Use My Life For Your Happiness

Lin Xia said those words, let my heart suffocate, don't know how to answer, then said: "I don't want to talk to you now."

"It doesn't matter. I've always said that I'll set you free. Your heart has never been in this family. You can call me to ask me about many things, but you don't. Chihiro, am I still your husband? As soon as I'm on a business trip, you'll accompany the person you like, Chihiro. You're going to pick me up on purpose, and you don't break my lies. Do you think I feel guilty and won't mention these again? " His voice became louder and louder, and his anger became more and more intense.

I have a headache. I really don't want to hear it.

I don't want to argue with him. I don't want to make him angry.

It turns out that taking a few steps back is not righteousness, but indifference.

I thought that we should not care about anything if we delete a lot of things, and we should live a good life. It turns out that many things have already had problems. Ji Xiaobei and I were in the hospital. It was just a fuse. We dug out a lot of things buried and had a good sun. It hurt.

Love and trust, after all, are really different.

The word "divorce" never came out of Lin Xia's mouth. They were not very surprised, or they all realized that it might happen. No matter whether Ji Xiaobei came back or not, no matter what, we are not forever.

I married him. Before marriage, he loved me so much that he could sacrifice everything for me. But after marriage, maybe he would have more expectation. He would want me to pay for the love he gave me.

I have read a book. It says that when there is expectation, the more I think about it. If there is no return, I will be extremely disappointed or even angry.

Maybe Lin Xia, this is the symptom now.

The moment he said it, he also regretted it.

I don't want to guess, a marriage, if there is no two people in love, really not so easy.

I always think it's better not to point out many things. He is the same to me.

In fact, the heart, long buried the seeds of complaint.

I took Lin Yu to play in a small park. He was digging sand with tools. He was very happy. Occasionally, he would look back to see if I was there. When I looked at him and laughed, he would call to me sweetly: "Mommy."

Give him the soaked milk: "drink some milk before you play."

He held the bottle in his hands and sucked it hard. He looked up at me while sucking. After a while, a bottle of milk made him drink ZZ loud. I applauded: "Xiaoyu is so good, all finished."

He raised his hand and gave me the bottle with a proud smile.

I took out the paper towel to wipe his sweat, and he continued to play.

Sitting on the wooden chair, sighing long, if life can always be the same, how good, can always be a child, that's better, never worry.

I used to enjoy too much happiness, so long stool has not been as I like.

A strange phone call came in, I have a feeling, may be Ji Xiaobei.

But why not? He and I didn't know what happened. And it doesn't cross any moral line. Even the opposite sex can't have more contact and talk after marriage?

For what? Even if I love you, I won't hurt myself like this.

"Hello."

"Mo Qianxun, I'm Ji Xiaobei."

"What's the matter?" Sure enough, it's him.

Listen to his voice, think it will be a comfort, will let the bad mood, slowly get better.

"If you're free, I'll invite you to dinner. It's a delicious private restaurant."

"I'm taking the kids."

There was silence for a while, and then he said with a smile, "you have a better cold."

"Yes."

"Listen to your voice, it sounds much better than the first two days. Come out, you can fish here, enjoy the lotus, look at the autumn maple and pine trees. You can't find a good place. Bring your children here for dinner. I'm sure you'll like it here. "

"You pull it, what season, and lotus?"

"If you come to see me, you will know if I'm pulling. It's not a good place. Can I find out? In a word, come or not. "

Tempt me, but I can't tempt now. I said decidedly, "don't go."

"Why, no guts. Just have a meal. "

It's not the time to use less provocation.

"Hang up, don't chat with you, don't call me, I'm not familiar with you."

Then he laughed: "in the park, I heard a lot of children's laughter. Hey, moqianxun, I suggest you look around to see if there are any erhu artists. They know you silly girl."

I poof a smile, look around: "too lazy to tell you."

"There's a garden on Xianghe road in the suburbs. It's very nice to grow a lot of sea taros. If you like to go and have a look, you can definitely choose what you like."

"I don't want to talk to you. 88。”

Hung up the phone, Xiaoyu ran to me and called, "Mommy, I want to sleep."

"Well, let's go back."

"Well."

He still didn't know that I had a fight with Lin Xia. As soon as he got home, he yelled, "Daddy, daddy."

It's quiet inside. He doesn't seem to be there.

Xiaoyu was very disappointed. He ran to the bedroom and then to the study. Then he asked me, "Mommy, where's daddy?"

I don't know. The baby sitter came out and said, "Mrs. Lin, Mr. Lin just went out."

"Well."

Let her take Xiaoyu to bed. There are several dishes in the dining room. After the baby sitter has eaten, no one will move again.

Back to the bedroom want to take a nap, Lin Xia's message sent in.

Only said: "Chihiro, you and Xiaoyu to settle in the United States."

What do you mean? I've thought about it for a long time. I don't think my brain is very smart. I can't figure out these things.

The next day I went to work in the hotel. Ji Xiaobei also moved out of the hotel because of my leave, but there was already someone in the VIP room. He asked the manager, who asked me to go to the front desk on the first floor for an internship.

I am very busy in the morning. Probation means a lot of things to do. The lobby manager on the first floor will tell me to do everything.

Lunch time is also very later, Lin Xia sent a message: "what's your opinion?"

Still want me to go to the United States, I am a little angry, simply returned a message to him: "why do you want me to go, I will not go."

My roots are all here. I was born here and grew up here. My parents are also buried here. I am familiar with everything here. Why should I leave.

If you don't believe me, will you believe me when you come to America?

He didn't have any more information to give me. When I got off work later, nanny and Xiaoyu were waiting for me to come back from work. Xiaoyu was so wronged that he wanted to cry: "Mommy, I miss you so much. Mommy, I'm hungry."

"Xiaoyu, he doesn't want to drink milk, and I can't cook." The baby sitter had some awkward explanations.

"It doesn't matter. If you are hungry next time, you can take him out to eat. Just tell me the cost of your food, and I will make it up for you."

"Yes, Mrs. Lin."

This nanny is the professional nanny Lin Xia asked to take care of the children, but she is only responsible for taking care of the children, and she will not do anything more. There is a contract at the beginning.

The nanny's salary may be higher than that of me, but these things have been done by Lin Xia all the time.

When he is away, he always feels that many things will become laborious.

I took them to eat outside first, then I went to buy vegetables, stewed chicken soup, and then made some food for Xiaoyu.

After everything, I went to the study. Lin Xia's laptop moved away, and I was the only one left there alone.

Turned on the computer, on the QQ, is still a quiet, my friend, too few pitiful.

Lin Xia's QQ signature changed: do not want to return.

I smile bitterly, turn off the computer and go to sleep.

I have to get up in the morning to make food for Xiaoyu. I just hope he ma can come back soon. Put the rice noodles in a bowl and chicken soup in a small pot and tell the nanny, "when it's hot at noon, you can put the rice noodles down and cook it for about three minutes."

"Well, good."

"I've fried some dishes. You can heat them in the microwave for a while. Does the microwave oven work? "

"I didn't cook." She said.

"Forget it. I'll call the takeout at noon. Don't touch anything. I'll feed Xiaoyu first."

"Yes."

"Xiaoyu, mummy is at work. Come and kiss mummy."

He hugged me to kiss me, but he didn't ask me to take him.

"If you eat my sister, there are some crisps in the refrigerator. If you want to eat, ask my sister to bring them for you."

He waved goodbye and gave me a kiss.

Mood becomes better, go to work to be full of spirit, and smile service.

Along with the beautiful mm at the front desk, she has to enter the order, issue the order, collect the change, and all kinds of room service have to transfer, wake up, remind and so on.

The phone kept calling, so I had to borrow a gap to go to the bathroom.

It was aunt Fang. I took a deep breath and called softly, "Mom."

"Chihiro, where's Xiaoyu?" She asked as soon as she spoke.

"He's at home."

"Who cooks for him?"

"I ordered takeout. These days, he ma has gone back to her hometown. There is a nanny watching. It's OK. "

"Are you and Lin Xia going to divorce?"

She said so straightforward, I do not know how to answer.

Divorce, I really didn't think about it.

"Xiaoyu is our Lin family's child. I don't care about you, but you should never hurt your child. You have the ability to do so. How well Lin Xia's self-cultivation is forcing you to do so. Whether you are away or not, Xiaoyu is always Lin's, you have to remember that

"Ma." I let out a cry of displeasure.

She said very strongly: "I will send someone to Xiaoyu. You must not take good care of her."

"I'll take care of my own child."

"Even your own affairs are in a mess. You said you could take good care of him. Xiaoyu has already got on the bus and called to tell you. It's also a respect for you. I'm still busy, that's all."

Didi's voice was still ringing. I raised my foot and kicked the door hard, but it hurt me a lot.

I don't know. Lin's acceptance of me depends on Lin Xia's face and Xiao Yu's face.

I always thought that I was so unimportant.

The child is Lin Xia's, but it's also mine. Why do you want this, just because I'm weak? If my parents are here, how can you bully me like this.

Tears of resentment and grievance slide down together.

I raised my hand to erase it, but the more I wiped it.

Lin Xia, you don't want to go back, do you? I don't want to go back either. If I want to get a divorce, I'll do it. Why don't I.

It's hard to cry. I still haven't forgotten. It's working time.

After all, their own family affairs are closed.

No matter how sad you are, you should respect such a job, because you are still holding such a salary. You are crying, angry and resentful in your heart, but you are still smiling.

The eye is a little swollen, anyone can see it.

Mom and Dad, if you are here, how nice, even if it's ordinary, I have a place to cry, and someone will comfort me and hug me.

Back home is empty, no sound, no breath, no fireworks, no lights, if I was forgotten by this city, discard in general.

Sitting on the floor powerlessly, my mobile phone is as quiet as I am. No voice, no one to look for, no one to need.

Sometimes I hate myself. I always live like this. One step forward is happiness, and one step back is nothing.

Is the feeling in your heart that important? Lin Xia is good to me, who doesn't say?

Why can't you cheat him, say I love him, can't wantonly with him coquetry, sometimes cheat, is also kind.

But I really can't convince myself, I can't do that.

Even if I have nothing now and the child is taken away by the Lin family, he will leave. I still don't want to call him and tell him that I have decided to settle in the United States.

Why do you want to leave? You don't want to leave, and I don't want to leave either. In fact, it's not suitable for us. If you want to transform me into your wife, it's probably not me.

Go out to smoke, eat alone, watch TV and sleep.

Also forget who said I was, a very stubborn and stubborn person.