Natural beauty, inspirational nature

Chapter 40

On the Ching Ming Festival in 2019, I went home to worship my ancestors and visit my father's grave.

In the fields in the countryside, there is the fragrance of soil and rapeseed flowers floating, and a large number of golden rapeseed flowers are in full bloom.

I sat behind my mother's electric car and looked at the dealers along the road, as if I had returned to my carefree childhood.

I think of my childhood when my father picked me up and rubbed my fleshy face with his fine stubble. Others laughed at him as a "show girl" because he always praised everyone:

"My baby girl is really smart, and this year she won the award of three good students"

"An article written by my daughter was published in the newspaper again"

"My daughter participated in the composition contest and won the first prize. Hahaha"

His hearty laughter seems to still linger in my ears. I haven't hummed his favorite song "In the Place where the Peach Blossoms Bloom" for a long time, but the lingering baritone has long been engraved into my soul. deepest.

When I came to the tombstone gathering center in the brigade, I followed my second uncle and third uncle to the cemetery of my great-grandfather and my great-grandmother to worship. Their cemetery is very old, and the tomb is covered with bricks and sealed with cement. , There are also "cables" on the four corners.

Because my mother and my grandmother all believe in Catholicism, and our church does not allow foreign teachers to kneel and worship, so every time we pay respects to the deceased elders on our father's body, we only perform "bow".

The ashes of my grandfather, grandma and my father are the same, they are all managed according to the unified management method for ashes in the village in recent years, and they are also placed in the grid of the newly built funeral hall a few years ago.

After paying homage to grandpa and grandma, the last one to worship is my dearest dad.

His father, who believed in foreign religions with his grandparents when he was young, strongly asked his mother to help him with the conversion ceremony before he died, and converted to Catholicism.

Because he wants to reunite with his mother by the Holy Lord in heaven in the future.

Whenever this matter is mentioned, my mother always has red eyes.

When foreign teachers worship, they need to burn paper money to pay homage to the dead, but the Catholic way of offering sacrifices is completely different from foreign teachers. We don’t need to burn paper money and ingots. We only need to light 3-5 white candles on the altar, and then read aloud to the dead. Use the special scriptures to pray that the Lord will show mercy and bless the deceased who are already in heaven.

When I was a child, whenever I attended memorial service, and saw my grandmother recite those obscure classical Chinese Bibles, I always looked at her pious face in puzzlement, and had no idea what she was singing.

Occasionally, I was forcefully taught to learn one or two lines of scriptures for prayer, but I still learned the meaning of the scriptures I chanted, but I still had a half-knowledge of the meaning of the scriptures I chanted. Know that it is a scripture to pray to the gods to keep you and your family safe.

It was not until recent years when a new version of the Bible translated into modern languages ​​came out that I followed my mother to gain some real understanding of the Bible.At least I can understand the stories written in each chapter and the principles preached.

Every time I accompany my mother to church, the new generation of priests no longer preach the old-generation Bible in classical Chinese, but lead everyone to study the Bible in modern language.

The new version of the Bible is easy to understand, and every word and every sentence in it promotes kindness and benevolence.Every chapter is inseparable from the theme of truth, goodness and beauty.I like to recite them with my mother very much, because every time I recite them, I feel that my heart becomes clear and clear like being baptized.

Almost every Qingming Festival, my mother and I would read the "sacrifice" of the Bible to my father.

When the candle was lit, when I drew the "holy water" soaked in the reed in the shape of a "ten" in front of my father's portrait, I suddenly heard a "ding dong" on my mobile phone, and I recognized it. It was the voice of someone on WeChat who applied to add me, but I don't know who added me.

My mother began to chant scriptures to my father. The second uncle, third uncle, younger uncle, eldest aunt, second aunt, younger sister, second aunt, third aunt, and the whole family stood behind my mother and me, standing in order, and bowed to my father one after another. present.

I secretly picked up my phone and glanced at it, and saw that the person who added me was none other than the guy on the dating website who made me fall in love at first sight when I saw the photo.

His profile picture is very handsome. He is tall and standing in front of an ancient Chinese building, wearing a casual jacket with a shirt and tie inside, which is very fashionable and good-looking.

He stood on a slightly higher cement stone step, and there was a large open space beside him, and the ground was covered with water, it felt like a heavy rain had just passed, and the sky had just cleared up.

The green water is rippling, printed with dark green ancient buildings, and also printed with his handsome and unruly face.Just in response to the phrase "a modest gentleman, as gentle as jade", seeing this photo, I especially want to add a sentence at the end: full of smiles, like in the middle of the water.

I couldn't help but feel a burst of joy, I silently drew a cross with my fingers on my father's portrait, and said to my father in the sky: "Dad, after my daughter divorced, I was alone for a long time. I have survived countless years alone. Difficult days and nights, whether happy or sad, sick or healthy, every time when I thought my true destiny was about to appear, fate always slapped me cruelly and woke me up.

Thousands of sails are exhausted, none of them.This time in front of your mourning hall, this young man was able to accompany me by chance. He reported a report in front of your old man and made a show. Although he was only at the other end of the network, I don’t know the future What kind of story will there be with him.

Dear dad, my daughter is really embarrassed. I, who has always been rational and calm, fell in love with this boy just seeing the photo for the first time.I believe that on such a special occasion, at such a special moment, he suddenly appeared in my world. Is it also God's guidance, or is it simply a thread that you secretly entrusted to God to lead me, as a matchmaker? "

When I got home, I couldn't wait to turn on my phone and accepted his addition. His nickname is "Acecool", which means super cool in Chinese.

In this way, in the world of Internet waves, my male god and I started our first chat:
"Feifei, a nice name. What does Feifei do?"

"I am a hard-working advertising design corpse" I laughed at myself a little humorously

"Well, that's a job that takes a lot of creativity."

"I think you are handsome, you look like a Korean star 'Hyun Bin' I like"

"I think you are also very good, very feminine" This is the first time he praised me in the online world, I am very happy, at least we have a good impression of each other at the moment we saw each other's photos.

"Many people say which star I look like, but do I have another distinctive feature?"

"What is it?" I asked curiously.

"Obviously, I'm taller than Xuan Bin." When he said this, he was obviously very confident in his appearance, and he was a little proud.

But I don't dislike his self-confidence, because it is true that Hyun Bin has just passed 1.80, and he is 1.89, so he has the capital to be proud of.He is by far the tallest and most handsome boy I have ever known.

The first chat in the online world is very pleasant, because each other is a strange and new existence to each other.But to be honest, when chatting with a handsome guy, I actually feel a little uneasy in my heart.

Because often the more you like someone, the more you will care about the other person's reaction, and you will become cautious unconsciously.Especially girls like me who are usually more reserved.

But even though my heart was excited and nervous, in the world of text messages, I still pretended to be very calm, not wanting him to see through my inner world at a glance.

After the Qingming Festival, I took the bus back to Changzhou. The three-hour drive, listening to songs, watching Tarot divination videos, and going to sleep soon passed.

I don’t know when I became obsessed with Tarot divination in my spare time. It may be because of the lack of some sustenance in my soul. Tarot fortune-teller’s meticulous psychological analysis and psychological comfort to the human emotional world, as well as the understanding of the unknown five-dimensional world. The exploration of the world and the soul of the higher self allows me to see a richer self in the subconscious and more beautiful possibilities in the future.

Every time the vacation is over and I have to buy a ticket for the return trip, I feel very depressed because I think that I will leave my hometown and go to work alone again.

But this time my mood is very different, I feel that there is another "he" in my world.

I call him Xiaoyu because his name is Yu Qingyuan, and Yu has the same pronunciation as "fish".

Although his name is not double-syllable, there is a word "Yuan" in it, so I gave him another cute nickname: "Yuan Yuan".

I said: I'll call you Yuanyuan, it sounds kinder.

He sent a smiling expression: As long as you like it.

Open your eyes and turn on your phone every day, and see Xiaoyu's profile picture, and your mood will become very bright.

(End of this chapter)