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Chapter 68 Love is precious, dignity is more expensive

"Wait," I subconsciously called out to him.

He stood up from his seat, and before he reached the door, he heard my call, stopped one meter away from me, and stopped.

"I still haven't finished talking. If you don't reply to my message, it's not that I don't understand. I'm not stupid because I'm an adult. I probably guessed that you probably don't mean anything to me, but you also need to know how to treat someone who likes you very much. From a human point of view, your cold and violent avoidance method of not responding in silence and not giving a clear reply is also a very irresponsible way of dealing with it.

Do you know that the other party will only mistake you for giving him a glimmer of hope because of your silence.If you do this, you will only make others wait for you with expectations.You don't know I'm really sad. I really like you and miss you every day."

At the end of the speech, my voice was a little choked up, and the last sentence of confession was so soft that even I couldn't hear it clearly.

After finishing speaking, I cried.But I knew very well that this was in a public place, in the meeting room of someone else's unit, so I didn't dare to cry, just a little crying.

There was a pang of sorrow in my heart, because the last sentence was the truth I wanted to tell him the most during this trip, but what's the use?He didn't want to hear my confession, he just wanted to draw a line with me.

I saw the moment when he got up to leave, his eyes were filled with the coldness and disdain of wanting to say goodbye to me forever and never get in touch with each other.At that moment my heart was broken.

I tried my best to suppress the sadness in my heart, trying to maintain my last decency and dignity, but unfortunately, tears wanted to burst out of my eyes.

I didn't expect him to stop leaving because of this, but I didn't expect him to listen to my last "statement" and continue to throw the last sentence at me in a tone of command and disgust. "Let me tremble with anger when I think about it on the way back later"——

Please don't do this!Here is the office!There are people around, please pay attention to controlling your emotions!

Hearing this sentence, the collapse of my heart is unimaginable.What he said afterwards reminded me of the scene when my father beat me for no reason when I was young, that is, my father was in a bad mood, so he vented his anger on me, lifted me upside down, and spanked me. I was wronged and wanted to cry, but before I could cry out, he scolded me "don't cry".

I immediately felt that this stinky fish was simply a devil. He didn't care about human feelings at all. Whether you like me or not is the second. You, a big man, treat a girl who really likes you like this, and came all the way to see you. Crying all the time, and still not allowing others to shed tears, I simply don’t understand pity and cherish jade at all, it’s fine if I don’t have a word of comfort, and I’m ordered to pay attention to restraining my emotions, and don’t even allow others to shed tears?

I was really sad and angry at the time. I was so angry that I met such a cold-blooded monster, and I have been obsessed with him for so long?

I have a "weakness". As long as I get angry, I can't speak, my mouth becomes sluggish, and my reaction becomes slow.All the grievances in his stomach flowed back into his stomach.

I saw him talking and preparing to leave the conference room at a rapid pace, and I suddenly became sober. I felt that I might really love the wrong person. I was destined to be unable to keep a man who didn’t like me. There is no reason to beg him to stay.

So I also asked him coldly: "Are we really not going to contact each other anymore? Are you unwilling to add me on WeChat? Are we not even friends?"

"Yes, don't add WeChat, don't contact me." He responded indifferently again.

I was a little desperate, and I asked him: "Are you really so decisive? Did you not read the WeChat message I sent you before?"

He paused for a second, seemed to think about it seriously, and then replied to me, "I've watched them all."

When he said this, he had already walked to the door and was about to pull the door and leave.

I didn't give up, subconsciously, I felt like I was in the final "dying" struggle, and continued to ask: "Then I will add you in the future, and you will never accept it?"

In fact, I think that in the last 2 minutes, the few words I asked were just repeating one meaning back and forth, asking him if you would like to add me in the future, and then contact me?It's just that "changing the soup without changing the medicine" has changed a kind of text organization, tone and attitude.

But it's amazing that he, being a gentleman, replied one by one very patiently.And it seemed that at the last moment he was even a little soft-hearted. After thinking for three seconds, he replied to me and said "I'll think about it" and then opened the door and went out.

When he first met me on the Internet, he commented on my strong logical thinking ability and said that my speech was "watertight". In fact, he is not a rigorous thinker in another sense. Be very cautious, don't leave any loopholes, let alone give any promises easily.

I think if he is not really soft-hearted towards me, then there is a high probability that he is really annoyed by my questioning. He is afraid that I will be too persistent to stay there, so he forced himself to give me an answer that seemed a little "hopeful".

I wiped away the tears that were about to overflow from the corners of my eyes with my hand, stood up and walked out of the meeting room.

He knew that his colleagues were watching us, and when he walked into the corridor, he pretended to turn his head and said politely to me: "Then I won't see you off. You go on your own."

I thought to myself, can you stop disgusting me?You don't like me at all, and you don't even have the slightest intention to give it away. You never forget to act in front of your colleagues until the last moment, as if I really went to his unit to visit his clients.

I replied coldly: "It's okay, there is no need to send it."

After I finished speaking, I was so sad that I went downstairs.At that moment, one of them was going east and the other was going west. I think our fate may be like two parallel lines running in opposite directions, and there will be no day when they meet again.

When I walked downstairs, I found that the battery in my mobile phone was running out, so I had to go to the guard to find a socket to charge it.

The doorman saw me charging and stood up to let me. I kept saying "Thank you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."The staff at the side replied politely: "You're welcome, it's our honor to have such a beautiful beauty come to recharge."

Hearing such compliments, I would normally be very happy, but at this moment, I just feel so uncomfortable in my heart. Passers-by, A, B, C, D, think that I am good-looking, even if the whole world thinks that I am good-looking, what is the use? Woolen cloth?
The person I like doesn't see me in his heart, he doesn't think I'm pretty!He didn't even want to listen to me say a word, and he sent me away in a hurry.

After leaving their unit, I was so angry that I went back the same way and walked to the bus stop, waiting for the bus to go back to the city.

Along the way, the words he said kept reappearing in my mind, every single word was like one sharp knife after another pierced into my heart, which made me very sad.

Although I basically maintained my self-esteem at the scene, I responded one by one.But I always feel very upset in my heart, and I have a feeling that I have been stepped on the bottom line of dignity.

I was a little confused. Before I walked out of their factory, I couldn't remember which sentence he said caused me extreme discomfort. It wasn't until I got on the bus and the cold wind was blowing outside that I regained my senses. .

His words, "Our two social circles and friend circles don't have any intersection, so we don't belong to the same class (world). It is impossible for the two of us to have the opportunity to get together." It keeps echoing in my ears!

"What? What did he say? Cheng Yifei, did you hear clearly? He said we are not a 'class', or are we not a 'world'"? "

I asked myself, and I couldn’t find out why. People always have a natural shielding immune function for facts that they don’t want to hear, and for some harsh evaluations. My brain suddenly seems to have amnesia in selective "fragments". It is still unclear whether he was talking about "class" or "world".

I only know that when I heard that sentence at that time, my heart trembled slightly. In fact, no matter whether it is the world or class, I feel that I was excluded from his "Three Realms" by the male god in my heart from the very beginning. outside.

But "world" and "class" are two distinct and completely different concepts to me.Because if he said "world", it's okay, it just shows that he and I live in different circles, but if he said "class", it has obvious class contempt.

But at that time, I didn't pay attention to what he said, but I was inexplicably angry.I took out my phone, replaced the account, and sent him several additional messages with the new account:

"Different circles are all excuses. Opportunities and intersections are not born with you. If you really love someone, you will create intersections if you don't have intersections." "What do you mean by different classes? Your family is from a military family, and our family is not bad, right?" "I think he looked down on my origin and family background, and looked down on my financial conditions, and used this as the primary reason for rejecting me, which I couldn't accept.

Since I was a child, I have believed that all men are created equal. In my world, there has never been a distinction between classes, because my family is full of teachers, doctors, nurses, and soldiers. Among the outstanding students brought up by my mother are all walks of life. There are talents from all walks of life. Even if everyone comes from different backgrounds and the disparity between rich and poor is huge, they can respect each other and live in harmony.

When I chose a partner to fall in love with, my parents and family members never asked me to look at those "objects" who wanted to be friends with me with the filter of secular material interests.

Looking back now, in that situation at that time, the reason why I was extremely angry was not because he rejected my confession, but what made me angry was that he rejected my two high-sounding reasons, which challenged my three views.

First of all he thinks there is no love in adulthood.Love only exists in the campus era.Secondly, he thinks that we are of different classes and are two parallel worlds, there can be no intersection, and he believes that there can be no result between us.

And this kind of concept is exactly the opposite of my three views, and I have always been very repulsive and disgusted.

I think the intersection of love may occur at any age. Love is not just a product of collisions between young people on campus. The love between young people is pure but immature. Also mature, the love of the elderly is mellow despite the vicissitudes of life.As long as we always protect and preserve that precious "initial heart" for ourselves, the tree of love can flourish forever.

And love should not only not be restricted by age, nor should it be restricted by different classes.

Everyone is equal before true love.We live in an era of rapid development of modern civilization, we are young people in the new era, and we should no longer be bound by the concept of family status and class in feudal thought.I think that if love is labeled with class, family background, substance, age, region, etc., it will lose its pure beauty and can only become a product of worldly material desires.

But at that time, I didn't fully realize the specific reason why I was so angry. I just added messages to his WeChat for two consecutive days, vented my doubts about his views and my dissatisfaction, and then I gave up. (Because I'm so angry, the frequency of adding is a little higher, and I know that the other party may not always see it in time, or even some information may not be seen at all)

I know that it is impossible for him to suddenly change his three views because of my sadness, and it is even more impossible for him to have any compassion for me before returning to me.

I had to face the fact that we were completely separated, no, it should be said that I had to face the reality that he had completely excluded him from the "love list" before we really started dating.

　Friendly reminder: The following plot is more abusive, please be mentally prepared for the readers.

　　
　
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