Natural beauty, inspirational nature

Chapter 24 A New Beginning
The pain and humiliation of being "deceived" has always shrouded my heart like a shadow, so that in the future, when I encounter the opposite sex approaching, I will always subconsciously remind myself to stay rational wide awake.

I always remember that there is an old saying that "there are no more than three things". I warned myself: a person cannot fall three times in a similar pit. Falling once is a mistake, falling twice is a fool, falling three times is an idiot One!

With a deep lesson of blood and tears, I left the city that made me sad. I told my family that I was going to develop in another city, forget the past and start again.

I did what I said. I came to Nanjing, a city that was completely unfamiliar to me. I interviewed seven companies within a week, and chose a company with a decent salary, and worked steadily in this city. In four years, I started as an ordinary designer, gradually grew up with my talent and my own efforts, and was promoted to planning director
I clearly remember that the first year I came, it happened to be spring there.

The company arranges accommodation for employees. In an old community, the company rents an old house for employees.Old streets, old alleys, old houses, but to me, everything is "new", because here I am about to start my new job, new life, and new life.

When I wake up in the morning and come out of the dormitory, I can see the rows of tall and strong sycamore trees on the side of the main road, and the green sprouts quietly emerging from the branches.

Seeing the morning light shine on my face gently and gently through the gaps in the green leaves, my whole body feels bright, and my mood is also full of joy.According to legend, the "Phoenix" as the king of all birds is not a sycamore tree. I know that from then on I no longer belong to others, I only belong to myself.I will not enter into marriage easily again, and I will not marry unless I am a "beautiful person".

Because I had several stones, I put forward new requirements for my body, that is, I hope it can guarantee a certain amount of "water intake" every day, and it can no longer calm down, but must "move".

I require myself to exercise no less than four times a week, and try running, playing ball, and aerobics one by one.

Coincidentally, the company encourages employees to pay attention to personal health, so every day after the lunch break, the leaders of various departments will lead everyone to dance "health exercises". At first, it was troublesome, but then gradually fell in love with this healthy exercise way of exercise.Everyone gathered together to dance "Genghis Khan" and "Little Apple", which was a lot of fun.While stretching the body and exercising the muscles and bones in the sound of music, being infected by the music, I feel that life is suddenly brightened, and I can't help but be full of positive energy when I am working.

After get off work, seeing the aunts dancing in the square on the side of the road, I couldn't help but want to participate in it, and "dancing" with them.Not only that, when I was running in the gym, I saw the exotic and graceful figure of the belly dance teacher in the dance studio, and I liked it very much, so I fell in love with "belly dance" out of control.

I have a plump and round figure and a slightly small belly, so I am very suitable for belly dancing. Gradually, I am fascinated by this kind of dance that can make fat girls become charming. As long as there is a belly dance teacher’s class, I will take it Learn without landing.

The female colleagues in the company were infected by me, and they all said that they would go to a belly dance class with me to experience it.When I was wearing a red dance dress, slightly showing my sexy belly, and dancing to the music, they exclaimed: Oh my God, Feifei, you are so beautiful, the way you dance is so charming.

At that time, I understood a truth. Only when a person knows how to love himself and becomes beautiful, others will be attracted to you, and they may fall in love with you.Colleagues are very envious of my colorful life, and asked me curiously: How do you manage to balance work and life?I answered them with only two words, that is: self-discipline.

When I am resting, I will enjoy the joys of life and experience the beauty to the fullest.When I work in the same way, I will work hard and devote myself wholeheartedly.I seldom gossiping and wasting time at work, every minute of my time is to ensure high efficiency.

As for work, I always finish on the same day and never procrastinate.I generally don’t need to work overtime, because I have already finished what I should do during working hours. If I have to work overtime to do a project in a hurry, I will not be bored, but will maintain a state of enthusiasm and excitement.

Others feel bitter when they work overtime, and they are unwilling, but I regard every major project challenge as a mountain that must be climbed in my life. Every time I climb to the "top" of a mountain, I feel It is a good opportunity for me to contribute to my dream and accumulate career experience, and it is also a "glory moment" for me to realize my self-worth.

I remember that once the company took us to BJ to hold a new product launch conference. In the middle of the night, the company couldn’t find a professional writer, so they called me up temporarily and asked me to write the press releases that the major media needed after the press conference the next day. .

I have never written a media release, and I was stunned when I received the task, but I did not refuse the task. I immediately searched the Internet and referred to some basic formats of the release, combined with the actual situation of the company and new products. , wrote the newsletter.

Because I have been involved in the whole process from research and development to molding, from molding to packaging design of new products, so there is no suspense that I have completed this task very well.

But after all, I am not a professional. I thought that the media would edit it for me and publish it. As a result, the editors of the major media praised me for my good writing. They directly signed their media name on the basis of my manuscript and officially released it. The words have not been changed.

The boss said with relief: I did not choose the wrong talent at the beginning.Cheng Yifei can always bring you unexpected surprises.

No one is born a "professional expert", even an experienced expert in the workplace is a novice who starts from scratch.There will be many "firsts" in life. Only by daring to keep trying and challenging the "impossible" can you turn "can't" into "can" and "impossible" into "doable".

My writing talent also began to emerge slowly in Nanjing.

In those two years, WeChat gradually became popular. First, young people applied for a WeChat account manually, and then even my mother, auntie and other elderly people joined the wave of WeChat and began to chat and share their lives through WeChat.

The biggest advantage of WeChat for work is that many work groups of different natures can be established, and everyone in the group discusses work in groups for different project affairs.

WeChat has had an interesting humanistic impact on the food culture. In the past, when people ate delicious food, they must sit down and eat it happily. Now when everyone sees delicious food, the first thing to do is not to eat it quickly, but to "catch it in a hurry" "Let the beauty camera eat first, and then upload it to Moments to share with everyone as soon as possible.

What's even more exaggerated is that many people encounter unlucky things, and they don't frown and think about countermeasures at the first time, but take pictures and share them on Moments without rushing. ——

This is a strange but slightly funny social phenomenon, but looking at the essence through this phenomenon, it is also a symbol of the progress of social civilization. With the advancement of science and technology, people's living standards have been greatly improved, and people are becoming more and more integrated into In the new world of "Internet", I like to share the interesting news and anecdotes around me through radio waves.Even worries and worries are transmitted and dispersed through radio waves. The moment they are sent out, to a certain extent, the psychological pressure on the self on the real level is relieved.

From then on, I also liked to share my various joys, sorrows and sorrows about work and life in the circle of friends on WeChat. My circle of friends basically wrote "talks" full of positive energy, even if I encountered negative energy. , I can always dig out the positive and optimistic side.Over time, I didn't even know that there are many colleagues and friends who love to read the words written in my circle of friends.

Occasionally, I set the display status of Moments to "Only visible for three days", and they would anxiously chat with me privately, asking me why I was not open, and said to me: Feifei, why can't I see your Moments?I have fallen in love with the "chicken soup for the soul" that you PO every day, just like you.

I laughed out loud after hearing this, and I, who had resumed my single life, finally saw the sun through the clouds and mists, and gradually found my sunny and cheerful self.

But regarding my past marriage and love history, I have always been tight-lipped.When others asked, I simply said that I was divorced and currently single.

I have never talked about those sad pasts in detail to any of my colleagues or friends.Because I feel that the past is over, and it is suitable to be dusty. It was not until I met my deskmate in elementary school in Nanjing that I accidentally chatted about these two past relationship experiences.

My deskmate has always been a good-looking little boy in my memory, but when I was a child, I was ignorant of the gender boundaries of "the difference between men and women", and the two little boys often drew "[-] lines" on the desk with each other Show that your territory is inviolable.

He heard that I was also developing in Nanjing, so he said that he must find time to invite me, an old classmate, to dinner.Having not seen him for more than ten years, he has already become the backbone of the leadership of the well-known enterprise HW Company, worth tens of millions.Before I met him, I was still imagining in my mind that when the little handsome guy grows up, he must become a tall and handsome middle-aged uncle.

In the end, when we arrived at the place where we agreed to eat, to our surprise, I saw a very rich and short man beckoning to me from a distance. Standing together, they are a head taller than him.

My deskmate has beautiful eyes. Although he is a boy, he has big eyes that flicker like a Barbie doll, so I recognized him at a glance when he was fatter, and he greeted me with a smile: Cheng Yifei, you are still the same, almost the same as when you were a child, you haven't changed much.

The old classmates hadn't seen each other for more than ten years, and when they met, they didn't feel the long-lost strange embarrassment at all.We talked about the interesting things we grew up when we were young, and we went to the society after graduating from college, and we experienced all kinds of experiences in our respective jobs.

Then he suddenly changed the subject and asked me: "How old are your children?" I said in embarrassment: "I don't have children yet, my ex can't have children."

Then he asked me some questions about marriage. I didn't want to tell him that I had two unhappy marriages, but if you avoid some questions, you have to keep making up new lies to prevaricate. I think that's too artificial , and simply told him the truth.

He blinked his big eyes suddenly, and said to me with great sincerity: "Cheng Yifei, you are still the very sincere and honest silly girl in memory, it has nothing to do with telling me about the past, please don't mention it to any man in the future." The one in my family and I have been married for eight or nine years now. When we first got married, she never told me the real situation in my wife’s family. I was always buried in the dark. Confess with me, my family may not be able to accept her, and I may not accept her. There are some things in marriage that need to be taken slowly, and some things need to be rotten in the stomach for a lifetime and not told to the other half. "

Because I knew that my old classmate was completely out of kindness, so I listened carefully the whole time, and he continued to talk to me:
"Although you were not at fault for both times, you are both victims, but in this social reality, people's hearts are sinister. If you tell the whole story frankly, the result is that others are still colored with a magnifying glass, looking left and right at you, Preconceived ideas have sentenced you to death in advance of the possibility of happiness.

So old classmate, you listen to me, you have two marriages in the future, you will rot in your stomach, don't tell anyone.You have no children, and you are no different from an unmarried girl.Let me help you pay attention to the excellent men in our unit, you have to have confidence in yourself.The fate has not arrived, but the fate has arrived, and it can't be stopped. "

After I went back, his words kept lingering in my mind. I felt that what he said was not unreasonable. Why didn’t I think about it this way? In the past few years, I kept silent about these two marriages. Said that he was divorced and had no children.

I know that this is already considered honesty, and it is definitely not deceitful. I don't need to reveal too much of my true past to people I don't know well.But I always think, if I meet someone I really like in the future, and a partner who wants to spend my whole life, can I really only hide from him for a lifetime?
It is true that everyone's present and future are the most important, but the "past" is also an integral part of your complete life.

There is no impenetrable wall in the world. If he cannot accept the real and complete you in the future, and one day he discovers your secret by himself, he will probably feel that you walked into his world wearing a false mask. Saying it is not a fatal deception and injury?
The old classmates were indeed doing it for my own good, and they were afraid that others would know my weakness and hurt me, or reject me on this ground, but how to face it and how to deal with it is only my own choice in the future.

Don't give to others what you don't want, I am open-minded by nature, I like to be the most authentic self, I don't like to be deceived, and I will not choose to deceive others either.

I usually do things seriously and meticulously, and I am principled. It seems serious and introverted, but in fact, the true appearance of my soul is unrestrained and unrestrained, completely unconstrained by worldly vision.

Love is vigorous, sincerity is unreserved, once the principle and bottom line are touched, I have the kind of guts to smash teeth and swallow blood, and I will definitely let go.The persistence and stubbornness of Taurus are fully reflected in me.

I have hands and feet, talent and wisdom, and I don't need to be attached to a man to live.The beauty of marriage is that we finally find a life partner who can be with us and fight side by side, and work hard with us to live a better and more hopeful life, instead of looking for a pig teammate, whether in the material world or The spiritual world is endlessly oppressing us, which seriously consumes our vitality and combat effectiveness, and hinders our progress towards happiness.

I think the reason why fate gave me setbacks and ups and downs on the road to marriage again and again may be to teach me today to see human nature, the essence of marriage and life.

(End of this chapter)