition, they themselves also used a Spring Emperor's Award, which further proved that they are an "indispensable perfect combination." ”, but this deed, which was originally worthy of praise, had a negative effect at this time.

All the racing girls felt that the combination of representatives Kitano and Qianming was so perfect that there was no possibility for them to interfere. Anyone who joined would become a "third party", and no one thought that if they joined, they would end up with Kitano's combination is better than Chiaki's representative.

When your senior is the strongest horse racing girl in Japan, maybe this trainer will be infinitely sought after, and countless people will imagine that they are the next strongest in Japan; but if your senior and your trainer are recognized as a match made in heaven When it comes to harmony, basically no one will destroy this wonderful relationship without the sense of humor.

Therefore, this also caused Kitano to be extremely anxious, but no racing girl was willing to be his responsibility.For this reason, Rudolf expressed great regret and...a little bit of happiness.

It was under this circumstance that Rudolf recommended to Kitano Dongkai Emperor, a child who had just entered the elementary school of Teresin Academy.

"Well... I don't know, maybe Qianming has some plans of her own, right?" Regarding this matter, a subtle smile appeared on Rudolf's face, and he seemed to feel a little better after rubbing it. The Emperor of the East China Sea's Hair then asked softly:

"So, how do you feel about training under trainer Kitano? Emperor."

"Very good. Trainer Sang was very enthusiastic when he saw me for the first time! He also took great care of me!"

When Kitano was mentioned, the emperor's eyes shone a little, and the ponytail behind his back couldn't help but began to sway, and he began to talk about Kitano's kindness to her:

"Trainer Sang taught me how to run from the beginning. He told me that my ankles are very soft, which is my unique talent. He also told me to practice my basics and not rely too much on my own talent. I listened. oh!"

"Also, trainer Sang often buys me special honey drinks. He actually knows my taste! And more..."

The little mouth of the East China Sea Emperor kept talking about Kitano's kindness to her, and Rudolf just listened quietly, with a smile at the corner of his mouth that kept expanding, as if just listening to this was enough to make those in her heart disappear. Regret was comforted.

This... is enough.At least the emperor's child doesn't need to experience watching the person he misses most long ago forget about him like she did.The emperor will definitely stay with someone she can rely on...for sure.

"It's just... I saw Trainer Sang some time ago and he seemed to be sighing a little. President, do you think I didn't do a good enough job?"

However, just when Rudolf was thinking this, the words of the Emperor of the East China Sea brought her thoughts back. Almost immediately, Rudolf's brain seemed to suddenly think of it after a slight start. Something terrible happened, his expression immediately became serious.

And Rudolph didn't even have time to ask the emperor about Kitano's recent physical condition.Suddenly there was a rush of footsteps outside the student union office, and the moment the door opened, the face of Qi Tong, who had just joined the student union some time ago, was revealed.

But... the moment Rudolph noticed the panic on Qi Groove's face, she seemed to have vaguely realized that something... had begun to happen.

"...Air tank?"

"President...Trainer Kitano just fell ill."

The slightly dry and unbelievable words from Qi Groove slowly fell at this moment, breaking the last bit of luck in Rudolf's heart, and also made her recall something that had not happened for a long time after several years. Something that she had subconsciously ignored... Kitano's incurable disease.

And when the disease once again threatened Kitano's life and forced everyone to recall his existence... Rudolph didn't know that for all this, it was already too late...

Chapter 33: Rudolf’s last memory: a life-long recognition, finally...

Rudolf didn't know how she spent these three months... She only knew that she had never lived as haphazardly as she did every day of these three months, and she had never Sometimes, I feel like these three months...have passed so quickly.

It was almost enough for her to watch the life of one of her dearest people...

Three months ago, the unconscious Kitano spent a whole day in the hospital resuscitating him. When the unconscious Kitano was pushed out, Rudolf could hardly believe that one day could make a person feel as if he had aged ten years. He was as old as [-] years old, and was so damaged that she could hardly recognize it.

After that rescue, Kitano could no longer walk.Rudolf watched with his own eyes as he sat in a wheelchair... but he showed the same soft and indifferent smile as he remembered.

But... that familiar smile made Rudolph so depressed that he felt as if his breathing had stopped.It wasn't until that moment that she finally understood why the first time she saw Kitano in her memory, he was so gentle, smiling as if he had no quarrel with the world.

This is the kindness of a person who has calmly accepted his fate and who has known for a long time that he is destined to be killed by the disease. He will only show kindness after he has a profound enlightenment.Because he knows what the worst-case scenario is, and he also knows that he will face it sooner or later. People who enjoy life with every minute and every second of their lives... will not have a dispute with anyone.

After Kitano got into a wheelchair, he was much more diligent than before.He did not slacken his teachings to the Emperor of the East China Sea because of his illness. He also gave many of his notes to Rudolph so that she could train the Emperor on his behalf when he was ill.He even began to recommend members of the student union to Rudolph, saying that he had recently been paying attention to a newly debuted horse racing girl named "Narita Shirahito". She was a good prospect and he would definitely help her in the future.

Everything Kitano did... Rudolph saw everything, but she preferred not to pay attention to it most of the time.She couldn't bear to see Kitano like this... He seemed to realize that he didn't have much time left, and wanted to arrange everything behind him as soon as possible.

What makes Rudolf even more incomprehensible is that during Kitano's illness, Chiaki, the "perfect partner" who replaced him by Kitano's side, had a different attitude toward Kitano from the beginning. In the end, there was no change at all.

Qianming was neither anxious because of Kitano's serious illness, nor was she sad and shed tears because the man she liked was lying on the hospital bed.She gave Rudolf the feeling as if Kitano was not sick at all.

Qianming was not always with Kitano, who was seriously ill, nor did she put her own affairs behind because of Kitano's illness.Rudolf can still meet Representative Chiaki, and never forgets to watch the Kabuki that she is interested in; and never forgets to run wildly in the wind and rain when it rains heavily - even if her trainer is lying in the hospital!

What was even more unacceptable to Rudolph was... Kitano knew all of this, and he was just as he remembered it, not having any dissatisfaction with all of Qianming's actions and tolerating all of her actions, even He even showed a reassuring smile from time to time.

No, no, you don't need to tolerate her like this - you can obviously be angry, why do you tolerate her like this?

If it were me, if it were me, I would never do what she did. Kitano, I will always take care of you. Even if you have forgotten me a long time ago, I cannot just watch. You are fighting the disease alone!

I want to tell you that I am by your side. I want you to know that I am the person in the past that you have forgotten...

But Rudolf's refusal could not stop Kitano's life from passing day by day... She didn't know that in the next few months, she would witness Kitano being devastated by the disease to the end, and she would never be able to do anything about it. experience.

Two months ago, Kitano fell ill again. This time it was more serious than the last time. A week after Kitano was discharged from the hospital, he no longer even had the appetite to eat. He lost a lot of weight, which made him look slightly slimmer. He looked much weaker as he lost weight.

And a month ago... Kitano's condition worsened again. This time, it was difficult for him to even sit in a wheelchair. He could only lie on the hospital bed and rely on nutrient solution infusion to survive...

"Even if the treatment continues, it will only increase the pain...With today's medical capabilities, it is impossible to save him."

"Perhaps, if he agrees, we can relieve him in a more relaxed way and decide some things while he is still conscious..."

"I don't care!" Even the attending doctor couldn't bear to see Kitano continue to be tortured like this. When he even started to express it to Rudolph in a more direct way, Rudolph roared as if his scales had been touched. , her voice was loud enough that people in the whole building could hear her clearly.

"I want him to live! No matter what method, no matter how much money - I want him to live!"

Rudolph knew that his decision was selfish.She watched Bei Ye living in such pain, fighting against death every moment. She knew that perhaps euthanasia was the best way for Bei Ye... But she still chose the last willful move - until she still faced this The day has come.

On this day, Kitano was surprisingly energetic...at least better than any other day in the past month. And he seemed to have noticed something. He called all the people he cared about to the hospital. He wanted to talk to them. Say some final words.

When it was Rudolph's turn, Kitano was struggling to even speak, but he still held Rudolph's hand with great difficulty, as if she was going to the Symbol House for training and the day before she was separated from him, He kept telling:

"Rudolph... I'm really sorry for letting you see me like this, but there are some things I still want to tell you."

"I'm going to leave soon, but I can't worry about the emperor... I know that you are as close to the emperor as you are to your daughter, so I hope that after I die, you can help the emperor get out of my death, and don't do it because of me. influence her future path.”

"Believe me, she will be a horse racing girl who can't lose to anyone in the future. As long as she can survive a few transformations... you have to help her get through these difficulties, okay?"

"I know, I know." Rudolf's voice could not stop trembling, and he choked in reply in front of Kitano. Unknowingly, Rudolf had already burst into tears, facing Kitano's last moment. Begging, she firmly grasped Kitano's hand and said urgently:

"Emperor, she also loves you like a father, and like a brother... I will tell her, and I will always take care of her."

"...Then, there is one more thing." After receiving Rudolph's answer, Kitano reluctantly showed a happy smile. He stared at Rudolph and tried to open his mouth several times, but he couldn't. Under Rudolf's trembling eyes, Kitano felt as if something was stuck in his throat, and he thought about it countless times.

He seemed afraid, seemed hesitant to say something to Rudolf.In the end, after a long silence, Kitano condensed all his feelings for Rudolf into a simple and true sentence, and said softly:

"Of course, take care of yourself, Rudolf. I also...have never been worried about you."

...Rudolf didn't know how she walked out of the ward. She only knew that when her mind went blank and she could only sit in the hospital seat feeling dejected, Representative Qianming walked into the ward wordlessly, and she and her A trainer said his final farewell.

I don’t know how much time passed, but finally, with the sound of the door of the ward opening, Rudolf, who was still crying in confusion until now, subconsciously raised his head and found that Representative Qianming had walked out of Kitano’s ward. , she closed the door of the ward gently, as if she was afraid of disturbing the people inside, her movements were so cautious.

What shocked Rudolph even more was that there was no expression on the face of Representative Qianming who walked out of the ward... She seemed to have forgotten her tears and her sadness.Rudolph only saw that after she closed her eyes and took a deep breath, the corners of her mouth showed up again...the same smile that seemed to not care about anything.

After doing all this, Qianming turned her eyes to Rudolph again. Her tone was so pretending to be relaxed, and she said word by word:

"...Rudolph, trainer Sang said that he wants to go home. Can you please come with me and take trainer Sang home?"

"……What's up with him?"

He clearly knew the answer to this question, but at this moment, Rudolf, whose mind was blank, could not read her meaning from Representative Qianming's face, which showed no trace of sadness. She just stood up blankly and walked away. When he arrived in front of Qian Ming, he asked based on instinct.

"Don't let me tell you such a cruel truth, Rudolf, please."

Even though she said this, Qianming still maintained her expression. The look in her eyes as she looked at Rudolf in front of her gradually turned from apathetic to angry. After a small silence, she was still very calm. 's continued:

"Trainer Sang doesn't want us to be immersed in sadness. He said that he hopes we can start a new life. Therefore, I plan to continue alone after he leaves, just like I promised to Trainer Sang." Go on."

"So, Rudolph, it's time for you to accept this. Trainer Sang, he has..."

However, the next moment, Qian Ming's words were immediately blocked.Her collar was suddenly pulled over by the furious Rudolph. For a moment, Qianming saw the look of madness after despair from Rudolph's eyes full of resentment!

"You bastard!!!"

Crazy Rudolph almost shouted this sentence.She stared at Representative Qianming in front of her with hatred as if he wanted to eat her alive.

She never imagined that this woman would not shed a single tear for him!She never imagined that the person who took her place would be such a person!He could be such a person!

Why can someone like you monopolize his love? !Give her his love, the love that should belong to me! !

Rudolph's eyes screamed such words, but now she no longer wanted to care about Qian Ming. She pushed Qian Ming aside and broke into the ward alone.

"Kitano——"

Rudolf called out his name for the last time. She broke into the ward and locked her eyes on Kitano on the bed, but it was already too late.

Kitano Ryuichi has his eyes closed now and is lying peacefully on the hospital bed.

His hands were neatly placed on his abdomen, and his expression showed no trace of pain or struggle, as if he had fulfilled all his wishes and done everything, and he... had no regrets.

But he didn't know that he died without regrets, but left behind a poor girl full of remorse and regret.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!"

Under a burst of heart-rending howls of pain, Rudolph seemed to have all the strength drained from her body, and she fell down powerlessly. Big tears could not stop falling from her eyes. , one of her hands kept beating her chest, as if a large piece of her heart had been forcefully dug out.

And whether it was Rudolf's heart-rending roar that shook the room, or some deliberate arrangement, Kitano's palm that had been resting safely on his abdomen slowly fell down.

At this moment, a small, shining object slowly fell from Kitano's palm. With a burst of rolling, the small ornament that Kitano carefully wrapped in his palm happened to fall improperly. In front of Rudolph.

It was a cheap plastic love pendant.

Perhaps because it was too long ago, the pendant necklace has been lost long ago, but only this small pendant is preserved. Even though there are obvious scratches and fading in some places, judging from the degree of preservation of the pendant, it is obvious that , its owner cherished this little gift so much that he carefully wrapped it in his hands before he died.

This is... Rudolph carefully picked up the love pendant bag with trembling hands. When she fully recognized the appearance of this small pendant, a corner of her memory that she had recalled countless times, Finally she recognized this token of promise.

After more than ten years, she never thought that she would see him again in this way... Even she herself only remembered the agreement to meet, but forgot this small token in the corner of her memory.

But one person still remembers that he has always remembered this promise and has been looking forward to handing this token back to her as promised.

He has always remembered it...but why didn't he understand all this until this moment...

"What have I done... what have I... done..."

"Why didn't I tell him...he didn't forget me, he obviously...didn't forget me at all..."

She obviously has so many words, so much love and longing that she wants to tell him.

But there is no chance anymore, no more... He buried her love, her memories, and all her beauty in the grave together.

She lost her love twice. From now on, there will be no one worthy of her love in this world...

Chapter 34: Rudolf wants to take back Kitano with his own hands

"Don't...don't leave me...it's all my fault...it's my fault..."

"President? President? Please wake up quickly."

However, she did not know the state of Rudolf who was now trapped in a dream, but it shocked Qitan who came to the student union as usual in the morning, especially when Qitan came at the beginning and found that The door to the student union was actually locked. If it weren't for the double-door design of the student union door, she wouldn't even be able to get in with her key.

As soon as he entered the office, he saw the body of Rudolf, who had worked overtime all day yesterday, lying on the desk, and the student union was littered with scattered documents. He was so frightened that he almost thought Rudolf had a mental breakdown. , died suddenly at work.

But fortunately, when the air tank nervously approached Rudolf, she heard Rudolf's constant mumbling in his sleep... She repeatedly called a name, her tone was almost pleading, but also Tears flowed unknowingly.

Rudolph was in such a state. It had been a long time since he had joined the student union, and this was the first time he met him. At that moment, he didn’t care whether Rudolph had woken up, and immediately shook the president who seemed to be having a nightmare. .

"Don't leave Luna!"

However, just such a shake of the air tank seemed to cause Rudolph to have some kind of irritable reaction. She suddenly opened her eyes and reflexively stretched out a hand, as if she wanted to grab it. Live on the sleeves of the person who was in front of you a moment ago in the dream.

It's a pity that when she woke up from the dream, she still couldn't catch the person she wanted to catch in the dream. Now that she has suddenly returned to reality, she can still only hold a handful of nothingness.

"...President? What's wrong with you?" However, Qi Groove stared blankly at Rudolf, who had a dull expression after waking up in front of him, and could not hide his weird expression.

Who is Luna?Qitan actually wanted to know the answer to this question, but she felt that the question was a bit dangerous, so she immediately chose to ignore it.

"I... where am I?"

However, Rudolf, who had just woken up from the dream, still did not come back to her senses. She glanced around the student union blankly, and the next moment she focused her eyes on her hands again, but she never found the diamond again. The love ornament that was still in my hand a second ago.

"It's gone, why is it gone?"

"Ok?"

"Angry, angry, my things are missing!"

Before the air tank could react, Rudolf, whose eyes were still leaking tears, became emotional again. She glanced at the ground anxiously, as if looking for some relic left by her relatives, and opened her mouth Zhong Huan kept mumbling to himself:

"That's what he left for me. That was the last thing he left for me. Where did it go? Where did it go..."

"President! Calm down!"

And Rudolf was so abnormal that he finally scared Qi Groove. He only saw Qi Groove take a big step and immediately arrived in front of Rudolf. He used his best strength to hold Rudolf's shoulders. After feeling After Rudolph's strong resistance, she gritted her teeth and squeezed out the words through her teeth:

"President, this is the student union! You just had a nightmare! Wake up now!"

So strong!Qi Cao was also gritting her teeth, and her hands were already bursting with veins. Fortunately, she slowly felt that Rudolf in her arms was slowly regaining his composure... and after Qi Cao felt that she had calmed down, he carefully After letting go, Rudolph's whole body seemed to be on fire, and he sat back down in his seat.

It's all... a dream?Rudolf gasped slightly, but the contents of his dreams echoed extremely clearly in his mind. The things that happened in these dreams were not gradually forgotten within a few minutes like the scientific evidence, but seemed to be imprinted on him. Just like in my own mind, it has become a part of the life I have experienced.

Is all this false?But why is everything so real?Kitano Ryuichi seemed to have lived her life all over again?And whether it was his illness or all the choices he made, why didn't she realize that this was a dream?