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Chapter 23 Breaking Up "Happy"

I cried all night and woke up the next day with my eyes swollen like walnuts.

He went to work, and as soon as he left, I called home, and I told my mother firmly: "I want to divorce Xinbao. This time, none of you should try to persuade me, I've made up my mind."

My mother was taken aback for a moment, and then began to persuade me earnestly: "Feifei, calm down when things happen. What happened? Tell mom, don't be so impulsive, and you have to figure out your situation yourself. You are already a second child." Married, if you divorce again, do you know what others will think of you in the future? You can't..."

"Don't talk about it! Second marriage, second marriage, I know I'm a second marriage! At worst, I won't marry from now on, can't I? Even if no one asks for it from now on, I won't be able to marry again. I want a divorce too!" I interrupted my mother, not wanting to hear her use the same rhetoric to persuade me every time, as I spoke, tears welled up in my eyes, and I continued to shout into the phone in a crying voice:
"He cheated into marriage when he was sick, and married me without telling his parents or you. I should have expected that he had problems with his character and was not worth entrusting to him for life. In the past three years, I have always kept my wife's responsibility. I never left him when he was sick. If I had changed to another woman, I would have run away with other men long ago. I was the only fool like me. How much money we spent on him, how much painstaking effort, how much emotion we invested, how much painful price we paid, others don’t know, don’t you know?” Mom stopped talking, and she just listened silently over there. Then, I became more and more excited as I said:
"On weekdays, if there is something delicious at home, you are reluctant to eat it yourself. You keep it for this animal to eat. He eats it up every time and doesn't leave me a star. After his operation, if he still can't do it, you give it back to him. Spend money to find a physical therapist and find folk remedies for him. But what about him? I had an acute gastroenteritis attack yesterday, and he said he had no money, so he gave up on treating me. There is still one thousand left to say that I will be paid soon after the end of the month, but I didn’t expect to get sick suddenly. I am really chilled, with his tone, if I don’t have my family to save me, my health has been so poor in recent years, I'm afraid I don't know how many times I've died. To put it bluntly, I just had a small illness, and it can be done with one or two thousand dollars. If I got a serious illness, without you, he wouldn't treat me at all , will you just watch me die?! With such a man, how can I expect to be happy with him for the rest of my life?"

Seeing that I had made up my mind, my mother stopped persuading me.This was the only time she didn't object or support it. In a disguised form, she agreed to my decision to divorce. She only said one sentence: "Just make up your mind and don't regret it."

Before I quarreled with Xinbao, I also mentioned divorce. When I mentioned divorce, his parents tried to comfort me in various ways. Every time I saw tears in the kind and expectant eyes of both parents, my heart softened. When we grow up, they have paid too much for us. Once the marriage dissolves, the blow and harm to them will be too great.Every time I mention divorce, my mother also firmly disagrees in various ways, saying that if I get a second marriage, if I get divorced again, my life may really be over.

But I didn't believe in this evil. At that time, a voice kept shouting in my heart: You don't live for your parents, you live for yourself.Even if fate gave me scars and hardships in my marriage, I would not just accept my fate like this.

Now, every time I think of this relationship with Xinbao, I still feel anxious.

Human nature is inherently realistic. Maybe he chose me at the time because he thought my family was better off than his and could help him financially. The more important one was because I was a "second marriage".Although he didn't say it, he might be thinking in his heart: You are a second-married girl, if you meet someone with a physical defect like me, you should just admit it and make do with it.What else can you make a fuss about?

He counted my weakness as: a divorced woman who finally remarried, dared not and could not easily choose to divorce again.After all, if there is another divorce, the cost will be too high and the price will be too high.He predicted that I would not dare to divorce easily.

But he miscalculated.He never expected that I would be the kind of woman who "would rather be broken than whole".

I really made up my mind at that time, and I told myself that even if I can't find a good man for the rest of my life and can only live alone, I will divorce this marriage.I, Cheng Yifei, behaved rightly, sat upright, and did not feel sorry for any man emotionally. Being a wife is really enough for me. Divorce is not my fault, it is not my fault, why should I Do you want to take the happiness of your own life and carry this "cross" for the whole life of the person who made a mistake?
A man who knows that he has a physical disease but does not confess it, and deliberately "deceives marriage", a man who only knows to ask for love and "material benefits" from others in front of a "parasite", and he does not want to pay anything for his family and his other half , why continue to enjoy my selfless love and dedication?
After all, the acute gastroenteritis came and went quickly. When I returned to my hometown, my stepfather, who is a doctor, gave me an IV for two days, and then I took some oral medicine.

After my body recovered, I decisively moved out of the garage, went out and rented another house by myself, with the only purpose of getting out of his sight.I filed divorce proceedings in court the day after I moved without any delay or hesitation.

In order to save money, I rented a small room with a monthly rent of only 200 yuan. That small room was originally the bathroom of the landlord’s house.In order to earn more money, the landlord converted one of the two bathrooms into a small room.The room is very small, only a small bed and a small coffee table can be put down.Every night I fall asleep listening to the sound of the tick-tock toilet flushing upstairs and downstairs...

Soon the parents of both sides found out about this, and they probably gave him family ideological and political lessons behind my back. He, who has always been indifferent to me, began to rush to my company door to block me, saying that he would pick me up with him in the future. get off work.After seeing me, he still greeted me warmly, changed his previous indifference, and said that he would take good care of me in the future and would not let me be wronged again.

It's a pity that such concern is pretended, not from the heart.

It was winter and it was near the end of the year. After working in his new unit for a month, he finally got paid. He bought himself three winter coats and put them in the trunk of his electric car. I saw them, and I said: " Congratulations, I haven't been paid for a long time. I bought several new clothes for myself, which are very good, do you want to buy me a dress too?"

I have been with him for three years, but he never bought me a decent dress. He said he wanted to change his attitude towards me, so I deliberately tried to see if he was sincere. Unfortunately, how can a person who is selfish in his bones change suddenly? As usual, he hurriedly refused without thinking too much: "I don't have the money to buy it for you. You make so much money yourself. You are rich, so you can buy it yourself."

I couldn't laugh or cry, I already had the answer in my heart, I bought new clothes for myself as soon as I had money, and I bought three sets as soon as I bought it, but I didn't want to warm my wife's heart, and bought something for her.For women, even if you only buy me a small gift of 200 yuan and use it to coax me, I will be very happy.However, three years of constant companionship can never be exchanged for a true relationship of "sharing difficulties and sharing blessings".

As people often say, if you have a dog for a long time, it will wag its tail at you.Sometimes the human heart is not grateful at all, but only knows how to take. Sometimes it is really not as good as an animal. From the beginning, people who only think about taking from their marriage and their other half have never thought about it. pay something.

After that, he came to block me at the door of the company again, and I no longer asked the lady at the front desk to let him in.

The girl at the front desk was my sister who was very close to me in the company at the time. I briefly told her about my relationship with him. I said that I had made up my mind to divorce him, and she protected me and never let him in again. .

They all thought that I had no nostalgia for this relationship. No one knew that I still had too much reluctance for him in my heart. When I was alone, when I thought of being "stranger" with him from now on, I would cry until I couldn't help it , but I will never look back, I will not allow myself to look back.Because I have seen through his heart for me, there is no trace of true love living there, and I have also seen clearly that there is no "tomorrow" for me to be with him, and it is better to live alone.

If I didn't really like him at the beginning, why would I have to grit my teeth and wait for him for three years? If it wasn't for him abandoning me when I needed him most, I couldn't see the slightest responsibility of a man and the kindness of humanity. It made me feel completely chilled. I might still wait foolishly and insist on staying with him to guard this marriage and the good wishes of the whole family.

I can sacrifice my "sexual happiness" for love. I even told my mother that as long as he is sincere to me, when the family's financial situation improves, we can do test-tube babies or adopt a child. I don't care. I can make concessions, but I can't ignore that my other half doesn't have any sincere feelings for me. When I'm sick, he can be irresponsible, abandon me, and give up helping me with treatment. It doesn't make any sense to persist in such a marriage. I have been devastated and tortured physically and mentally for a long time, making me completely unable to see any joy and hope in life.

He later agreed to divorce by agreement, but he disagreed with the clause that each person will get half of the proceeds after the sale of the house.

During the time when I was preparing to sign the agreement, any text messages from me, as long as they mentioned the past relationship and various relationships, he turned a blind eye. Whenever he texted me back, he talked about money with me. The time to meet and sign the agreement has been delayed.

The main reason he dragged me was because he wanted to get a little more money.Because it will be impossible to sell the house for a while, so if the house belongs to me, I will pay him, and if the house belongs to him, he will pay me.The final result of the negotiation was that the house belonged to him, and he gave me the part of the money that belonged to me.The house was originally bought by me and his family with joint investment. The name of the two of us was written in black and white on the real estate certificate. After divorce, one person should be half, but he said that he has no money, and his parents don’t have much money, so he needs to pay less. million to my home.

Such a request is extremely unfair and unreasonable to me, but my mother wants to agree.I told my mother that he knew about his physical condition early in the morning and deliberately concealed it, which is already a fraudulent marriage.I think his family's financial conditions are poor. Fortunately, his parents also helped me save me after my pregnancy accident. They didn't ask him for any more financial compensation. They have done their best.He still has the nerve to turn around with the cheek to make our family give so much more money?

I didn't agree with his conditions, so he kept procrastinating and refusing to sign the agreement.Every time I said I wanted to see you, I would be let off again when we met.

In the end, my mother compromised with their family and kept persuading me to look away, saying that after all it was you who wanted to leave and they refused to leave. If the court went through the procedure and he insisted that he still had feelings for you and was unwilling to leave, it would be another A long round of tossing and waiting, if you want to get rid of it as soon as possible, we can only suffer a little.

The two marriages, if they hadn't encountered major conflicts of principle, were forced to be desperate, and conservative like me, they would definitely not have chosen to end in divorce.But fate has no established script, it will not arrange your marriage according to what you want.

I never believed in the secular materialist theory that "money can turn ghosts into millstones", but after experiencing these two failed and tragic marriages, I have completely seen the ugly side of human nature in front of money and interests. In front of some mercenary villains, it is completely just a transaction in the name of love.

In the end, I didn't ask for a house, and I agreed to take [-] less.After getting such a promise, he rushed to the Civil Affairs Bureau and signed a divorce agreement with me.

On the day the agreement was signed, he took a look at the agreement. It was clearly stated in the agreement that the man suffered from a serious physical illness before marriage and deliberately concealed it. After marriage, he could not heal for a long time, and the two had different personalities. Seeing this line, he asked to remove the words "physical disease" out of concern for his man's face. Unexpectedly, he knew he was wrong, so he didn't say a word about it. He only paid attention to the part of property division after marriage and asked the staff With a few small questions, he signed the agreement without thinking.

The agreement went smoothly, and because the two parties had negotiated the conditions in advance, there was no delay in the slightest.

The moment he left the administrative center, he took the first step to hail a "taxi" without asking us to sit together, and prepared to get in the car. I saw that there was nothing wrong with it, as it should have been, and since then he Follow his sunny path, I cross my single-plank bridge, we have nothing to do with each other.

As a result, he suddenly turned back, called my mother, and said to her: "Mom, you can still contact the physical therapist you found for me in my hometown here? You can help me buy more from his home." medicine."

My mother said: "Xinbao, I have always loved you as a son, and I always think of you first if there is anything delicious or useful. If you are sick, I will help you find out about the folk remedies for treatment. I will buy the prescription for you. But now that you are divorced, I have no obligation to continue to buy medicine for you.”

He was speechless, and resentfully got on the "taxi" again, and walked away...

After he left, I didn't cry, but my mother cried on the way back.

My mother said: "Why is this child totally ungrateful? Over the years, I have devoted so much effort and money to help him heal his illness. I am closer to him than my own son. He really never said a word of thanks to me from the beginning to the end."

I said: "Mom, don't be sad. We have already paid too much for him. No matter what the relationship is, the more you invest too much in a person, the harder it is to give up, the harder it is to give up, the more you want to continue to invest More, but in the end, I still have to face the failure of the whole line of collapse, which is unavoidable. I have figured it out a long time ago, we can only stop the loss immediately, so as not to cause a greater tragedy. Don't be too sad for a white-eyed wolf, It's useless, he won't appreciate your kindness. He only has money and his own interests in his eyes, without you and me."

I know very well in my heart that a giant baby who is used to having a wife, mother-in-law, and his own parents as backers for everything has already taken our love and care for him for granted, and he will not take into account everything we have paid for him in the past three years Grace, on the day he gave up on treating me and drove me home by electric car, allowing me to "recover" at home, I had seen through this man's heart.

After they separated, they blocked all the contact information of each other, so that they were different from each other.We are the most qualified predecessors in each other's world, and we never talked about our original relationship.

After crying secretly at home for two days, I ordered myself to let go completely, not to shed another tear for him.

But in the first two years of separation, when I dreamed back at midnight, I still dreamed of being with him several times inexplicably, as if the two hadn't divorced at all, and when I woke up, I found that my tears had already wet the pillow.It was only then that I realized that in this marriage, I had poured too much affection into him, and what I finally got was the cruel reality that I had never been truly loved. Only I knew how deeply my heart was hurt.

(End of this chapter)