Longmen Memoirs

Looking at Chen Mo who looked completely different from what he saw in the camp, he looked at the faint smile on the face of the white Sakaz.

Shuangxing felt that Chen Mo must be very happy now. I don't know why, Shuangxing felt this way. He felt that Chen Mo before was too heavy, even when facing Tallulah, but only here Only in front of Sakaz could he truly relax.

But what is the relationship between them?

Who is this Sakaz?

Froststar knew nothing, she couldn't understand the language of their conversation, but she knew that they were not enemies, and she didn't want to become an enemy with that Sarkaz, because she made Froststar feel a little kind, as if she was facing It was the same as his father, but it was still easier to detect than that. This contradictory feeling appeared in a stranger, making Shuangxing surprised and confused.

Chen Mo finally said nothing.

Without telling Theresa, he could already feel that his body was getting closer to death day by day.

It seems that he can count the days and slowly wait for that day to arrive. What he is doing now is constantly forcing himself to shorten this time.

But he won't look back.

Chen Mo thought that he should be afraid, confused, timid or uneasy.

No.

Perhaps because he was used to seeing death, he could calmly accept even his own death.

He was just a little thankful that before that day came, he could return to the land where it all started and see the person who pulled him back from the edge of the abyss again.

He was glad that he had saved the Sarkaz, and was glad that he had finally done something good, even if the cost was that he himself would replace Sarkaz's destined ending.

Chen Mo didn't complain at all.

In the days before death, he was still a little worried and reluctant. He was worried that he would not be able to return to Longmen as promised. After Chen raised Xiao Mo alone, he was worried that Xiao Mo would be raped when he grew up. People joke about people who don't have a father, and worry that Chen will be sad because of it.

Chen Mo was worried about whether Tallulah would be able to live well to realize her ideals after he left. He was worried that Tallulah would encounter too many difficulties and obstacles, and that she would be confused and lose her direction.

Worried about what the fox would do when he knew the news.

In fact, Chen Mo knew that he had nothing to worry about.

Because Chen is a strong person, because Tallulah has many people besides himself who can accompany him on this journey, and because the fox is actually tougher than he thought.

But Chen Mo still worries about these and that.

I worry about whether I will be like that box buried in the soil for many years, and eventually slowly disappear into other people's lives and memories.

Chen Mo was very reluctant to give up.

He couldn't let go of the early spring in Longmen, which was the day he had extravagantly hoped for in his dreams.

He couldn't let go of the late summer in Colombia, where he grew up in a strange city in a foreign country and met the best brothers and descendants in his life.

He misses the late autumn in Londinium, the little moments when he and Chen met again after more than ten years. In the late autumn, in the small house with the walls covered with newspapers, his lazy wildcat lady hummed in her mouth. The melody and sour candy taste are unforgettable for ordinary people.

He did not miss the winter solstice in Kazdaele. During the first winter he came here, he received the first birthday gift in the speaker's office in the administrative building of the Tower of Babel.

Below, children were chasing and playing in the snow.

……

Xia, who doesn't want to leave Sargon, is a weirdo team that is awkward but has a tacit understanding.

The colleagues' gatherings in the autumn of Colombia, the drunken and frivolous Franca, the yelling Razer when pushed, are really surprising, the timid but cute little Jessica, the sultry and loyal Si Felt and the greedy and heroic Foxtail.

Vina curled up in front of the fireplace in the snow in Londinium, the half-opened book in her hand, her loose blond hair, the warmth that touched her lips when she held her hand, with a bit of sour sweetness. greasy.

I finally found Xiaota in the snowy field of Ursus, and when I grew up, Xiaota was even more perfect than I imagined. I never thought that one day I would really lose her.

He didn't want to let go of the small house in Longmen Lower City, he didn't want to let go of the fox who had been waiting for him for many years, and he didn't want to let go of the fact that he would really disappear into her world this time and never come back.

Chen Mo was really reluctant to give up.

What I really regret is that I am about to leave this world 20 years after I came to this world. I regret that I still have so many regrets that I have not been able to realize, and I regret that I am reluctant to part with the familiar faces in my memory.

Will one day, he closes his eyes and just...disappears into thin air?

It turns out that for Chen Mo, death is no longer a relief.

It turns out that for Chen Mo, there are so many things in life that surpass his fear of death.

It turns out that life instinctively desires to live.

Finally one day, before he discovered it, his soul had already found its own destination in this strange land.

So of course he will do his best for this without any regrets.

In the end, he failed to become the person his mother wanted him to be.

Chapter 68 Life and death have their own destiny

Longmenxiacheng District

High Street Zhihe Road

"Ah, I know this. I don't want to live in the shadow of my elders. I want to work hard to prove that I can achieve success without relying on Commander Wei, right? It's really enviable."

Fox's words were taken for granted. The bright sunshine in the morning fell on her shoulders through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the balcony. She reached out and put out the cigarette on her fingertips in the cigarette bowl on the table.

Chen's expression turned ugly.

She opened her mouth to retort, but saw the frivolity in the fox's eyes when he looked up at her.

The words stood on his lips.

Chen suddenly understood that this hateful woman was deliberately using these words to stimulate herself. She wanted to see her reaction, like a spectator waiting for the start of an interesting drama.

Chen thought angrily, she was not happy to let the fox's idea come true.

She didn't like foxes. Firstly, she didn't like the unclear relationship between foxes and Chen Mo. Secondly, she found that she couldn't understand this Wolper. She couldn't understand Su Li, let alone what kind of person she was. people.

Intuition told Chen that the fox was right. Maybe he had really thought about this in his heart, and wanted to impress that person, as if to prove that even without him, he was still himself.

It's just that Chen didn't want to admit it in front of this person who was inextricably related to Chen Mo.

"not talking?"

Chen didn't speak for a long time, but the fox was unwilling to let her go just like that.

"I have nothing to say to you."

"There's nothing to say, after all, we're not very familiar with each other. You just made a lot of lofty words, now you've finished what you need to say."

"What do you mean?" Chen's voice was cold.

"It's not interesting." Fox shook her head. She crossed her legs and leaned back slightly on the sofa, looking at Chen Huijie who was sitting opposite and wearing an ill-fitting shirt.

But Chen felt that her last sentence meant that Sang scolded Huai.

The house was quiet again.

The fox's eyes fell on Chen, then moved away slightly, looking out the window at the small flower bed. The watering can fell on the small flower stand beside it. In the winter, it was a decadent and withered yellow-green.

"You have to be careful, Mr. Chen Daguan." She suddenly said: "Longmen is not as easy as you think. The Longmen you see is not the same city as the Longmen I see, so do you think Longmen treats you badly?" There is a lot of warmth, but people like us are different and we don’t expect anything from this city.”

"Us?" Chen frowned and asked.

"Me and...someone, there are many besides, you have been to the slums, you should know what it is like there and what kind of life they live, but what I want to remind you is, you see What you have arrived at is just the most insignificant microcosm of the lower level of Longmen." The fox said: "In this city, if you want to survive, if you want to live well, you have to climb up desperately. This is doomed to have many The same things, the things you don't want to see, happen over and over again."

"Exaggerated words, alarmist." Chen didn't take it seriously.

The fox didn't care.

She smiled, feeling a little regretful: "Oh my, I didn't scare you. Is it because I didn't act like enough?"

"You just like to show off." Chen raised his eyebrows.

"You should tell me why there are so many people in this Longmen City who like to pretend to be alive. I am just one of them."

The fox replied indifferently.

In Chen's eyes, she seemed to be saying, there are so many people who make mistakes, and I'm just one of them.

This is one of Wolper's usual tactics, which seems to make sense, but is unacceptable.

The fox folded her hands, and the morning sun fell on her. She closed her eyes slightly in the warm sunshine and changed into a more comfortable position.

"Remember to return the clothes you are wearing to me when you are done with them." She said suddenly.

Chen was stunned for a moment.

He looked down at the loose shirt he was wearing.

"I can give it back to you. You have to tell me everything you know first."

"I know a lot of things, which one are you asking about?" Fox picked out her ears. She leaned on the sofa, looked at Chen, and took back her hands to support her head.

The fox ears with orange hair twitched, and the furry tail behind him hung on the edge of the sofa.

Chen sat upright, with integrity written all over her serious face. That integrity made the sunlight falling on her look dim, and it was so dazzling in the eyes of foxes.

Fox couldn't tell if he really envied her.

I envy her for being such a righteous fool who deserves good things to happen to her. I envy her for having things in her that people like me can no longer choose.

If given a choice, no one really wants to be a bad person, but it is not easy for a good person to live, but there are many things in this world that if you don't dye your hands black, you will never have the chance to achieve them.

But people usually can't look back, just like those gang thugs and mazi in the downtown area. Looking back no longer means letting go. Who can really let go regardless of the relationship, and who can downplay what they have done. Everything can be brushed aside with just one sentence saying it has nothing to do with it.

"I said everything. If you didn't hear clearly, I'll say it again, as much as I want."

"...You are not afraid that I will lie to you."

"How often do you talk nonsense?"

"Hmph." Fox was a little surprised. She snorted softly and looked at the confident Chen Huijie in front of her.

Looking at the pair of horns on her head, under the loose blue hair, she looked at the calm and somewhat righteous face.

"Anyway, even if I tell you, you must check it out yourself. Why bother with it, Miss Chen." The fox replied: "Actually, you know it yourself, even if you really find out what happened before. What's the point? Is it possible that you can go back in time and prevent them from happening? If you miss it, you have missed it, and there is no way you can come back."

"That has nothing to do with you!"

"That's very good. Then don't ask me. I'm not happy to talk to you about this." Fox clapped his hands and said, paused, then blinked unkindly and suggested: "You can ask Chief Wei in person, although I I think it’s unlikely that he will answer you, but you can give it a try.”

"Ah……"

Chen sneered and looked away.

Of course she would go to Wei Yanwu, but not now. She would go to the Chief Executive's Office on the top of the tall building after personally proving to Wei Yanwu that her ideas were correct.

The atmosphere became dull again.

In the dull moment, the fox closed his eyes and seemed to be asleep. Only Chen was left thinking about the cases he had encountered in the past few days. He was alienated from the causes and consequences, and he couldn't help but notice the ill-fitting clothes on his body, so when he saw the person sleeping in front of him, After the fox, Chen felt a little itchy.

There's a knock on the door【>

Star Bear came at the wrong time.

Chen, who followed the sound and looked over, saw Xingxiong standing in front of the iron gate. His tall figure came into view, holding a package brought back from the dry cleaners.

Brief surprise.

Combining the previous conversation with Wolper, Chen quickly understood the reason why Xingxiong appeared here.

She didn't stay long, and without even saying goodbye to the sleeping Wolper, she hurriedly left with Xing Xiong.

The fox opened his eyes and watched the two figures disappear at the top of the stairs.

"You two are exactly the same in terms of being inhumane."

She murmured, not knowing who she was thinking of. There was a bit of sadness in her eyes, and as time passed, she gradually calmed down.

Just lazily close your eyes.

Inhumane, Chen Mo hasn't heard anyone use this word to call him for a long time.

Things went much smoother than Chen Mo imagined, although in these three days, Chen Mo seemed to have returned to the days he was familiar with in Kazdale.

Although he said no, Mudrock still put the report in his dormitory. What really surprised Chen Mo was that he saw the little Custer on the Rhode Island, and also met the doctor and Kai Elsie.

Just like Theresia said, this ship will leave Kazdaele from here. As for where it will go and what it will do in the future, only the people on Rhode Island know, and they who stay behind People cannot set out together.

Kelsey still looked cold, as if few things could arouse her emotions anymore. Even though she briefly met Chen Mo on Rhode Island, she was not surprised by Chen Mo's appearance.

Chen Mo didn't think about how to meet Ms. Kelsey again. In fact, he had hardly seen Kelsey since he went to Gray. He remembered that back then, his life and death were in Kelsey's hands, so No matter what happened later, to Chen Mo, Kelsey was always the person he was not very good at dealing with.